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" The World Meets Jackie ! "


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Guest JackieP

" Bye-Bye Perry ...... and ...... Meet Jackie ! "

Although " Jackie " has been around forever , She " officially " faced the world in October /06.

I'm a pre-op mtf trannsexual on hrt and living full time as a female since above date. "Jackie " is one of my legal names.

I'm what I call middle aged and waited for " YEARS " before I made this decision. Family was a factor and so on. I might add I spoke to counsellors - first on phone , then face to face - for a couple of years prior.

I was an only child an my Dad died when I was 8 and became the " Man of the House " at an early age - quit school and started working when I was 15 and " Appeared to be very much a manly man " while trying to fight off " Jackie " !

As time goes on , my g/parents passed away first and then my mother in 1999. I am not married and have no kids as well.

No immediate family here at all . I was-am self employed as well , which made things easier for me to " come out ".

I also kind of stayed away from close friends for a couple of years prior as I was pretty much living full time as a female - but behind closed doors. I had long hair and had feminized a lot and would dress gender neutral - pony tail , no heavy m/up etc. when going out - always female attire tho ! Even now , I'm a casual dress person , usually wear jeans (not grubby !) , nice tops - sweaters and some bling and almost always heels - usually boots ! Friends were noticing , but it was a gradual transition. I might add that I had a full beard for years prior ! lol

But ...... I was still hiding ! Enough was enough !!

I had-have a g/friend and told her first - she handled it well ! On a lighter note , she commented something like " Now I know why you never complained about going shopping with me ( clothes, shoes etc. ) and have so much patience ! " lol

She was the first to see me ( other than counsellor ) as " Jackie " . We still have an adult relationship , but treats me as a

" G/Friend " as well. She talks to me differently now - all good !

Next I told - showed some close friends the real me - there was a little party at a buddy's house and Jackie walked in - just casual attire but , hair - nails - m/up - heels and all ! - ( along with a bunch of booze ) !!

Some didn't recognize me ! lol - thought it was a joke at first , then came the questions and answers - it was a very long day - night but " Most " came to realize that it was " Still Me " and that didn't - or will never change !

From that day the word got around and I shocked a lot of people in the process ! Most of what I call close friends are still with me , but I did loose some , but thats to be expected .

I believe one problem is that a lot of people out there associate this with being " Gay " ( I have no problem with gays ) , and then think your going to hit on them and so-on .

I personally don't think you have to act like a sissy to be a female ! I still turn a wrench - weld - build - fix anything I have to !

( I hate ruining my nails tho ! ) lol

I believe a person should still be themselves and once others see that " YOU " may look different , it's still YOU deep down !

In my case most accepted " ME " !

This is a very abbreviated version and I could go on forever , but I have end this somewhere !

I should write a Book !!

Just remember , its a long journey that has a lot of bumps in the road ! Not Easy !!

Good Luck to All !

Jackie

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Guest Donna Jean

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Hey, Jackie....

Welcome to the Darkside...(We have cookies)!

I'm happy that you posted about yourself here and got us familair with you...I had spoke to you on your profile page (remember me?...lol)

That is quite the story, but of course, most of us have a tale to tell about how we got this far.

Congratz on being full time, though!

I'll have to stop by chat and say "Hi"...but for an "experienced" woman (read: old) it goes pretty fast for me!

It's nice to have you, Honey...

HUGGS & LOVE

Donna Jean

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Welcome Jackie to the forums,

I see you are a chat mod, i am too but i do not think our paths crossed there.

Allot of what you said i can relate to, i have only been full time a little over a year but it has been the happiest time of my life.

I am sure you have looked over the rules, if not please do so.

Maybe we will bump into each other in chat sometime.

HUGS!!

Paula

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Welcome to the forums Jackie!

I'm just not fast enough for chat but I'm pleased to meet you here and enjoyed reading your story.

JJ

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Hi Jackie,

Welcome to the Forum side of Laura's! Really nice to have you introduce yourself over here. Not sure if our paths have crossed on Chat or not. I am fairly new to Chat, and often run and hide in one of the sub-rooms whenever the typing gets fast and furious in the Community Center.

I live in a rural area, so occasionally pick up a wrench or strike an arc myself. Hope you will continue to post here, and perhaps I will run into you on Chat someplace.

Huggs,

Opal

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Guest ricka

Hi Sugar!! So nice to meet you. I loved your short bio! Looking forward to

your future posts too. A goal I set for myself this year was to build a

circle of friends who know and accept me as a woman. So was great to hear

about your coming out to friends.

Hugs, Miss Ricka

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Guest JackieP

Thanks to all who read my " very abbreviated " bio. and welcomed me here ! I wasn't aware of this side of L.P. and recently stumbled upon it .

I find it interesting to hear about what other's are going thru , and how they may deal with things !

See you all later ,

Jackie

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Guest Redbeard

Wow. Quite a story. I have yet to 'come out' to my friends, except for a few VERY close friends. But most of my friends are very openminded about such things, I'll wind up telling them sooner rather than later.

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Guest sarah f

Welcome to the forum side Jackie. I loved your post and I could have kept reading if you had written more. I hope to see you on our side more.

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Guest Alice4016

Hey Jackie :P

Nice to see you here :D Welcome. It's nice to read your story, and I'm glad things went relatively well for you :D Glad your here :D

Best wishes,

Nashida

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Guest JackieP

:rolleyes:

Welcome to the forum side Jackie. I loved your post and I could have kept reading if you had written more. I hope to see you on our side more.

Thanks for the reply and welcoming me here !

It is a long process for anyone that makes this dramatic change in there lives, and you go through a lot before you achieve your goal. I'm still a work in progress and probably would no problem writing a book at this stage.

I was - am contemplating a book ......... Think it would sell ? lol

Thanks for the responce,

Jackie

xx

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Guest JackieP

:rolleyes:

Hey Jackie :P

Nice to see you here :D Welcome. It's nice to read your story, and I'm glad things went relatively well for you :D Glad your here :D

Best wishes,

Nashida

Hi !

Thanks for welcoming me !!

My journey so far has been harder than that - it's never easy - but I'm still going forward ! lol

All the best,

Jackie

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Guest JackieP

Wow. Quite a story. I have yet to 'come out' to my friends, except for a few VERY close friends. But most of my friends are very openminded about such things, I'll wind up telling them sooner rather than later.

Hi !

Thanks for the responce !!

I wish you luck with your own situation - as I've said so many times , " it's not easy ".

Jackie :rolleyes:

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Guest JackieP

Hi Sugar!! So nice to meet you. I loved your short bio! Looking forward to

your future posts too. A goal I set for myself this year was to build a

circle of friends who know and accept me as a woman. So was great to hear

about your coming out to friends.

Hugs, Miss Ricka

Hi !

Thanks for your kind words ! Nice to meet you as well.

It is hard to do , but is also so nice when you can be "Yourself" around your friends !

Be strong !

Jackie

xx :rolleyes:

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