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Due to recent stress (see other posts), I have began shooting up again along with snorting some pills. I just can deal with this sober anymore I don’t think and, despite this site, I don’t think anyone cares. I just want to fade away or die.

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Guest Donna Jean

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Honey, I'm so sorry to hear this....

You know that you are cared about here....everyone cares and has tried to show it to you...

What you are doing is wrong for you...you gave it up and had a very good start....

I know that you're hurting and I wish that i could do more...

Listen, please call a drug help number and talk to someone, come onto our live chat and talk, PM us and we can try to help...

Please don't get back into this vicious circle...

We do care

LOVE

Donna Jean

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Guest sarah f

I agree with Dee Jay. Please Please Please don't start down this road again. Whatever it takes fight it off. I know drugs might help you get through the day but it won't help you truly. We are here for you if needed. Please seek out some help and kick this in the booty for the last time and stay clean with us here on the site. We are all here for you and really care about you. I don't want to see you hurt yourself.

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Penumbra, if you didn't think we cared at all, you wouldn't stil be here talking with us. That

means something. It means that there is a part of you that hasn't given up, that still hopes

there is something better.

You have to want this, hon. You have to want to get better. It has to be the most important, single

goal you have in your life right now.

We have no power to compel you to seek help. That can come from only one place - inside of you.

You've made it this far, you can make it another day.

Listen to me, Penumbra: DYING IS NOT A SOLUTION!!!

Call this hotline number now: 800-662-HELP Please do it for me. Do it for yourself.

Love

Carolyn Marie

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Guest Elizabeth K

There is a common answer to all those who do what you do on Laura's - which is really posting and asking 'why go on?'

Death is permanent. Not a good idea to suicide.

So don't suicide - you are killing that girl in you and she is innocent!

Lizzy

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Guest RachaelAnn

Penumbra, I know where you are coming from. Sometimes it gets so hard you don't think you can make it. I can't tell you how many times I have almost started getting high again. I don't have anyone in my life either, with one exception. My wife. She has been my rock for so long. She kept me on the straight path, and stood by me when I diverted. If you have even one person; a friend, a colleague, a distant relative, or just anyone willing to listen whether you know them or not, please go talk to them. It can help more than you may think. You know that everyone here is behind you 100%. If ever you need to talk you can PM any of us and we will be more than willing to help if we can. Carolyn mentioned one number you can call anonymously, but here is one other you can call too:

1-800-cocaine(262-2463).

Please give one of them a call. I lost my best friend due to drugs. I don't want to hear that we have lost you too.

Your Friend,

Rachael

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Guest ~Brenda~

Someone that I knew killed herself last week. She was addicted to heroin. Inspite of all of our efforts to help her, she would not attempt to help herself. In the end, she died feeling hopeless and not able to kick her habit. Sadly, she did not understand that help was right there in front of her if she would just reach out and touch that help.

Think of yourself 10 20 years from now and what is really possible for you. All of your goals and dreams can be realized if you allow them to be real.

Killing yourself will only confirm that your life had no hope. There is hope. Coninue to live and see how wonderful life can be.

Killing yourself is defeating yourself. You are far more stronger than that.

The treasures of life await you. Life is constantly changing. In time, you will see what I am saying.

Brenda

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Guest miss kindheart

Dear Penumbra,

<<<< hug >>>>

I am so sorry to hear that you are using again :(

I know it is hard to quit , but you have to.

I had many bad habits in the past too , but then one day I found something I cared about more than all of them put together.

I started transition, and gave them all up.

All you need to do is find something to replace your desire for doing drugs.

Maybe truly becoming a woman will work for you too, think about it.

As for no one caring, I care , and can't you see all the love others here have for you too.

Be good Pen

Try again

Day 1

With love from,

:wub: vanna

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Guest RachaelAnn

Think of yourself 10 20 years from now and what is really possible for you. All of your goals and dreams can be realized if you allow them to be real.

Killing yourself will only confirm that your life had no hope. There is hope. Coninue to live and see how wonderful life can be.

Killing yourself is defeating yourself. You are far more stronger than that.

The treasures of life await you. Life is constantly changing. In time, you will see what I am saying.

Brenda

Well said Brenda.

Rachael

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Death is not romantic and please read a book called Reviving Ophelia about young girls like Ophelia in Shakespeare's Hamlet and it gives so much info about how to return to normalcy after the hell of young adulthood,,,remember Ophelia killed herself because she thought Hamlet rejected her love and it was a temporary miscommunication.....So read it and try one more time,,,,,,PLEASE!!!!

Mia

xx

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