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With my first week of working coming to a end I am very happy and excited about how things are going. One thing I've noticed though is that I'm much more open to talking to people, even people I don't know. I used to be very quiet and reserved. I'm not sure exactly when that changed. Has anyone else experienced this?

I have therapy tomorrow and look forward to telling her the good news about this week.

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I'm so glad to hear everything's going so well for you. It's such a brave step and you are yet another one of my heroes for taking it.

As far as being more open to conversation, I guess I've always been a chatterbug, so I just tend to be more empathetic. But I was reading an article in the L.A. Weekly about Christine Daniels (nee Michael Penner) and people who knew her said that when she was Mike, she was quiet and reserved but once she was Christine, she became incredibly social.

It's just you as you are. You're no longer hiding and worried about being discovered, so you can just be yourself (and apparently you are not a wallflower). :D

Keep moving forward!

love

Gin

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As soon as I realized and accepted I was trans I decided to be myself. Even though people would still see a woman -it would be me talking to them. And I am much more relaxed around people now. I'm not waiting for them to realize that something is wrong with me. Until I transition it means they don't always realize who they're talking to, but I do. And I know they'll never guess. Although oddly enough I haven't been Mam'd once since I began to jut be myself.

It is great to hear how well your week has gone. soon you 'll take it all for granted. Isn't that amazing!

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That's one of the biggest changes I noticed when I transitioned. I never had any REAL fiends before. I didn't know how to get close to people. I guess I was kinda scared to because I thought they would all abandon me when they found out.Now I've got more friends than I have time for!

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Congrats on your first week, Natalie. You are another shining example and role model, an ambassador for the TG Community. I'm proud of you, and you should be proud of yourself.

Social skills? I always got along fine with everyone, but I have many more real friends now, and am much more open about myself. I'm no longer afraid to show emotions, and I'm more confident. I smile a lot more, especially at women, and they smile back. :D I think they sense something in me. Before, I was painfully shy around women. Now I feel like part of the "club," whether they know about Carolyn or not.

Carolyn Marie

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I'm so glad to hear everything's going so well for you. It's such a brave step and you are yet another one of my heroes for taking it.

As far as being more open to conversation, I guess I've always been a chatterbug, so I just tend to be more empathetic. But I was reading an article in the L.A. Weekly about Christine Daniels (nee Michael Penner) and people who knew her said that when she was Mike, she was quiet and reserved but once she was Christine, she became incredibly social.

It's just you as you are. You're no longer hiding and worried about being discovered, so you can just be yourself (and apparently you are not a wallflower). :D

Keep moving forward!

love

Gin

I guess I'm not anymore. It's helped at work. Usually I don't demo the new classrooms to the faculty and have let other people take the lime light because I wasn't comfortable interacting with them. Today I did the demonstration myself and it went very well much to the surprise of my boss who exclaimed afterwords that it was out of character for me.

That's one of the biggest changes I noticed when I transitioned. I never had any REAL fiends before. I didn't know how to get close to people. I guess I was kinda scared to because I thought they would all abandon me when they found out.Now I've got more friends than I have time for!

Same here. Before I started transitioning I had my cousin and his family and one friend from childhood that I hung out. Then my friend and I drifted apart because of his drug habit I only had work, my toys in my apartment (at the time I didn't own my place) and maybe going over to my cousins to get out. I rarely spoke with anyone or went out after work. Looking back my life sucked and I wouldn't be surprised if my aggressive driving at the time was in some way a effort on my part to kill myself without it being suicide. I did the same thing walking around in DC. People that knew me mistook it for bravado but I realize now it was a death wish.

Since starting my transition things have been entirely different. I've got friends from work, friends from support groups near me, and shockingly friends in my neighborhood. I spend much less time in my place during the weekend alone and I find myself being much more cautious.

Congrats on your first week, Natalie. You are another shining example and role model, an ambassador for the TG Community. I'm proud of you, and you should be proud of yourself.

Social skills? I always got along fine with everyone, but I have many more real friends now, and am much more open about myself. I'm no longer afraid to show emotions, and I'm more confident. I smile a lot more, especially at women, and they smile back. :D I think they sense something in me. Before, I was painfully shy around women. Now I feel like part of the "club," whether they know about Carolyn or not.

Carolyn Marie

Thanks Carolyn. It's hard to think of myself as a role model or ambassador. My biggest role models are Donna Jean, Elizabeth K, and my friends I know in real life; Diane & Amanda.

I've been a lot happier this week and smiling more in the last 4 days then I have in a long time.It's something people that know me have been bringing up all week long.

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