Antisocial And Confused

[Guest KathyK]

I am an 18 year old biological male, but for as long as I can remember, I have had a strong desire to be accepted as a girl. Sadly, after some ridicule as a young child, I came about the conclusion that I should repress that feeling and act like a normal boy, but as the years went by I became more confused not only about who I really was, but who I was trying to be as well.I became completely socially withdrawn, and now have intense social anxiety. I still feel like I should really be a girl, and I really want to start being comfortable with myself, but I can't seem to find any sense of self left anymore. Normally I avoid most social situations, even forums, but I thought someone on this site might be able to help me.

[MaryEllen]

Hello Kathy,

Welcome to Laura's Playground. Feel free to ask your questions. We'll try to provide answers.

MaryEllen

[JJ]

Hi Kathy,

Welcome to Laura's. You have found a place where you can be yourself. Where you can express your feelings and opinions and have them understood and you will be accepted just as you are.

We've all been through similar situations and understand the confusion and conflict you feel. Please feel free to read and post as much as you like. We are here to help each other

Hugs

JJ

[Guest Donna Jean]

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Hello, Kathy...

Welcome to th Playground..

I'm Donna Jean...

Come on in and have a seat and we'll see if we can be of some help....OK?

Have a cookie and a hot cup of coco while we get to know you and you get to know us better...OK?

Now, I'd like to ask you to be sure to have a look at the forum rules...there's a link at the top of most pages...It says “Terms & Conditions..

And, we moderate this site to keep it safe for everyone..

It's nice to have you.....

I think that you'll like it here...

Huggs

Donna Jean

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Welcome to Laura's. You seem to belong here, so please stay with us a while. Most of us have a form of gender dysphoria where our apparent body sexual identity does not match the real gender we feel we are - a fancy way of saying a woman in a male body (Male to Female or MTF) or a man in a female body (Female to Male - FTM).

There are other forms of gender dysphoria, but most here feel we are not really what we were assigned to be at birth.

Also - we are not therapists and can only share with you our life experiences - but we ARE non-judgemental and we are very friendly. Many here are VERY Socially Dysfunctional. So you hit that target too.

Ask questions and make comments. We are glad to help if we can. BUT the biggest thing?

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

Lizzy

[Guest okayokay]

you dont have to hide yourself here or pretend to be someone else. this is a VERY relaxing, welcoming, and accepting place. and lets not forget VERY helpful. welcome to the forums! :]

[Guest therisa]

Welcome Kathy. As other have mentioned here, you're alone on hiding your true self. I did for 28 years, after announcing to teh world that I wanted to be Wonder Woman, when I was 7 years old. You just took one of the biggest steps in the world, don't even realized it. Good for you, Kathy. Hope, you post more and start feel comfort around us.

hugs,

therisa

[Guest KathyK]

Thank you so much for the support! I love the name Kathy already.

I was expecting judgement just for that one post, and after getting to know the site just a little better, I feel really silly about how long I waited to post it.