"kathy, I’M Lost," I Said, Though I Knew She Was Sleeping...

[Guest KathyK]

Hello Laura's.

I'm an 18 year old trans-whatever, and I'm so happy to have found this magical place where I don't feel presured to igonore who I really am.

My entire life I've felt like I needed to be a girl, but since my prayers to wake up with a body of the opposite gender were ignored, I ignored my feelings and went about life as a very out of place boy. This just doesn't feel like me. I've still yet to really find myself, but I know that I've found a wonderful place to start looking in the right direction, and make a few friends that can know the real me along the way (as long as I can learn not to be so shy) <3

[Guest sarah f]

Welcome to Laura's Kathy. I am glad you found this magical place also.

When you have a chance take a look at the terms and conditions located at the top of each page. We are a moderated site and keep it pg-13.

If you have any questions feel free to ask anytime and we will try to help out. I look forward to seeing more from you.

[Guest Donna Jean]

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Kathy....

I see that you're already making headway since your intro....

One more post and you'll be able to use the Private Messenger and talk to any member privately..l.

I'm glad that you're here!

Huggs

Donna Jean

[Guest KimberlyF]

Hiya Kathy.

Welcome to LP and I think most of the people on the board become shy from years of trying to fit in and feeling uncomfortable with ourselves. The best strategy is to just jump right in and post early and often and pretty soon you see that people here respect you for who you are and accept you and will go out of their way to help you.

Kim

[Paula ult]

Welcome to Laura's Kathy,

I was the same way as you when i was little, i prayed to be a girl when i woke up.... nope never happened either, same with if i said i wish i was a girl three times, i transitioned over 2 years ago at the age of 56, for me remembering those 2 things in my distant past confirmed what i had known all my life, and that i should have been born a girl.

To sort this all out you need to find find a gender therapist, they can help you determine what direction you need to go.

HUGS!!

Paula

[Guest Opal]

Hi Kathy,

Welcome to Laura's! Nice to have you join in. This site has a lot of useful information, plus there are many wonderful people here that one can engage in polite conversation with.

I see you have four posts, so with one more post you should be able to use the Personal Messenger (PM) feature of the site here.

There is also a Chat section to Laura's if you enjoy real-time conversations with others. Chat does require a separate username and password for signing in.

Well, hope you will continue to post as you are comfortable in doing so.

Huggs,

Opal

[Sally]

Hi Kathy,

I was very shy at first too, but with the help of my wonderful friends here I have gotten over that.

Now, why don't you come sit here with me and we can chat a bit over some fresh baked cookies and a cup of hot cocoa.

Just my way of making you feel at home, I know that there is no actual food and we are not sitting next to each other in a physical sense but that does not matter here - all that matters is that you can be yourself and we will still love you and care about you - no strings attached.

Love ya,

Sally

[JJ]

Welcome to Laura's Kathy!

It is a marvelous feeling to be yourself and you have found just the place.

Like others here I woke every morning for years disappointed that I had not been transformed overnight. And many Christmases as well.

In that more innocent time I didn't know what made a boy a boy and often showed up for breakfast announcing my new state. I was always disillusioned-and so frustrated when no one would explain why I wasn't a boy when I just knew I was.

I'm glad you've joined our family and look forward to hearing more from you.

Hugs

JJ

[Guest ChloëC]

Hi Kathy,

Welcome to Laura's. We're glad you're here.

Let me tell you about shy. I was so painfully shy growing up (partly because I was confused about who I was - if I wasn't sure, how could I expect others to like me), that I think others took for aloofness or standoffishness. Oh, the friends I might have had if I could have just broken through that very self imposed barrier. I've gotten over it but it took a long time because I just had to work through it. And with Laura's I can be more me, than I have ever been, and understand myself more.

You've come to the right place.

Hugs

Chloë

[Guest KathyK]

Thank you everyone for being so supportive. Once again the kind users on this site have brought tears to my eyes with their level of support and understanding. I feel less alone already (even if I don't get real cookies).

I plan to get to a GT as soon as I'm in a better place with money.

I feel less unsure now, though. Like, if I feel like a woman, then I deserve to be one.

Thanks again, Laura's.

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Thank you everyone for being so supportive. Once again the kind users on this site have brought tears to my eyes with their level of support and understanding. I feel less alone already (even if I don't get real cookies).

I plan to get to a GT as soon as I'm in a better place with money.

I feel less unsure now, though. Like, if I feel like a woman, then I deserve to be one.

Thanks again, Laura's.

Kathy

Isn't it GRAND to know you are not alone?

Hon, 'We Get It!"

Lizzy

[Guest KimberlyF]

Hi Kathy,

Welcome to Laura's. We're glad you're here.

Let me tell you about shy. I was so painfully shy growing up (partly because I was confused about who I was - if I wasn't sure, how could I expect others to like me), that I think others took for aloofness or standoffishness. Oh, the friends I might have had if I could have just broken through that very self imposed barrier. I've gotten over it but it took a long time because I just had to work through it. And with Laura's I can be more me, than I have ever been, and understand myself more.

You've come to the right place.

Hugs

Chloë

That's one of the rubs with being shy or socially challenged. There is a woman at my wife's school who everyone pegged as a snob or aloof or whatever. And when my wife or I would say hi, she'd just say hi and not much else. Now with my child having Aspergers my wife has mentioned this to the other parents and this woman said she was sorry to hear it but not much else.

Then emails started where she said this broke her heart and she'd do whatever it takes to help us or our son if we need it and she'd talk to our school or whatever if they didn't treat us right.

Because of our own self-confidence issues we never joined in with the mob mentality towards this woman. But it's sad her shyness makes people dislike her instead of seeing the sweet caring woman inside.

Kim

[Carolyn Marie]

Welcome to the Playground, Kathy.

We're as happy to have you with us as you are to be here. I hope you post a lot, because that's the way to get the most out of the site.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Guest okayokay]

Welcome to the forumsss :]

[Guest miss kindheart]

Hi Kathy,

<<< hug >>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules.

We have MTF meetings-Mon & Sat 9pm est, and you are welcome to attend.

We all look forward to seeing you.

vanna