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Guest Sharah

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Hi, I am Sharah (on the inside). I have been hiding all of my life, embarassed by who I am and afraid to express what I feel. Feeling malformed and wishing I could have the body that would feel normal. I have lived my whole life (60 years now) as I was born. I have done all the things that I was "supposed" to do. Got married 25 years ago, had children, brought them up and supported them.

My knows that I used to cross dress but she has no idea of how deep my feelings go. My three sons know nothing about this part of me and I don't thinki they would be very accepting.

I have been searching the internet for a long time trying to find something that would tell me who I am and what is "wrong" with me and what I can do to make myself feel "normal", relaxed, at peace, maybe even happy for once.

I found this place and joined today. I hope it is a place where I can feel at home wiht people that know me for who I really am. Everyone in my life knows the image I project and not the me that is inside. I am tired of acting and playing a role. I want to be me.

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Hi, I am Sharah (on the inside). I have been hiding all of my life, embarassed by who I am and afraid to express what I feel. Feeling malformed and wishing I could have the body that would feel normal. I have lived my whole life (60 years now) as I was born. I have done all the things that I was "supposed" to do. Got married 25 years ago, had children, brought them up and supported them.

My knows that I used to cross dress but she has no idea of how deep my feelings go. My three sons know nothing about this part of me and I don't thinki they would be very accepting.

I have been searching the internet for a long time trying to find something that would tell me who I am and what is "wrong" with me and what I can do to make myself feel "normal", relaxed, at peace, maybe even happy for once.

I found this place and joined today. I hope it is a place where I can feel at home wiht people that know me for who I really am. Everyone in my life knows the image I project and not the me that is inside. I am tired of acting and playing a role. I want to be me.

Welcome to Lauras Playground Sarah, you have found a great place that you can cast aside the false you and be yourself, no pretending, no hiding. When I found this place it was like a godsend to me I was finaly accepted and didnt have to hide all the time. Be yourself and have some fun :)

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Guest Donna Jean

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Hello, Sharah

Welcome to the Playground!

I'm Donna Jean

You're 60, eh? Well, no sweat, so am I....lol

We have a number of older girls here, so, you'll not feel alone...

I've been on HRT 20 months and I live pretty much full time now!

So, dang it, it's doable...

I'm an old motorcycle riding, Vietnam vet...but I pas 100%....

See? It's doable...

So, come in and have a seat..I'll get you some of Sally's cookies and a hot cup of coco...

Then you can relax...OK?

Now, I'd like to ask you to be sure to have a look at the forum rules...there's a link at the top of most pages...It says “Terms & Conditions..

And, we moderate this site to keep it safe for everyone..

(don't worry....I tell everyone that!)

It's nice to have you...we can talk more later...ok?

Huggs

Donna Jean

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Guest Opal

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Hi Sharah,

Welcome to Laura's! Nice to have you join in. There is a lot of useful information on site, plus many wonderful people here. It is a great place to engage in polite conversation, plus after five postings, you can make use of the Personal Messenger (PM) service this site offers.

Hope you will continue to post as you are comfortable in doing so.

Huggs,

Opal

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Guest Sharah

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You folks are the greatest! I sure wish I had found this place years ago. It is so reassuring to know that there are people who understand and that I am not the most unique deviate on earth, or insane. Finally people who understand and that I can let know the real me.

Donna, thanks for the cookies and hot chocolate. I am also a vet but I missed Viet Nam. Was air force from 75-77. I am also a biker, love the two wheel experience and ride as often as I can. I have contacted a counceler that works over the internet and I will see where that takes me, I couldn't find anyone near me.

I am axiously looking forward to finding some relief from the struggle and stress.

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Hi Sharah,

We try to be supportive as much as we can. Wonder if you have ever talked with a Therapist, specifically a Gender Therapist?

Huggs,

Opal

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Guest Sharah

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Hi Sharah,

We try to be supportive as much as we can. Wonder if you have ever talked with a Therapist, specifically a Gender Therapist?

Huggs,

Opal

Hi Opal,

I am setting up with a therapist right now and should be starting very soon. I am hoping to be able to sort out everything and maybe get some help telling my family members something about what is going on inside me.

It is really hard having been incognito for so many years. I have been rather successful at hidng things and that is what makes things so much more difficult. Ths shock factor is going to be a real experience. I really don't want my situation to be a burden on my three boys or my wife. I just want them to know what is going on so I can relax and let it take its course.

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Sally Gold Member

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Congratulations - that first session is always exciting, be sure to just be yourself and always tell them how you really feel about things.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Donna Jean

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I just got the news that my first therapy appointment is this Friday afternoon. Wow, I am so excited!

Absolutely outstanding!

Keep us posted...ok?

And post...we wanna know what's going on with you...(we're nosy...lol)

Huggs

Donna Jean

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Guest Elizabeth K

Guest Elizabeth K

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Sharah

I somehow didn't see your earlier posts - but you had some great people come and welcome you!

Therapy is starting? OH MY

GRAND!

You will keep us informed please?

I'm Elizabeth Anne (formally) - the 'K' is not important anymore - I am one of those 60 plus old gray mares here! I have two girls and one boy, all grown and married now. You might be surprised with your boys. All of my children turned out to be extremely suppostive of me.

Glad you found us...

Lizzy

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Guest miss kindheart

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Hi Sharah,

<<< hug >>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)

We all look forward to seeing you.

:wub: vanna

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