Getting Inside The Devil

[Guest therisa]

I know

My moment of action

Is fast drawing nigh

Regarding

How I handle my flashbacks

Of my childhood memories

With my brother.

How I would love to see

What was going

Through his mind

When he used force

Against me.

Was he acting out

Because

Of petty jealousy

Because

I’m the eldest.

Who appears

To be getting better things

While he got “hand me” downs.

Else violence

Only way he knew

Communicating his frustration

To the wider world.

Or is it

Something more

Deeper than

I can understand

Which motivated him

To hate.

How I wish

He was more talkative

To me.

Instead of him

Constantly clamming up

During a time of crisis

Relying totally

On brute force

As a solution.

Maybe

I will never know

What his thought process is

Beyond his anger

And pain.

As much as

I hate to admit this

To myself or others

Somethings

Are totally of my grasp

Except my healing.

[JJ]

Very good Therisa-and you are making progress!

Love

JohnJ

[Guest therisa]

Very good Therisa-and you are making progress!

Love

JohnJ

thank you, John.

hugs,

therisa

[Guest miss kindheart]

I have to wonder if your getting inside of him , or could it be that , some of him is inside of you

I tend to believe that a little of him is inside of us all, as is GOD or goodness.

Try and always follow the good, Be good

I think that you do have the power to hear yourself, maybe give it a try, think positive, and always look up to better and brighter things

<<< hug >>>

vanna

[Guest therisa]

Vanna, for too mant years, I have let him (my brother) control me. Am tired of this happening, to me. He can't push me, down the stairs, now, or break my stuff, because it has great value to me and to him, it means nothing but something to destroy.

therisa

[Guest miss kindheart]

Vanna, for too mant years, I have let him (my brother) control me. Am tired of this happening, to me. He can't push me, down the stairs, now, or break my stuff, because it has great value to me and to him, it means nothing but something to destroy.

therisa

It is good to see that you are becoming confident, and can see that you have the power to stop the things that have happened in the past.

I think you are destined for greatness

Master self control, and learn forgiveness

<<< hug >>>

vanna

[Guest therisa]

Think, I will forgive him, before I do so, for myself. Keep on worrying, while I didn't call the police or tell a neighbour about teh events that were happening at home, while growing up.

[Guest Elizabeth K]

You are not your brother, Therisa. He is not you! love him, hate him or what you must.

But become yourself.

Lizzy

[Guest therisa]

Can I tar him with some molasses and feather, for Hallowe'en?