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1Yr Into Transition, And Starting A New Relationship <3


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So last night I went to a Pagan/Wiccan gathering called the "Witches Ball" with some friends. It was really awesome, and totally an accepting atmosphere. It was my first time entering a ritual circle, and even though I don't consider myself Pagan, I entered it anyway and went along with it. It was very peaceful, and really quite cool experience. If you ever get the chance to enter a circle, just go for it :) "with perfect love and perfect trust" as they say haha. So anyways, I was there with my bestfriend Kerrie. She is GG and has known me since before my transition, but we only actually became friends after it. We were really hanging on to each other for the whole night, walking around holding hands, because we only knew one other person there, and all the pagan talk and stuff is really out of our league. We had a few drinks, and then our other friend Matt went on stage and did his Fire Dancing routine. During the Fire Dancing my friend Kerrie started getting really really close to me, I mean I was practically engulfed by her haha. She said something like "I love you Jess" and I think I said "awww Kisses!" to her. This is totally normal for us, we are just that sweet to each other :) But this time, when I said "awww kisses!" she actually came down and kissed me! I played it off as like okay some girls definitely kiss their friends and it doesn't mean anything. Later that night, when we were sitting down I wanted to take some pictures of us. When I held out the camera to take the pic she said it would be cute if were kissing each other in the pic. So again we kissed, and I took the pic. Well... I missed the shot... So we had to do it again. Then we didnt like the pic, so again.. Kiss and take pic. This actually went on for a couple more shots before we passed the camera to someone else to take the picture, cuz I couldnt kiss her and aim the camera at the same time. That changed everything... We went from just two girls being cute with each other to two girls fully making out and like putting their hands all over each other! Our friend took a few pictures and then he realized that Kerrie and I were way beyond the pictures thing, so he set down the camera and left us alone. We probably made out for a good 30 minutes before we realized what was going on.

I have to admit I had never thought of her sexually before that moment. But later that night when we were in the car driving back to my house she told me she had always thought I was beautiful and had actually wanted me for a long time. We talked about relationship stuff and pretty much agreed we were going to take it slow and see how it went. I am actually really thrilled to be starting a relationship with her... I just hope it doesn't end and I lose my best friend in the world... cuz I wouldn't be able to handle that. So I really need to be cautious with this, but I am definitely going to let myself enjoy the moment.

Everyone out there who is worried about transitioning and finding love... it CAN happen! Just get out of the house, go places, do things, meet people... It is out there. And it's not just because I was at a Witches' Ball ... cuz neither Kerrie or I are witches :)

I thought about posting one of the cute pictures of us up here... but I realized that wouldn't be right :\ Anyways, I hope my story inspires someone <3 <3 <3

Happy Halloween!

Jessica

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Guest KimberlyF

This is always the difficult part with a relationship like this. It can be amazing and yet it's a bit frightening because you feel so close to her and can't imagine it going bad and losing her. I hope it works out for you and you two stay together :)

Kim

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Guest sarah f

Sounds like you had a really great time at the ball. I am so glad you two are hitting it off. I know you are scared she is your friend but sometimes your partner needs to be a really good friend first and foremost if the relationship is going to work.

I hope you two work it out and can be happy together for a very long time.

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Guest Donna Jean

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Jessica....

Honey, it's difficult in a relationship like this because you stand to lose a best friend AND a girlfriend...

But, we're drawn to whom we're drawn to....

Go slowly and talk a lot...

Good luck, Hon!

Huggs

Donna Jean

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Guest MonikaC

Jessica,

Sometimes the best relationships come from the best friendships. Like Donna said though, go slow, and make sure you two are talking about any issues that come up. But make sure you are having fun though! That's what life is all about!

Monika

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