I Cried

[Guest Mia]

I can count the number of times I've really cried on one hand throughout my lifetime. All the despair, confusion, anger, and bitterness of being so different caused me to grow so very detached from my emotions at a very young age. I have felt like I needed to cry so many times and wanted nothing more, but just have not been able to shed any tears. There has only been a numb feeling. This morning on my way to work I just started to cry. All the frustration of not being able to make any real progress just caught up with me. I didn't cry a lot but it still felt so good! Just when I thought I was going nowhere it feels as though I made a huge leap forward. I know it is a silly thing to be so happy about but I'm starting to feel like there may be some hope after all.

[Guest raydub]

Congratulations. Crying when you havent been able to IS a really big thing. Im happy youve made some emotional progress. Keep going!

and hang in there.

Ray

[Guest Sergei]

Crying is a great emotional release. I used to do it all of the time. I think I would have exploded if I couldn't have released what I was feeling some how. I'm pleased you feel you are making progress in your life. xx

[Guest jennifer_mcg]

I'd have to borrow your hands and those of the wonderful girls here to count the times I've cried

Sometimes from frustration, others from sorrow and loss but crying from happiness and joy is the best of all!

Be patient, savour the journey, it is a long one.

Congratulations on you progress

JJ

[Guest Snow Angel]

That's great news. It's a good thing to be able to cry. Looking back, I was always such a crybaby, and now I know why. I did find it harder to cry when I was hormonally male, but I did cry still. I remember one time at my old work I got into a heated discussion with a customer, and I called the boss with advice on what to do. My voice was quavering because I was upset. Later, the boss told me: "No offense dude, but you sounded like you were about to cry." Of course I was.

I'm also able to freely cry when I hear a great song that stirs up sentimental feelings of my past; or a song that simply makes me happy.

[Guest Mia]

wow... Thanks for helping me feel normal! It is amazing how open and understanding you all are!

[Guest shimmeringkristal]

That is good news that you have opened up on that level. I am happy for you. I have not hit that level just yet but I think I can see it on the horrizon for me.

I am so happy for you. Congratz.

[Guest Mia]

That is good news that you have opened up on that level. I am happy for you. I have not hit that level just yet but I think I can see it on the horrizon for me.

I am so happy for you. Congratz.

Kristal... I'm sure you will get there soon enough. Its amazing how things like this sneak up on you.

[Guest Stephanie Butterfield]

Hi Mia,

It isn't silly to cry, you are a girl, so its natural to cry. This morning when you made such a nice comment about my picture taken yesterday outside my gender clinic, I cried tears of joy because you were so kind in the words you chose.

Thank you and bless you, now you've cried you can allow so much of that pent up emotion out

xxx

Stephanie

[Guest Mia]

Stephanie, you really do look great!

I know what you mean by letting out the pent up emotions. I feel SOOO much better since that day. I know that I have a long road ahead, but it is nice to see that I really am on that road even though it doesn't always seem like it.

[Guest whoami?]

i understand about crying and in most of my life i was really sad and could not cry nomater how sad i was most of the time and now it's still difficult for me to cry but it got a little better

[Guest frances424]

For most of my life I showed very little emotions. I grew up in a time when big boys don"t cry, but having a female soul it was so hard. When I finaly started my transition , I found all those years of emotions start to surface. I found my self starting to cry for no reason, All I knew was it felt so good. So enjoy it , you are become a woman, and a start of a great journy.

Frances

[Guest JoAnnDallas]

Crying is a good thing. I have cryed at the movies and even had a good cry when my big tom cat died. Wife sat with me and just held my hand and passed me tissues. so don't be afriad to cry if you need to.

[Guest amie]

I can count the number of times I've really cried on one hand throughout my lifetime. All the despair, confusion, anger, and bitterness of being so different caused me to grow so very detached from my emotions at a very young age. I have felt like I needed to cry so many times and wanted nothing more, but just have not been able to shed any tears. There has only been a numb feeling. This morning on my way to work I just started to cry. All the frustration of not being able to make any real progress just caught up with me. I didn't cry a lot but it still felt so good! Just when I thought I was going nowhere it feels as though I made a huge leap forward. I know it is a silly thing to be so happy about but I'm starting to feel like there may be some hope after all.

Cryin' is just great sometimes in that it's such a great release from whatever may be bothering you despite the severity. It's cleansing in several ways for me not the least of which is that reminder of fragility in myself.

[Frushels]

Heh... I don't really know the reason why... But I kind of have the same problem... wih crying. I dont know how to explain it. Its a horrible feeling. recently i've wanted to cry so bad. x.x But... xD What can ya do? I cant really force myself to cry. Well congrats. :3

[Guest Kelly]

heres one thing that is amusing

cry when you need too its natural and it6s actually bad for you mentally when you dont

if peoiple say that you act like a girl for crying take it ad a compliment (if you are m2f)

believe it or not when im stressed i force myself to cry to calm myself

[Guest Mia]

Heh... I don't really know the reason why... But I kind of have the same problem... wih crying. I dont know how to explain it. Its a horrible feeling. recently i've wanted to cry so bad. x.x But... xD What can ya do? I cant really force myself to cry. Well congrats. :3

It is so hard sometimes when you just feel like you need to cry but can't. Apparently I'm on the right path now though. I watched the bucket list last night and cryed pretty hard at the end.

[Guest Donna Jean]

Mia: thats interesting...... I also watched The Bucket List last nite and though I laughed a lot..

I found myself sobbing at the end! But, ya know what? It felt wonderful! Cleansing and what a release. I felt weak after and kind tingled all over, but it was an awsome feeling!

Peace

Donna Jean

[Guest Mia]

Oh, that's weird! I can't believe I cried so hard! It really was a good movie though!