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Is This A Phaze Fraid Not!


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Guest Michelle/nuckles

Hello It started a long time ago in a medium size town.

A small boy was going throught the big "P" right at the same time his mom and dad tell him, that they are getting a divorce.

Tme marches on... the boy was awarded to his father. but the boy can see his mom at any time.

Well the boy started acting differantly than the others . At his mom house he started dressing up in his mothers cloths when she was away.

Once when he was over at his dads and living in a partment, the boy started swipping the ladies cloth out of the public laundry.

iIn the long term the boy got caught by his mom . So mom had his older and allready married brother ask him the question " Boy are you gay or you just getting off"

So the boy said the latter to the brother.So the brother went on his way and told mom.

Then the boy got cought at dads house and was rushed to the nearest preacher to have the Demons cast out. No demons apppeared . time goes on...

He joins the miltary no problems with dressing.

Then the world gets back at the boy he gets dangeriously depressed for many years.

He see doctors and get meds start to feel good.Than Late those feeling of before and deep down come back up

Now he dresses again....he now sees another doctor ...docs say do it why not its you?

you really a girl inside.

if this was a phase its the longest phaze the boy has been on for the fist time was in 1969 and now its 2007 now it that a phaze

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I can tell you for sure it's not a phase. This is something you were born with. You might repress it for awhile but for better or worse, it's always with you.

MaryEllen :)

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hi michelle. well, it's one of those lifelong phases i guess. i'm in one myself. just, well, don't let a doctor or a therapist or anybody else tell you what you are inside. they may help guide you towards truth, but what that truth is is for you to tell them. lotsa love and hope, pj

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Guest matthew41

Hello Michelle,

I am happy for you that you have found yourself and that you overcame social pressure that considered your circumstance a phase. Yours bets mine in time. If you have read my post "RLT in reverse", my 'phase' years were 1971 to 2003. It takes alot to finaly listen to your inner voice and seek out the help needed to start your journey to your true self. I wish you all the best,

Matt

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Guest karen_h

a phase i think not. but your story is so similar to many i have talked you i would say rather than a phase it is a state of realizing who you are

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