Starting T Soon!!!!!!!!!!!

[Guest StrandedOutThere]

Dude! I am so still excited!!!

That would be awesome if I could get my first shot at the Southern Comfort conference, but I don't know if I can wait until the END of September. I want T and I want it now!!

Seriously though, I haven't decided what endo I am going to see. There is someone in town here, but I have considered using someone up in Atlanta or Jacksonville if there are some more trans experienced endos in either of those cities.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! T!!!!

Stranded!

Congratulations man. I think im just as excited for you as YOU are!

And if you dont get your script til the end of Sept then you can get your shot at the Southern Comfort Conference!!!

ok ok.. you busted me... i just wanted to be there.

Ray

[Guest Seth]

Yeah, my mom's looking into getting me a gym membership.

I love DDR, though I don't have it. Maybe I'll ask my mom to buy it...

[Guest StrandedOutThere]

Yeah, my mom's looking into getting me a gym membership.

I love DDR, though I don't have it. Maybe I'll ask my mom to buy it...

DDR is good stuff. If you play on "standard" you burn like 300 or 400 calories an hour. No lie.

[Guest GoldenKirbichu]

Congratulations!

I myself have to wait at LEAST six months if not longer... so have fun.

[Guest Seth]

I can't do standard. I'll quit.

[Guest StrandedOutThere]

I can't do standard. I'll quit.

The thing is that you can't do standard...yet. I was awful even on "light" at first. I won't say that I don't get out of breath, but I can totally get most of the steps. It didn't take it all that long. To look at me, you wouldn't think I can do it because I am both old and pudgy.

[Guest Seth]

Old and pudgy, haha.

Well, I asked my mom about getting DDR as an alternative to getting a gym membership, and she's all "I'll think about it".

UGH, whatever!

If it was my stepdad, she'd be all "oh, ok, sweetie. Lemme run out and get that for you right now." at 2 in the morning.

[Guest Tabe]

You know what also works? StepMania. It's basically a computer DDR. I have that, and you just need a USB adapter and the mat to play. And you can download whichever songs you want, all for free. So you can cut out all the crap. Right now I have about 250 songs or so, mostly anime themes (lawl). I don't have the adapter yet, but it's still fun just to play on the computer, so I'd say it's a good idea. Just make sure the screen is big enough for you O.o

[Guest Seth]

Well, I got DDR, which is great.

But, I can only play when my stepdad ain't home, cuz he lives in the basement.

Which sucks, cuz I wanna play at night.

[Guest StrandedOutThere]

Well, I got DDR, which is great.

But, I can only play when my stepdad ain't home, cuz he lives in the basement.

Which sucks, cuz I wanna play at night.

I feel your pain, man. My old apartment was on the 2nd floor. My girlfriend and I used to wait for the old lady downstairs to go out so we could play. Sometimes I would sit on the floor and try to play by hitting the buttons with my hands. This is a difficult task and results in much exhaustion. I think it also looks pretty silly.

[Guest Seth]

Ooh, I've played DDR with my hands before. It was fun!

[Guest StrandedOutThere]

Sadness!!! ...or maybe not. My therapist has convinced me to delay starting T until I am closer to my chest surgery date. As I've mentioned before, I have two DD monsters clinging to me. They don't bind so well. That just makes them unto underarm tumors.

I HATE THEM!!!!!

Okay...done with that outburst.

Anyway, my therapist says I seem like someone who will see changes pretty quickly once I'm on T. At first, I was okay with going maybe 6 months on T before top surgery. I want T so bad that I guess I wasn't thinking about the reality of doing that. Yeah, so we kind of agreed (reluctantly on my part) that I should put off starting T until late October or early November. The good news in all of this is that my therapist has agreed to give me my chest surgery letter in December!!! I explained to him that I really would prefer to get it done over a school break. Now I need to nab that date!!

Ray! I'm excited!!! I wish you could come with me though. Hey...when you get yours done, I am totally going to come down to Ft. Lauderdale and see you while you recover! Oh...and check this:

http://www.deauvillehostel.com/

Seems like a pretty cheap place to stay in Lauderdale. Good stuff.

Okay...yeah...so I am a little sad about delaying T, but WAY excited about my therapist letting me move that surgery date up a bit. In the off chance that I end up having to go out on job interviews next spring and summer, this will put me in a much better position. Yeeeeeeeeeeeeessssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!

[Guest raydub]

Thats some good stuff man!!!

I know you were a bit bummed when you thought you had to wait so long for surgery.

All this talk about changes and what not..just get me more excited about SCC! Lol.

Hrm.. now ive got to figure out my own timeline for surgery.. dont think i can bump mine up to meet your anymore.. sadness.. but as long as you come see me its all good!

That's SWEET news man.. revel in it!

Ray

[Guest JayJaye]

I'm confused as to why your therapist wants you to wait for T. It's not like T's effects start right away anyway. I've been on it for 3 weeks with really no results to speak of, unless you mean zits. I noticed a bit of lowering in my voice but I'm not sure anyone else has. I even (GGGRRRRRRRRRRR) still had a period since starting.

I guess I don't see the need to wait esp. if you've been in therapy for the requisite time and have been duly diagnosed. Heck, you've even come out to your s/o, and he's supportive, which is huge!!

Jay

P.S. Did you get my email yesterday?

[Guest StrandedOutThere]

Ray, you know I'll totally come down to see you when you get your surgery! Too bad you can't bump the date up for yours though.

I'm confused as to why your therapist wants you to wait for T. It's not like T's effects start right away anyway. I've been on it for 3 weeks with really no results to speak of, unless you mean zits. I noticed a bit of lowering in my voice but I'm not sure anyone else has. I even (GGGRRRRRRRRRRR) still had a period since starting.

I guess I don't see the need to wait esp. if you've been in therapy for the requisite time and have been duly diagnosed. Heck, you've even come out to your s/o, and he's supportive, which is huge!!

Jay

P.S. Did you get my email yesterday?

Sorry about the period. Mine is on the way. This might very well be your last one though! That's something to celebrate!

If we had gone with the start date I originally planned on, I'd have been on T for over 6 months before surgery. My tumors are GIGANTIC. My therapist seems to think I would have significant changes within 6 months and that the chest thing might make my life difficult...more so than I realize. I know one other guy online that delayed T for the same reason. I've tried binding and it just does no good. In fact, it makes me look pretty freakish.

So, I'm a little sad about the waiting game. My therapist is a little on the cautious side, I think. I don't know. It's like he thinks that being on T first is part of making the changes gradual enough to deal with them. In the back of my mind I feel like if I don't get that letter in hand soon, it's like I won't get it. I am scared to death of not getting that thing. I know he isn't stringing me along, but I worry about it.

You know what else? I am scared to death about having surgery. I'm hoping T will at least make me more fearless or something...or make me care less.

I didn't get your email. Maybe try sending it again? Could be that the spam filter grabbed it.

[Guest raydub]

From how ive been hearing it the changes from T do take a few weeks to ramp up, but then it goes pretty fast after that. This is just my take on it. My talkdoc (Jack) said some of the same stuff yours did Stranded. Its probably different though cause i can bind ok to hide the... ...my chest. *hrm...that was creepy*

what binding method were you trying by the way...?

Jack had mentioned how even though things seem to go slow at first others may start to notice your increasingly masculine appearance. Those small cues in the face, body build and whatnot that we tend to not notice. My transdad got top surgery before he started T - worked out well for him too.. granted he was passing before any of it.

I dunno.. this might be a good thing dude.

Ray

[Guest StrandedOutThere]

I have a binder from T-Kingdom, but it is not powerful enough to suppress "them". My therapist seems to agree that the monsters are basically unbindable. I mean, I can put on a binder, but it just hurts and doesn't do much good. They really are horrible. I think I'll try ordering a different binder, one of those long ones, and see if that at least helps a little. What's worse, a couple of my friends that I am not out to said that "they" were really nice after I was complaining about them at dinner. I know they mean well, but that's not what I want to hear! Not helping!! There has been way too much breast discussion around here lately. One of the research assistants in my lab actually got implants. That led to all kinds of discussions that I didn't want to hear.

Man...I just don't want these things. They are keeping me from my T. They are keeping me from passing. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!! Also, it is about to be "that time" of the month. I'm so bummed. I think I am going to go play Guitar Hero for a bit to get my mind off of things.

I'm going to have to talk to my friend this weekend so I can lock in a surgery date on Monday. I know THAT will make me feel better.

[Guest theEND]

Congrats, that's awesome!! I hope all goes well