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so..when i went to the bank this morning i wasnt able to get the $60 for my appointment with the doctor for my first shot today. i was SCARED to say the least. the clinic is cash/card ONLY.. no checks.. and i get paid tomorrow. after exhausting a few of the possibilities my girl called me and was all, "i know it seems like youre always waiting but maybe you should just reschedule" so.. like a punk, i call the clinic and ask her what other options i have...NONE. then go to the bathroom and cry.

called my bank though.. one of the three i use and the trusty credit union says "youre covered..for a fee"

frankly, i dont care WHAT the fee is...h*ll i get paid tomorrow.. can i PLEASE get this show on the road?!

sigh.

i just hope this goes well....leaving work now to go to the clinic.

wish me luck.

dude, i feel like im losin it!!!!

Ray

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Guest StrandedOutThere
so..when i went to the bank this morning i wasnt able to get the $60 for my appointment with the doctor for my first shot today. i was SCARED to say the least. the clinic is cash/card ONLY.. no checks.. and i get paid tomorrow. after exhausting a few of the possibilities my girl called me and was all, "i know it seems like youre always waiting but maybe you should just reschedule" so.. like a punk, i call the clinic and ask her what other options i have...NONE. then go to the bathroom and cry.

called my bank though.. one of the three i use and the trusty credit union says "youre covered..for a fee"

frankly, i dont care WHAT the fee is...h*ll i get paid tomorrow.. can i PLEASE get this show on the road?!

sigh.

i just hope this goes well....leaving work now to go to the clinic.

wish me luck.

dude, i feel like im losin it!!!!

Ray

Ray, seriously bro...I'd totally have floated you the cash for the appointment. That stinks man...hardcore...for real.

GOOD LUCK AT THE CLINIC!!! YOU'D BETTER POST ONCE YOU GET BACK!!

I'm waiting....

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Guest jantonio

Good luck Ray. Yeah, it would be really bad if you had to reschedule it seems like we've been waiting forever for this.

Let us know how it goes. :)

Jose Antonio...

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Guest Evan_J

A) Thou shalt not lose it.

B) Do you not know not to leave a bunch of transdudes with a cliffhanger when the subject is T? <--humor. Its supposed to help you not lose it.

**joins the pack to wait for the outcome**

God I hope this goes right....

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Guest raydub

LOL.. I LOVE you guys!

Im back at work.. FINALLY...aaaaaand..

I GOT MY SHOT!!!

woohoo!

There will be blog and vlog updates done tonight! woohoo!!! the doctor's callin in my prescription ive got needles for about a month and im off to the races!

Thank you for all your good thoughts while i went to meet my fate.

love you all...like for real.

Raymond W.

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Guest raydub

Dude! Im stoked!

Ok..maybe its just me being really excited.. but the world feels really real.

Ive actually felt this feeling before, but I was probably wasted beyond all recognition (praise God I dont have to live like that anymore) .. anyway...

its kinda like.. being extremely present. like the world was farther away from me than it is right now.

like..the concrete looks harder.. like it finally exists.

hope i dont sound too much like a loon. :blush:

anyway..im still really really excited.. and tryin to calm myself down .. and cant .. tehee!

*high fives around the room!*

Ray

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Guest StrandedOutThere

Ray! Congratulations! That is so awesome! Whoohoo!!! *high fives* :P

I am so ready to be on T!!! It sounds like it is pretty much just...AWESOME!!

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Guest Evan_J

High five to you, and thank God.

Something about you gettin that shot was "necessary" so that the world could continue in a sequenced way...talk about soundin loony. :P

Congrats.

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Guest jantonio

High fives man!!!

I can't wait to be on "T" myself, my endo's appointment is August 18th.

Again, congrats Ray!!! Party time!!! :rolleyes:

:D:D:D:D:D

Jose Antonio...

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Guest Snow Angel

What's wrong with you all? How can you all be celebrating him poisoning himself with such a vile substance? Hmph. *Stalks out of the boys' room*

(Obviously this response is written with absolute sarcasm and irony in mind.)

Congratulations, Ray. I can picture how excited you were at the time. I've really seen you grow up and gain in confidence since you've joined the LP forums. You've taken the first step, so good luck on the rest of the road towards manhood.

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Guest RainBird
so..when i went to the bank this morning i wasnt able to get the $60 for my appointment with the doctor for my first shot today. i was SCARED to say the least. the clinic is cash/card ONLY.. no checks.. and i get paid tomorrow. after exhausting a few of the possibilities my girl called me and was all, "i know it seems like youre always waiting but maybe you should just reschedule" so.. like a punk, i call the clinic and ask her what other options i have...NONE. then go to the bathroom and cry.

called my bank though.. one of the three i use and the trusty credit union says "youre covered..for a fee"

frankly, i dont care WHAT the fee is...h*ll i get paid tomorrow.. can i PLEASE get this show on the road?!

sigh.

i just hope this goes well....leaving work now to go to the clinic.

wish me luck.

dude, i feel like im losin it!!!!

Ray

Hey Ray, I'm sure everything will come good ^^

Best of luck, and big hugs :)

xoxo

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Guest raydub

Thank you EVERYONE!

Yes, I was WAAAY too excited. :lol:

You can SEE how excited i was on my youtube joint...

i guess just search for me.. im raydubiii on there.

You all are great. So much love and support. Makes me smile on the inside... ok ok.. AND on the outside.

:D

Raymond

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Guest StrandedOutThere

Dude! I just checked out your videos on YouTube. Lookin' good, bro. It was cool to see "Ray in motion". I'm going to have to start a vlog so I can respond to yours.

Hey...I noticed you said "rad" in your video when you were talking about your new PC and monitor at work. You'll have to fill me in on the details of the new PC. How much RAM? Processor? Quad core perhaps? Hit me up!

See, you aren't the only nerd around!

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Guest raydub
Dude! I just checked out your videos on YouTube. Lookin' good, bro. It was cool to see "Ray in motion". I'm going to have to start a vlog so I can respond to yours.

Hey...I noticed you said "rad" in your video when you were talking about your new PC and monitor at work. You'll have to fill me in on the details of the new PC. How much RAM? Processor? Quad core perhaps? Hit me up!

See, you aren't the only nerd around!

:lol: "Ray in motion" is always a slightly awkward thing..but im workin on that. :lol: I get nervous and jittery..but all things with time eh? And you should SO start a vlog.

my work PC.. im just a developer so no quad processing but dual, yes. :) E8400 @ 3 Ghz w/ 3.48 GB RAM..drool.. and randomly DVD +R DL... cause im going to be writing dual layer dvds to take home..wait.. NO. but...i'll find a way to put it to use, im sure. ;)

<--- dork.

Ray

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