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Ok so I've been FCD since Jan 2011, but lately I've my doubts. And not about Rowan, but about Madi. I used to love my boobs, and now it's freaking me out a little that I seem to despise them. I recently got my hair cut short and kept on being mistaken for a guy, being seen as a guy gave me this insane thrill that I'd never felt before! And it's starting to make me think, what if my girl side is just a disguise to seem at least half-normal? Now that I think about it I only watch chick flicks for the hot girls, I only wear skirts or dresses when 100% nessicary, I look up to my male friends and not female ones, I like guns and am quite good with one, I like quads, I LOVE action movies and when I try and look girly I end up looking like a girl I would sleep with not be. I've also been dreaming and day dreaming about a life as Rowan, a normal life with a babe as gf and a six pack of beer in the fridge. What the hell is going on?

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Yea recently asked my mum if she could send me to a gt, she said I had to try her theripist first. -_-

Another thing tho is that I always wanted to cut my hair short (even as a kid) and have always picked fights with boys.

And when it comes it fights, I've always started it and always ended it. No execptions.

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I think seeing a therapist would be the best thing. Not all women do girly things. Men are not the only ones capable of being aggressive and starting fights. As for liking girls? Well, gender identity and sexual preference are separate entities.

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Bobbi

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I think seeing a therapist would be the best thing. Not all women do girly things. Men are not the only ones capable of being aggressive and starting fights. As for liking girls? Well, gender identity and sexual preference are separate entities.

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Bobbi

It's not the liking girls I see as a factor, but more that when when I'm dressed as a girl I seem to look like a chick I'd sleep with rather than... me. You get what I mean?

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You make yourself what you would be attracted to because people attracted to that do the same thing and therefor look attractive to you XD

That make as much sense as I hoped it would?

But, yeah, therapist, not me, cause after all I'm still in school not studying psychology and what-not.

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You make yourself what you would be attracted to because people attracted to that do the same thing and therefor look attractive to you XD

That make as much sense as I hoped it would?

But, yeah, therapist, not me, cause after all I'm still in school not studying psychology and what-not.

Yeah, I know Maria. But at least you get what I mean...

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