dead

[Guest Vixen Amber]

Break the skin, sever the vein

Feel the blood begin to drain

A look of ice, emotions insane

When the world hates you who cares

tie the knot and slip into black

tie the knot and dont look back

When you swing to and fro

the mind screams, blood spattered snow

Swallow the barrel, feel the taste of iron

Trigger pulled, hammer cocked light in the eyes gone

when the world killed you who cares

A feel of hopelessness, a taste of scorn

a hate for the world, a hope to see it burn

of 2 faced friends, loneliness and emotionally dead

I want to see you lose your head

peel the flesh back, see the lies,

worthless in your wretched eyes

a handful of pills to end the hurt

mouth foaming, blood starts to squirt

do you care? did you ever feel for me?

burn the temple, here the screams from within

built upon the lies and sin

i look in the mirrors twisted gaze

i light up the bowl and disappear in the haze

pain diverted, memories of a childhood gone by

the man of black who stole my innocence begins to die

in the fields of daze burning twisting and writhing

church man says he wants just one more tithing

to save my soul, to free my mind, a Christ fix lit on the spoon

youll burn forever, but who cares, we dance around the moon

blood, tendon, we start to sing, about murdering the king

we look into our souls and realize we've lost everything

as i look into the light one more time,

tears of a vixen crimson tears down the cheeks

noone will find me, not for weeks

until they smell my corpse bloated and reeks

[Carolyn Marie]

That is one intense bit of imagery, Amber. You seem to be in a dark place right now. I hope that writing this helps get those feelings released.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Guest ~Brenda~]

Vixen,

I hope that you know that you are not hated. There are many of us who have been where you are now, but are long past that angst.

Why don't you just relax and understand that Laura's is here for you. Stop fighting against your demons alone and allow those of us who have tamed these thoughts within ourselves to help you.

Just ask hon.

Brenda

[Guest Vixen Amber]

how can I be helped, I am a broken one. Perpetually stuck in depression.

[Guest miss kindheart]

Dear Amber,

<<< hug >>>

I can feel the anguish that you describe so poetically

You think too much of death

Truth is we will all die one day

Do not waste your precious time here contemplating ways to die

Instead spend your time thinking of ways to live your life to the fullest

With life you were given a great gift , It is called free will

Your heart is free, have the courage to use it

with love from

vanna

[Guest Vixen Amber]

I am tryin good and hard, just sometimes I lose sight of what is important to me...like now I am not sad but I don't know what is important to me, good health? I don't know.

[Guest miss kindheart]

Now your thinking Amber

<<<< hug >>>>>

I think the three most important things for anyone should be

You body , your mind , and your soul

Their importance is in the inverse of that order

vanna

[Guest Vixen Amber]

Mind, well I lost that a while ago so I have been running on fumes

Body, filling in quite nicely :3

Soul, I use Nuvasoul, simulates having a soul since I sold mine a long time ago to get a wicked awesome guitar :3