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Yet another introduction :D

Hi, I'm Daru. I'm a 19 year old genetic male, dream-world female, who is here looking for support and information (sound familiar? :D)

My first experience with woman's clothing that I can remember: I was very young, me and my brother snuck into my parent's room and tried on her underwear. We were both caught, and I don't really remember what happened. If I remember right, she laughed and took our picture or something.

I remember our school having a faire where the kids all had booths The sixth graders put the faire on, so I was younger than that. The girls had a nail-painting booth, and I got my nails painted blue. It wasn't out of place really, a few guys did it. When I got home, my mom took it off right away. Another guy I knew kept his on for quite some time, and I remember feeling envious.

I remember painting my toes once (they are right now, actually!) and my mom wanted me to take a bath. I didn't want to take my socks off, so I jumped in the bath with my socks on. My mom was peed :P And I was caught!

I've been caught with makeup on a couple times too, but I've never been caught dressed. Usually I brush it off with quick talking or something. I am not out to my family, but I do have a great girlfriend who even supports me somewhat... I can dress around her, she'll help with makeup and stuff too! She even takes the heat for the girl things I have in my dresser, and for the occasional times I take my mom's stuff. She's an angel!

I have bought a few pieces of clothing before, mostly stuff that wasn't practical to wear, you know...

Last week me and my girlfriend took a trip to Minneapolis. We hit the Mall of America and I came back with a nice bag of "normal" girl clothes! Mostly shirts, but yay either way! It worked out great, too, today my mom and brother weren't home and I have the house to myself! I spent all day trying on my clothes, seeing how they worked with different hair styles (I really like the pig tails :D) and just being "normal". It was an exciting and liberating experience! (I'm still dressed, wearing "pajamas" - yoga pants and a cami right now! <3) I just hope I didn't leave any evidence somewhere I forgot to clean up!

Now, I do think I would make a great woman, but I don't necessarily hate my male self either. I love to look at myself in the mirror and see the little things I do to feminize myself. Just today, I took a picture of myself (actually my waist line) with my webcam and just looking at that makes me so happy, I look like a girl! My face looks pretty girly today too, and I'm not even wearing any makeup! Maybe it's my hair? The hair can stay until the next time I see my Grandma... she threatened me to get it cut last time! Three months ago! :D I've lost quite a bit of weight, I was VERY over weight in my youth. Every pound I lose I look more girly. It's great motivation! I really work hard! O_O

I've spent long nights staying up wishing and dreaming that I was a girl. I would wish to wake up a girl, trade bodies with various girls for a day, even lay in bed visualizing my body morphing into the feminine form.

I desperately want to come out to my mom. I think she already pretty much knows, and I wonder if she would be supportive or even go shopping for/with me. I think she probably would if I asked... I just know how my mom is, and if I tell her I don't know if I can trust her to keep it a secret. Either way, I would rather tell her as a man than be caught dressed as a woman and having to explain myself. There's been numerous close calls.

While I would love to transition, I feel that I want to be able to pass as a girl before even seeing a doctor about it. And visually, I am probably pretty close. I have very wide shoulders, and a pretty large adam's apple... but my lower body is very feminine.

So I just spilled a lot of information in a bunch of short and incoherent paragraphs, and it felt great <3. If you read this far, you're either a wonderful person or very bored!

I hope to make friends here!

Daru~

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Hello Daru,

Welcome to Laura's Playground. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

MaryEllen :)

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Thanks for the warm welcome.

Do you ever get parents who discovered their kid without their kid telling them? If so, could you possibly direct me to such a thread?

Thanks a lot

Daru

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Guest raydub

Welcome to the Playground Daru!

Looking for support and friends...youve come to the right place!

Make yourself at home and stick around a while.

:)

Ray

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Guest Sara N

Welcome to the forums. Though we've met in other posts.

I always went to great lengths to hide everything so the chances of me being discovered were really slim.

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