I Shoulda Known I Was A Transgirl When...

[Guest Lizzie McTrucker]

Getting caught looking at the lingerie section of the Sears and JC Penney catalogs while hiding behind a couch in the basement at 5 years of age.

omg you did this too?! Those girls in the catalogs were soooo lucky!

omg! Krisina's #1 described me exactly when I was a kid, and I could name so many beautiful actresses and supermodels that I wished I could have been. Cindy Crawford comes to mind immediately. I wanted to be her so badly.

I do want to slightly change one to fit my life:

It's Halloween and one of your friends dressed up like a girl and you're secretly jealous because you asked to do the same thing and your parents said no.

[Guest Elena]

omg! Krisina's #1 described me exactly when I was a kid, and I could name so many beautiful actresses and supermodels that I wished I could have been. Cindy Crawford comes to mind immediately. I wanted to be her so badly.

Brooke Shields, Totally wanted to be her!!!

<3

Elena

[Guest kimberly c]

Hi, When you look in your closet and its half full of feminine clothes and your dresser draws are full of lingerie!!!

Love Kim

[Guest Svenna]

Getting caught looking at the lingerie section of the Sears and JC Penney catalogs while hiding behind a couch in the basement at 5 years of age.

omg you did this too?! Those girls in the catalogs were soooo lucky!

haha...yes, they were very LUCKY! My parents thought I was just being 'precocious' for 'ogling' the ladies in the catalogs. And of course, teasing and shaming were deemed appropriate ways to treat a child once again. I can't imagine just how much grief I'd have received had I confessed on that occasion that "I want to be like those ladies' in the pictures. Wow, what a nightmare!

omg! Krisina's #1 described me exactly when I was a kid, and I could name so many beautiful actresses and supermodels that I wished I could have been. Cindy Crawford comes to mind immediately. I wanted to be her so badly.

My first "I want to grow up to be her' moment took place at a drive-in theatre back in the mid-60s. My family and I were watching a new movie called "She", starring Ursella Andress. I wasn't much more than 4 years old but I remember the warm, nay, burning sensation in my private area as I admired her beauty and wished, nay, prayed, that I could grow up to be just as beautiful as 'She", er, her...Ursella Andress...my first female role-model!

I do want to slightly change one to fit my life:

It's Halloween and one of your friends dressed up like a girl and you're secretly jealous because you asked to do the same thing and your parents said no.

I tried to get permission to wear my older sisters first communion dress as a 'costume' BUT the looks and comments that came after the request were an 'education' for me to NEVER, ever, voice such a thing out loud EVER again (shortly afterward I hid that dress deep in the storage room where I could put it on without fear of being caught and punished) That was the last time I shared my feelings about being trans with my Mom. It was NOT an option in their world, so too bad for me. Too bad, indeed! If Ol' Mom could see me in this wonderful outfit I'm wearing now...hahahahaaa....sorry Ma!

[Guest GypsyXg]

I can relate to everything said here...well almost everything. Football...ewww.

[Guest Felicia Anne]

i FINALLY accepted the fact that i can be myself, on my own terms, and in my own skin.

[Guest Lacey Lynne]

i FINALLY accepted the fact that i can be myself, on my own terms, and in my own skin.

Agree 100%, honey!

Pittsburgh, PA? Dang! My hometown!

Rock On! Lacey Lynne

[Guest Svenna]

i FINALLY accepted the fact that i can be myself, on my own terms, and in my own skin.

Agree 100%, honey!

Pittsburgh, PA? Dang! My hometown!

Rock On! Lacey Lynne

I was tempted to quote that very same line. It IS the beginning of everything we have waited for...

Love, Svenna

[Guest Megan_Lynn]

When all you favorite movies are considered chick flicks..

When you get bummed a video game does not have a female char to play.

When its a good thing to want an F

[Guest Krisina]

i FINALLY accepted the fact that i can be myself, on my own terms, and in my own skin.

I'm getting there, being myself on my own terms.

Megan_Lynn mentioned games with female characters. I have one for the virtual online world of Second Life. I had a male one and it was boring and I couldn't relate. With the girl one it is fun. I get to choose my favorite clothing hair etc for her.

Krisina

[Guest GypsyXg]

Yea, secretly, but if anyone came in the room, the G.I Joes would suddenly be attacked by aliens or there'd be an earthquake or something catastrophic and "manly".

ok that made me giggle

[Guest Kendra K]

This is an older thread, but I saw the one in the FTM forum, so I figured I'd put my $0.02 here. Some things applied, some I'm not sure of, and some didn't (maybe would have if I would have considered my real feelings earlier in life?). My pre-college memories aren't very good, but I'll try.

You pick out a sports teams jacket simply because the logo looks neat and everyone else has one, not because you like the team (and when asked, have no idea what team or what sport they play).

All of your early childhood crushes involve wanting to be her and not be with her.

All of your best friends were always either girly girls or girly guys (my one best friend that was a guy was one who could giggle like any girl, especially during tickle fights).

When you're younger, you hate shopping for clothes because you'd rather be in the girls section, when you're older you buy clothes that you don't necessarily want to wear, but that you'd like to see a cute guy wear.

I do think I picked my favorite sports teams based on their colors and logos. I seemed to have liked teams that others didn't like.

I really only had 1 good male friend in highschool. I had more female aqaintanes than male ones. I remember feeling more comfortable hanging out with my female cousins than my male one (although I'd rather have been alone).

I definitely hated "dressing up" (still do!) in male clothes, especially if it involved ties (thankfully I almost never had to wear ties).

3. You want to have a hair free body and while others might have thought that is feminine

that's what you want.

6. When you are younger and guys have the job of approaching girls and making the first moves

in that ritual called dating and you wish someone was approaching you asking you out instead,

it's all too hard.

14. Your sensitive and want to be able to show it without having to always look and be

the strong silent type.

Sometimes around college time I wanted to start shaving all the hair from my body. It just seemed nice to me.

In highschool I never had urges to date, let alone sex, that (I'm guessing) the other boys did. In my middle 20s I remember calling a girl and leaving a voicemail and sitting their nervous by the phone waiting for her to call back and every minute seemed like an hour. I'm guessing guys don't do that.

I definitely was an emotional person. I quickly learned to stop that.

Getting caught looking at the lingerie section of the Sears and JC Penney catalogs while hiding behind a couch in the basement at 5 years of age.

Goodness. I can recall looking at the Sears lingerie. I cut the pictures out and pasted them on pieces of paper. I didn't come to dinner fast enough, so I got caught. I don't recall my thoughts about it though.

In college I stole a pair of panties from the laundry room and wore them. That was at least a decade before I even remotely though about transgender.

When no girls asked you out because they thought you were gay.

I've had a couple people think I'm gay. Still not sure why that is, it was prior to my doing things such as growing my hair long and things like that.

[Guest BreanneB]

When you look at a woman and the first thing you notice is here shoes. I still do this.

You look at a woman and get jealous because you want her body bad.

Your everyother weekend self care is going to the nail salon.

You raid your wife's closet to pick out clothes you like.

You spend more time on the internet shopping for shoes and feme clothes to fit a male build

You do so much research on SRS , FFS, breast augmentation, and body scuplting that you wish Poof it could happent over night.

You look online to find a package deal to save money on transitioning to female.

You have 2 facebook pages one as your old self. And one as your true self.

You take longer to get ready than your wife or daughter and they are hurry up.

You have nicer legs than most natural women.

You can walk in 5 inch heels like they were sneakers. Its a gift

You shave everything from head to toe that you can reach to get rid of that nasty thing called hair.

You stand in front of the mirror trying to figure out the best pose to flatter your figure

well this is what I do

Bre

[Guest HeatherAnne]

You tell everyone you just keep forgetting or are too busy to cut your nails/hair even though you are really growing them out because you love the way they look long.

When your stepfather threatens to paint your fingernails because they are too long and you secretly wish he would.

When people ask your name and you stop and think "wait, is that really my name? that sounds like a boy's name..."

When you slice a hotdog before putting it in the microwave so it won't explode, and imagine it as SRS on yourself... uhmm, that one is probably just me.

[Guest Jamiexo]

lol I read the first line on the first post and I laughed to myself, as i kept reading I found it amazing how spot on every detail was!!! awesome!

[Guest AllisonJane]

You ladies certainly have alot of what I would put covered but I'd like to add a few of my own.

When you have sat down to pee for so long you can't remember standing to do it (maybe that's just me lol)

Every time you hear certain Taylor Swift songs you can't help but bawl

[Guest heatherf]

Kendra,

Wow! I could have written almost your entire post except for 2 points.

1. Sports Team -- Raised in Pittsburgh, PA, there wasn't a choice of teams. It was black and gold from birth.

2.

In highschool I never had urges to date, let alone sex, that (I'm guessing) the other boys did.

I feel like I'm a very atypical TS or possibly not even TS because I have such a strong desire to have sex. Everyone else I read about seems to have little to no drive as a guy. I always waited until the girl asked me out, but then I was in a rush to get physical. Hmm.... Maybe I should make this thought into its own thread. I don't want to hijack this one.

[Guest HeatherAnne]

I recall being very interested in being physical back when I was trying to bury my TS feelings. Unfortunately, during the act I would sometimes need a TS fantasy in order to perform. As long as I could focus on my partner's enjoyment, though, I never had any problems performancewise - losing myself in the act.

[Guest .Christine Elizabeth.]

As for peeing standing up, I should have had an inkling because I've never been very good at doing it, it always felt wrong so I never practiced. Also I should have known when literally every dream I had where I had access to magic, say a genie, wish number two was to be a girl (number one was limitless rule free wishes).

[Guest AllisonJane]

As for peeing standing up, I should have had an inkling because I've never been very good at doing it, it always felt wrong so I never practiced. Also I should have known when literally every dream I had where I had access to magic, say a genie, wish number two was to be a girl (number one was limitless rule free wishes).

Hehe, that's funny,I was never smart enough to have that be my 1st wish. My number one was to be reborn and relive my life as a girl however. Consequently,this is one of the things that led me to realizing I was a transgirl.....

[Guest Melissa~]

Not my the first thought, but when women complain about their various rites of passage and I say trade you and I mean it.

As far as the numbers go, all but 4, and 2-5 on the second list, men's clothes only really offend my eyes, brain and their tactile feel. Curiously the finest of men's cloths arent too bad, they of course are eschewed by society, it's enough to drive me nuts seeing fields of bubbas with sloppy clothing.

[Guest Lady Anya]

1. When you so bad wish you could have a doll to care for and cuddle

2. When you dream you're a ballerina

3. When you play House with the other girls on the playground and you put a lot of thought into which character to be (I was always the eldest sibling- power without responsibility)

4. When you identify as and prefer playing as the female characters in video games

[Guest jennifer_m]

I recall being very interested in being physical back when I was trying to bury my TS feelings. Unfortunately, during the act I would sometimes need a TS fantasy in order to perform. As long as I could focus on my partner's enjoyment, though, I never had any problems performancewise - losing myself in the act.

i don't have a problem with starting, my problem is with finishing... either it happens too early, or we would wear each other out and still not get anywhere near close.

but back to the topic...

i should have known i was trans when i only had one friend during my school years, and never having a girlfriend during high school. i'm almost 30 and still never had a bonafide girlfriend. ah well, lesson learned i guess, i just wish i had a way to roll back the clock and relive my high school years (but as the correct gender).

[Guest MiraJ]

I Shoulda Known I Was A Transgirl When...

Im taking SamTheThinkIAm up on making this my own changing it to mtf thread

Please feel free to add to the list

1. You see a drop dead gorgeous girl and while other guys jaws drop and might have wanted to

be with her, you wish you were her.

2. You don't want facial hair

3. You want to have a hair free body and while others might have thought that is feminine

that's what you want.

6. When you are younger and guys have the job of approaching girls and making the first moves

in that ritual called dating and you wish someone was approaching you asking you out instead,

it's all too hard.

7. Your romance fantasy is of you being the one swept away.

8. Your in the men's clothing section and it is so boring.

10. Your a teen and you want to have a sleep over with girlfriends as one of the girls.

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12. You really don't like this thing called testosterone in your body that makes you

aggressive sometimes

13. You would like to go out for the day starting at a day spa get a massage, a pedicure, manicure,

go get your hair done, go out shopping for some sexy clothing and look drop dead feminine

and gorgeous when you are all done.

14. Your sensitive and want to be able to show it without having to always look and be

the strong silent type.

15. You like makeup and all that other stuff in the cosmetics,

so many things you can do with it for fun.

16. You want to wake up in the morning and be a woman all woman.

Yes To all of the above. OMG wow

[Guest Kendra K]

i don't have a problem with starting, my problem is with finishing... either it happens too early, or we would wear each other out and still not get anywhere near close.

but back to the topic...

i should have known i was trans when i only had one friend during my school years, and never having a girlfriend during high school. i'm almost 30 and still never had a bonafide girlfriend. ah well, lesson learned i guess, i just wish i had a way to roll back the clock and relive my high school years (but as the correct gender).

Ditto here. I have performance issues, which really stinks.

No girlfriend until my early 30s, only 1 date in high-school and college combined. I met my love of my life in my late 20s and we've had a wonderful marriage. Of course I just discovered my TG feelings, so not sure what will happen. I don't want to lose her, so maybe I'll just end up doing nothing.