Hello!

[Guest Natalia]

Hello everyone. This is one of my first few posts on this forum. I am happy to have found such a place as I explore myself further. I am a college student in Florida that has recently gotten in touch with my transgenderness, since January actually. I picked the name Natalia to keep in touch with my ethnicity, being an Hispanic.

I always had little quirks about me and the like that just never fit, but I still tried to push that I was a male. I had fallen to the pressures of conforming with society and never bothering to listen to the voice that told me that I was different, that I wasn't right. I never quite fit in with males, usually hung out with other girls. I also have a stuffed animal collection, though it is smaller now than it was a few years back as I had given a few to charity when I moved to Florida.

As I said, it was in January that I got in touch with my transgender self. One of my online transgender friends was helping me sort out some feelings and had helped to push aside the different masks I wore to "blend" into society's different expectations of me. It was an eye opening experience for me, for once I was able to hear that voice deep inside of me telling me how right it felt to do what I had done. Looking back at all my quirks that my parents had said weren't very masculine, I can see why now.

As I am still in college, I am still living at home with my parents. I had come out to my parents and they laughed about it, thinking that it wasn't true. I am stuck at the moment while I live with them going thrrough school. Though I plan to move out as soon as I get my associate's degree in teaching. When I do, I plan to proceed further with exploring my transgender self.

PS: I am planning a little bit of mischief for Halloween and let my costume be the real me, so any help would be greatly appreciated.

[Guest Treefish]

Hi Natalia! Welcome to the forums!

..yeah. That was original.

It sounds like it's been an interesting year for you, I mean, learning more about yourself and all. Haha, I remember when I found out. All the subtle things before the bus of realisation (...I'm on a different wavelength than most people on the planet so that might not make sense. Oh well!) hit me suddenly became like "Whoaaa. I should have known. I r smartz."

Anyway, enough about me.

Halloween sounds like an awesome time to come out as yourself. I wouldn't know what you'd dress up as, though. What sort of body type do you have?

Actually, don't tell me. I'd want to dress you up in a penguin suit or something. ._.

It's a shame your parents laughed, but there have been worse reactions.

...I love that emoticon.

Oh, and I'm Andi. So you don't have to call me Treefish. I'm only Treefish because I'm part of the leaf ninja clan and our special move is called the treefish.

Yarr I'm random!

[Guest Nelly]

Hi,

welcome!

For halloween I have an idea. A frack or white tie is sometimes called penguin . for a girl it look like this

For MTF it is a good combination. You can rent a white tee for your size and instead of pants you can wear fishnet panties and a tied fitting body holding everything into place. I like showgirl outfits.

Greetings

NElly

[Guest QuietFlower]

hello, welcome here I just joined too but I still can welcome you i hope...

And as treefish said, your parents laughing isn't the worst outcome that could happen so don't mind it too much...

I hope I can talk to you more and see you around here

Hmm, I say "I hope" a lot in this post... sorry

-Jessica

[Guest jantonio]

Hello Natalia and welcome to the playground. I am hispanic as well so I totally understand. Unfortunately in our culture there's not alot of room for diversity is still female and male that's it. Anyway I welcome you with open arms and feel free to express your opinions and emotions.

Jose Antonio...

[Guest Still him]

Hello ? Im totally new here and am so looking forward to talking with people (finally) this place was recomended by a dear friend and you all seam so kind!

me

[Guest Still him]

Hello All

Im new here, have been looking for some time, for a place to speak and just be me. I have known I am Transexual for many years. Tried to live the “normal” life and on my second marriage. My wife seemed so supportive helped me get a good TG/TS counselor and an awesome DR and we both were on our way to my transition (beginning). Well that lasted for about 4 months then I found myself alone. What a mess! I have acted like its all been a lie so she would come back. I so badly need to be me I am so terrified of being alone. I must be babbling so I will go for now. I pray for strength!

Still him

[MaryEllen]

Hello Natalia,

Welcome to Laura's Playground. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

MaryEllen

[MaryEllen]

Hello All

Im new here, have been looking for some time, for a place to speak and just be me. I have known I am Transexual for many years. Tried to live the “normal” life and on my second marriage. My wife seemed so supportive helped me get a good TG/TS counselor and an awesome DR and we both were on our way to my transition (beginning). Well that lasted for about 4 months then I found myself alone. What a mess! I have acted like its all been a lie so she would come back. I so badly need to be me I am so terrified of being alone. I must be babbling so I will go for now. I pray for strength!

Still him

Hello Still Him,

Welcome to Laura's Playground. Sorry to hear that your spouse turned out to be unsupportive. Stay with us. You'll never be alone here.

MaryEllen

[Guest Virgomoon]

Natalia welcome to the playground. I hope we can be there for you and your quest.

As Always,

Hugs & Kisses,

Virgomoon

[Guest Natalia]

Yay! I feel the love!

[Guest Ashley fl]

hi nieghbor , lol so funny you live down the street from me , i put ft.lauderdale cause i think you and i are the only two around here who heard of coconut creek , cant wait to go shopping together , hows this skirt look , to short naaaaaaa ,,, giggles , anyway , nice to meet you , ttyl bye the way , welcome to a great forum and chat room