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Guest Krisina

I just want to post here to get this stuff about hrt out of my head. I will be seeing my GT soon today.

I have heard that if hrt isn't right for you you will find out as you might have a bad reaction to it. If I have a bad reaction or it isn't right how long after taking it will I know a few days or a few months?

I sometimes wonder about the different doses without going into numbers but different doses depending on the dysphoria maybe. What about folks who don't want much in breast growth really but want to live androgynous can they just get away with estrodiol. The breast growth although I would love it I think of the consequences of public pools and most of all forced to go full time if I am not sure or ready. Forced to deal with full time means a whole new can of worms to deal with. I have seen enough videos and posts lately about the love of their life breaking up because for example they didn't sign up for this, not attracted to women, heterosexual woman. The work and all of the other stuff. I really don't want to live alone I want to live with my wife.

I am happy with my wife, she is overall very supportive with me and our problem my dysphoria, has said take hormones if I need to. I am happy with my job, and even though I have this medical condition in-congruent gender identity I can function going to work, working, going to the store shopping and easy stuff like that. The other stuff not so easy as most of can relate. I am not a person who has to put on my girls clothes the minute I get in the door but I know there are some who are like that with the dysphoria so bad.

So ya that's it in a nutshell, the HRT questions, if they will help me with the low dosages to help figure all of this out for me once and for all finally!

Krisina

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In time I think you will work through these questions with your GT Krisina. It is really a marathon as they say because it has to be for us to really be ready.

You don't have to chose till you are ready. I would think though there is no half way with HRT. At least from what I have heard. That is a commitment to change your life. Except perhaps as a diagnostic tool for the short term. And from what I have heard and certainly from personal experience on T you know if it feels right for you pretty quickly. For me it was the same day.

A feeling of rightness that I can never describe. I never seriously questioned going off T after that first dose. In fact it became the top priority in my life in many ways. I wouldn't sacrifice the health of my family to it or my personal honor but there isn't much else I wouldn't sacrifice for this feeling of being right at last.

Maybe it will answer your questions. I hope so. I remember how I felt when I wasn't sure if I could or should transition and even after the exquisite relief of finally deciding and committing there was still the doubt till the T. I have been depressed and I have been afraid. I have doubted I'd have the strength and courage but never again doubted that it was right.

It was an anchor in a world with few anchors left at times. I even thought I might lose the deep bond with my daughter at times. Not because we weren't both trying, but because she felt abandoned no matter how hard she tried to understand and support. But that is behind me now too and our bond is healing again.

So maybe a diagnostic trial of HRT will answer your questions and give you some peace. I hope so. No matter where your peace lies, transition or not, you deserve to find it

Johnny

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Guest NatashaJade

Krisina,

I've been on relatively low doses since the beginning because I wanted my boat to travel somewhat slower than others. That being said, There was never a doubt about my final destination. Yes, there is a possibility that you may not take to the hrt. But ask yourself what the odds of that are. Think about just how life changing these pills can be, because they will change you. Know what you are getting into and be as sure as possible that it is the right thing for you. There is always a little room for doubt, but there shouldn't be too much.

Be careful. Talk it over with your GT and your doctor.

xoxo

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Guest Donna Jean

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I just have to say......

The high or low dose of HRT doesn't necessarily dictate what you're going to get....

A LOT of it is genetics.........

I know girls that take dangerously high doses of HRT and have gotten very little results....

On the other hand.....sometimes low dose has spectacular effects....

Please be careful......

Huggs

Dee Jay

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Natasha is correct, hon; you shouldn't really be starting HRT until you are more than a little sure that transition is what you want. Yes, you can take a low dose temporarily, to see how it feels. But what if it doesn't tell you much either way? For many of us, there were no bells and whistles sounding, no marching bands, no instant "now I am a girl" effects. I was happy because I knew my journey had started in earnest, but a month later I felt no different, mentally or physically.

Any more than 4-6 months, and many of the effects will be permanent. With HRT, you get the whole bag of goods, there is no picking those things you like and leaving out those things you don't want.

There is no rush, Krisina. It is the most important decision you will ever make. Take your time, think it through. Work with your G.T. When you are ready, you will know.

HUGS

Carolyn

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Hi Krisina,

I started with a "low dose" and never looked back, it does change your mind and your body. I felt real relief in just a few weeks.

Glad to hear your wife is on board with that option, makes all the difference.

May your GT session go well.

Cindy -

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My reaction to HRT is a lot like Carolyn's. In hindsight my feelings really didn't change, except for some subtle differences. One is I'm far more observant and have a much greater desire to look pretty, from head to toe (or hair style to pedicures). Also I notice little things that I hadn't noticed before.

I know one thing that hasn't changed, taking hormones is still the highlight of my day.

Jenny

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Guest John Chiv

Great advice so what can I add? Just that with a therapist please sort out what are your fears? And what are fears that being caused by others and loss of others?

Before I was an adult, the choice was simply not there, and no control over finances at all. Since I legally became an adult, all I wanted to do was have my body be what reflected how I felt internally. Finances were the only roadblock.

I didn't care what others thought or about others approval.

For me, it did not matter what it cost me, I had to transition. I had to live.

That is me. You have to be at peace for what is right for you. If you transition, how you transition. And whatever you choose, is the right path.

There is no right or wrong decision, this is your life.

John

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