4 days into being out :)

[Guest musicalice]

4 days since I outed myself There have been times when I questioned myself; do I really need to do this? What am I doing? Will it last? I just think, well, that means being a boy. Umm... nuh-uh! Not gonna happen!

Something really nice is that my anxiety level has already decreased. Of course, there's the initial barrier to get over, but I kept my mind on other things so that I didn't psych myself out. But when I was in boy mode last term, sometimes even going to Sainsbury's would give me a minor panic attack. I'd continually be thinking, what would this person think if I were in girl mode? Why can't i be in girl mode? Oh I'm so jealous of that woman over there... I can't even look at her, feels like I'd burst into tears...

Now, it's just normal. Just as I'd hoped. And I don't pass, but i haven't had any problems at all. People come up to me and sir me, but if that happens? Sorry, you just lost my attention. Who's this guy you're looking for? And no more anxiety about what people think. Cuz they're going to think all sorts, but I just don't care. That feels nice

Oh, and I wonder whether anyone could maybe guess what might be in these packages?

(I blurred part of the brand and the dosage, hope that's ok)

[Guest Krisina]

Good to hear you have made progress going out as yourself even if you still being sir'd.

That attached picture in your post. Does this mean you have been to a Endio and are on HRT (hormones) now?

Krisina

[Guest musicalice]

Yes!! i have two doctors supervising me, and it's all on prescription i put the first patch on about 15mins ago, i feel different already

[Guest Gregg Jameson]

Hi Alice!

Thanks so much for sharing!

To your continued freedom!

To your empowerment in freely being completely and openly yourself!

Soar like and eagle!

Brad

[Guest Amanda Whyte]

I am so happy for you!

[Guest Krisina]

Yes!! i have two doctors supervising me, and it's all on prescription i put the first patch on about 15mins ago, i feel different already

That's great news Alice. Congratulations.

Krisina

[Guest LottieZero]

Yay, HRT! It's a great feeling when you start, isn't it?

I'm glad things are all going well for you... you must be feeling really good just now! I had the same experience with regard to anxiety - I honestly think going out in boy mode was worse than going out in girl mode for me for some reason... Hope things keep going well! ^^;;

Charlotte x

[Guest musicalice]

Thanks all of you

Brad, that was a lovely thing to read

Lottie, I'm glad it's not just me It's a lush feeling, like vanilla ice-cream in my blood (melted obviously... just cool...)

Amanda, I was where you are about six or seven months ago. It's amazing how things change when you let them

[Guest John Chiv]

Alice,

When we are able to state who we are, the relief is tremendous, great that your anxiety level has decreased. And good for you that when you are misgendered, you still stand firm in who you are.

John

[Guest Stormrider2112]

Congratulations so far