Don't know what to do finesterid.. hiding myself.. please help!

[Guest futuremtf]

Since I'm was young I used to wear my moms cloches and shoes. I liked a lot..

When I was about 8 or 10 years old she cautch me using her underwear (panties) on the bathroom and she was angry..

Since then I sleeper her things hided.. Today im too big (on size and age too..) to sneek out and use her cloches ..

I bought a pair of heels but I need to use then alone and I hide it from everyone..

I like girls, don't like boys and I would be so much happy if I could be born a girl.. I love makeup, shoes and cloches..

Im a girl from inside but I can't let my family to know it.. My dream is to won on loterry or something like that so I could move on and start my transformation on another country on europe, canada or usa.. people there ar more understanding about us.. Here in my country (brazil) they think that transgender or crossdresses r just hores that make sex for money, they kill a lot of transgender people here, treat then very bad.. so its like impossible to start my transformation here.. It will be something that will risk my life..

Im thinking on start on finasteride until I decide what am i gonna do with my life.. this is dangerous? will make my hormones to stop and my femenine hormones to start acting (i just need time to get out of my country to start the treatment).. Im thinking on move on to europe (in 2 or 3 months i wil have the money for the airplane ticket and enought money to stay for about 30 days..) so I will buy on internet the hormones (just until I find a job and have to pay for a doctor to help-me).. and start my treatment... I alread lived on ireland i i think that i was so stupid to come back.. if I was there until today i could start my treatment there and be inside and outside who i really am.

Please I need some advices about the finasterid and abut what should i do on my life..

I need to hide myself here on brazil and im verry unhappy and i allready had some suicidal thoughs.. I dont whant to live like a men. Im a woman

im 26 years old .. a little big (1,83meter) but i think that hormones will act just fine on mee cuz I look a lot like my mother..

So again I ask for your all help.. thx a lot

Ps:. Sorry for my bad english.. im so much better speaking thant writing..LOL

Edited March 1, 2012 by JJ
Dosage removed per T & C

[VickySGV]

I just moved this from the Drug Abuse forum so hopefully you can get some responses to what you are asking. You are not taking a addictive drug which is where you first posted so unless you are medicating yourself without a doctors care you are not abusing it as such. Please do not take medications that a doctor has not prescribed for you.

If the finasteride is prescribed by an actual Doctor Of Medicine who has experience in endocrinology, it will be both safe and helpful. They will know the safe dosage, or can find it readily and can monitor you for negative effects. I know the situation where you live is not as good as I have it here where I live, but there are organizations even in Brazil who can help you out. Maybe someone else here can help you find out where they are.

Since this is your first post, I would like to welcome you to the Playground here and I do ask you to read the Rules and Guidelines, also called the Terms & Conditions which appears at the bottom of every forum page in the lower right hand corner. We cannot discuss drug doseages here, that is only for each member and their doctors to discuss. Each drug regimen is unique to the patient, and my drugs and doseages are not right for you, and I do not want to endanger your life with unsafe medical information.

You may also want to post over in the Introducton Forum, and give a little more about yourself so that others can give you input on a variety of things you have asked about.

[Guest Elizabeth K]

We don't discuss dosages, but it is pretty well discussed here that HRT for the MTF regime is essentially estrogen and testosterone blockers. They must work together for either to be effective. Finesteride is a testosterone blocker, only. We also strongly suggest that all medications be through a prescribing physician. Self medication can be extremely dangerous, and even deadly.

Welcome to Laura's Playground - and please stay with us?

Lizzy