Jump to content
  • Welcome to the TransPulse Forums!

    We offer a safe, inclusive community for transgender and gender non-conforming folks, as well as their loved ones, to find support and information.  Join today!

I Can't Do My Shot


Guest Cal

Recommended Posts

So today is the day for my 8th T shot, it's been 7 weeks. I do intermuscular on my thighs. I've always done my own shot, even the first time. The doctor just showed me how and I did it. It didn't hurt at all. She was impressed by how quickly I did it, and without any hesitation. I don't have any fear of needles, or blood.

The next 7 shots were varying degrees of painful, from hardly-could-feel-it to wouldn't-want-to-do-that-again-stinging. But nothing I couldn't handle.

Then today I went to do my shot, on my left leg, and found I couldn't push the needle in. I couldn't even break the skin. It HURT. Bad. But I forced it in, and then when it was about a centimeter deep, it HURT. Again. BAD. I tried to push it in, but I couldn't physically bring myself to put it in any deeper than it already was. So I tried another spot. Same thing. And another spot. Same thing.

By that point I was already too freaked out and frustrated to switch legs, almost on the verge of tears, so I just put all my stuff away and decided to try again tomorrow.

I'm really freaked out by this :( What if it always hurts that much from now on?

Link to comment

Is there something physically different about this shot like the guage of the needle?

And have you been alternating thighs? Cuz you're supposed to to let the first one heal.

Link to comment
Is there something physically different about this shot like the guage of the needle?

And have you been alternating thighs? Cuz you're supposed to to let the first one heal.

Nope same size needle, 22

And yeah I have been alternating

Link to comment

Hmmm. See I was thinking maybe the tissue scarred? Or (though you didn't mention a lump or hard area) maybe a vessel got hit last time? However, if none of that sounds like it might have happened then we're stuck with psychosomatic? I dunno, but I'll ask with ya (other places) and see if anyone else has ever had anything like that.

Link to comment
Guest StrandedOutThere

Hey, I'm a total newb, but I think I have a suggestion. In addition to switching legs, maybe try a smaller gauge needle, say a 25 or 27 even. The 27 is really tiny and takes a long time to inject with, but it doesn't hurt. I did my first shot with a 27 and I literally didn't even feel it.

Link to comment

fact about taking T? makes your skin tougher. i know a guy that had to start "stabbing" (for lack of a better word) harder to get the needle in because his skin simply got rougher. another thing is to make sure your leg is in a position where its completely relaxed... im sure the growing angst from "not getting it the first time" made you tense up, so i can understand the subsequent times not working.

you experience stinging sometimes.. are you making sure the spot where you rubbed your alcohol is dry before the puncture? if you dont you may get a tiny bit of alcohol (from the tip of the needle) inside your muscle - that stings a bit. Or..if you hit a vein (youll see blood when you aspirate the needle) itll sting like crap too. Just some sidenotes.

class dismissed...

:P

Raymond

Link to comment
Guest Jack Solomon

If you tense the muscle up badly before/during the injection, it will hurt more going in while injecting, and may require more effort/pain to get the needle in there. Also, if your muscle is tense for a reason you are unaware of (this happened to me a few times) that can make the injection more painful. However, even if that was the case and the muscle was tense it shouldn't usually be as bad as you're describing, but this could possibly explain how it hurt to push it further when the needle was a centimeter deep and then was next to impossible to get it in there during your second and third tries.

Even if part of the issue was tension though, I'm still not sure how to guess at what else could cause not being able to get the needle in on the first try. Is it possible for you to do this injection just this once on your bum instead of your thigh, just to lessen potential anxiety leftover from the failed first attempt? I hope you have better luck the second time around.

Solomon

Link to comment

Hmmm well I can't think of any reason why my muscle would be tense, but that might be a factor.

This morning I did my shot, but I think I wasted it because I didn't put the needle in deep enough. Like, I broke the skin and it hurt more than usual (usually I don't really feel it), but it was bearable. Then about 1" into my leg it hurt really really bad. It was like there was a layer or something that I couldn't push the needle through without considerable pain. So I just did the shot right there with the needle still sticking out like half an inch. When I aspirated it (or whatever that's called) no blood came up, but I was probably in fat and not muscle, so it was probably a waste.

Hopefully next week will be better.

Link to comment

If you were in fat it would have sort of oozed/leaked out. Your skin would have had serum on the surface. And (just to consider) along with all the good info about toughenin of skin and such, remember, each time you "retried" the needle was duller and duller. Between that and the skin plus possible tension....yeah, I could see where you might have problems gettin it in :)

B) and yeah....I'm writtin all this down in case I ever need to know it lol

Link to comment
Guest StrandedOutThere
If you were in fat it would have sort of oozed/leaked out. Your skin would have had serum on the surface. And (just to consider) along with all the good info about toughenin of skin and such, remember, each time you "retried" the needle was duller and duller. Between that and the skin plus possible tension....yeah, I could see where you might have problems gettin it in :)

B) and yeah....I'm writtin all this down in case I ever need to know it lol

See, when you guys were all talking about it being in fat, I was all like "Oh no! What if my shot was in fat?". I used a 1.25 inch needle. Nothing leaked out except a tiny bit o' blood, so I guess I'm all good.

Cal, Evan's right. Retrying dulls the needle a lot. I think you are supposed to get a new needle every time you try. After you use it once, it is contaminated. That's what I'm told anyway.

Ray, I totally made sure the alcohol was dry before I jabbed. That's good advice too.

If we all pool what we know, then we'll all know a lot more. Good stuff. : )

Link to comment
If we all pool what we know, then we'll all know a lot more. Good stuff. : )

Exaaaactly. Thats why I pay attention to what everybody says. Even stuff you "know" -like that T thickens your skin- I never applied the dang fact to this. If Ray hadn't have said it, I never would have thought of it. And when you see "all the knowledge in one place" its like "dang, we know a lot of stuff" :P

Link to comment

Remember to put the needle into your leg quickly... like a dart, almost. In order for it to go in smoothly and with the least amount of pain as it tears through various membranes, it's got to be quick and hard to get it in. There's several times when I freaked out and ended up putting it in slower and the result was painful. Also, there are nerves to consider as well... as try I different spots of the vastus lateralis (outer leg muscle), I'm learning the geography of where nerves and nerve endings are and if I stay away from those, there's no pain at all.... just my annoying nervousness that causes my hands to shake a bit.

MK

Link to comment

man am now almost 9 months on T and i dont inject my self i cant do it in the right way its ok if you to the clink if you are not sure that you can do it alone .

Link to comment
man am now almost 9 months on T and i dont inject my self i cant do it in the right way its ok if you to the clink if you are not sure that you can do it alone .

Good point that needed to be pointed out. There's nothing "more manly" about giving yourself your shot. I know for some people the reason they do is just cuz their doc may charge extra to do it for you (mine does) or maybe its inconvenient to go all the way to his office that constantly (cuz I don't wanna drive there either) but just "for the heck of it and cuz its cool?" Heck no. lol Ain't nothin cool about havin to stick yourself with a needle into infinity. It's something we "have" to do not enjoy doing.

Link to comment

Did you try a different needle? Sometimes you can just get a bad needle, therefore blunt. Also cold you try and o it in your backside. In the UK I have to go to the doctor, and she does it for me everytime. She always does it there because there is more fat.

Link to comment
  • 5 weeks later...
Guest Alex1952

Hi there. I'm new, and figure I may as well jump in on this topic. I have been on "T" for nine years now. I do my own shots, and also had the problems mentioned in this thread...painful injections just made me "needle shy" after awhile. I finally hit on something that works for me. There is an ice pack available at Walgreens drug stores called the Cryomax. It contains rows of blue spheres (no jokes, please!!).

I put the pack on my thigh and leave it there for at least a couple of minutes. This numbs not only the surface of the skin but well into the thigh. Move it around a little at first to make sure the entire area is numb. Yes, the initial sensation is startling, but it goes away quickly.

Once the thigh is very cold, I wipe it down with alcohol, blow to make sure the alcohol is dry, then inject. Believe me, there is a *big* difference.

Hope this helps!

Alex

Link to comment
blue spheres

Jokes? What jokes?

<--wants to crack it so badly he can't stand it.

If anything you should feel like a big brother; voice of much experience and all.

...its normal for big brothers to give advice about......oh come on lol ......let me say it LOL

Ok Cal, just go buy the thing.

Link to comment
Guest Alex1952
Jokes? What jokes?

<--wants to crack it so badly he can't stand it.

If anything you should feel like a big brother; voice of much experience and all.

...its normal for big brothers to give advice about......oh come on lol ......let me say it LOL

Ok Cal, just go buy the thing.

*chuckling* Well, the blue spheres do seem somehow appropriate. I wouldn't recommend applying them any *lower* than the thighs, though!!

Alex

Link to comment

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!

Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.

Sign In Now
  • Who's Online   5 Members, 1 Anonymous, 245 Guests (See full list)

    • MaybeRob
    • JenniferB
    • The Lake
    • Stefi
    • VickySGV
  • Recently Browsing   0 members

    • No registered users viewing this page.
  • Forum Statistics

    • Total Topics
      80.8k
    • Total Posts
      770.1k
  • Member Statistics

    • Total Members
      12,093
    • Most Online
      8,356

    gizgizgizzie
    Newest Member
    gizgizgizzie
    Joined
  • Today's Birthdays

    1. Angelo christoper
      Angelo christoper
      (38 years old)
    2. Joslynn
      Joslynn
      (61 years old)
    3. Kaltia_Atlas
      Kaltia_Atlas
    4. Rika_Lil
      Rika_Lil
      (40 years old)
    5. Summerluv
      Summerluv
      (19 years old)
  • Posts

    • awkward-yet-sweet
      Well, here's the big questions:  What does it mean to be masculine?  What does it mean to be a woman?    I've been around a lot of rule-bending in those areas.  There's all sorts of "traditional" views about what men and women do.  Men work on mechanical things, defend/protect, earn a living, play rough sports, etc.  Women cook and clean, are gentle and nurturing, value aesthetics over function, etc.   Yet, my very "masculine" industrial-manager husband cooks just as well as any Betty Crocker wannabe, and tells the bedtime stories that are most in-demand by the kids.  My GF, who is surely "ALL Girl" is a highly skilled mechanic, a street racer, was busily laying concrete while 6 months pregnant, and practices kenjutsu (Japanese sword fighting skills).  And me?  I'm AFAB but I'm infertile and I feel like I should have had a male body...yet I possess very little in the way of "manly" skills or desire to acquire them.  I'm in my boy form these days, but pretty much useless for accomplishing "boy stuff."     I think my family blew those definitions out of the water.  Yet, somehow our family structure is also religiously patriarchal....and happily so!  It'll bend your brain to try to figure that one out.    I'd say its just important to be you, do what you do best, and stick your tongue out at anybody who doesn't like it. 
    • JenniferB
      Welcome to the board gizgizgizzie! I sure can understand what dysphoria feels like. I found it stayed in my head during nearly all waking hours. Although, sometimes held in a little deeper. But it was triggered easily. I hope you can find that place you feel comfortable with yourself. This is a good place to find help as you traverse your journey.   Jennifer
    • VickySGV
      Welcome to the Forums @gizgizgizzie we have folks in your situations to talk to and share with. 
    • gizgizgizzie
      hi everyone, my name is giz (or gizzie), i use all prns but i prefer they/it and i just found out abt this place pretty recently !! im really excited to find community among other trans people from so many walks of life !! in my personal life, i do have trans/queer friends but its not easy to navigate that without coming out all willy nilly (and i can't come out to my family, pretty much ever) so this is a pretty good place for me to get to know people and make new friends !!   i also have this weird dysphoria issue that i feel like everyone (and society at large lol) is attaching me to categories and boxes that don't really fit me (obviously this is to do with my agab) so being here without that presentation is also really helpful !!   i also hope to be able to start and share my transitions goals and things like that (just getting my body to a more androgynous look) !!   thanks for reading, and i hope to see more of y'all soon !!
    • awkward-yet-sweet
      Well, my friends are out publicly. Openly transgender, and on HRT.  I agree that the survival of all of us is at stake.  But I think there are threats greater and more dangerous than those faced exclusively by LGBTQ folks.   Rising prices. Unaffordable food.  EPA strangling transportation and energy.  Needless foreign wars that put us at risk of literal nuclear annihilation.  A government that wants to tax us, track us, and control every aspect of our lives...including using us as guinea pigs for their medical experiments.     Trump is no savior.  Neither is the Republican party.  But I believe that a vote for Democrats in the federal government is for sure a vote for globalism and what follows it.  War, famine, plague, slavery, and death don't care if we're trans or cis.  
    • Ladypcnj
      There is light at the end of the tunnel, just believe. 
    • Ashley0616
      Y’all are pretty ladies
    • Ashley0616
    • Ivy
      People who are out publicly, and openly transgender, maybe on HRT, having changed names and gender, have a lot to lose if anti-trans politicians take power.  They have openly called for our eradication, and promise to do everything they can to accomplish this.  (again, 2025) For someone in this position the election is about our survival.  It's foolish to delude ourselves into thinking "Oh, they don't really mean that.  It's all for show," or, "There's other more important things to concern ourselves with." Maybe for some people the other things take priority.  But if you have skin in the game, things look different.  
    • awkward-yet-sweet
      If that happens, a lot of things I don't want to see might also be codified into law.  And some things that shouldn't be law might not get repealed.  To me, progress in one area isn't worth the price we'd have to pay in several other areas.     For me, voting on LGBTQ issues always ends up as an "out of the frying pan, but into the fire" sort of event.  
    • Ivy
      Trying out a new wig. Got my reading glasses on. I've also got dark roots now - first time in years.
    • Vidanjali
      Thea, your post made me think of a comic named Chloe Petts whom I saw recently on Hannah Gadsby's Gender Agenda comedy special on Netflix. She is a cisgender masculine lesbian. She is brilliant and so funny. I was intrigued by her identification - specifically masculine, not butch. And it seems to me there is a difference. 
    • Vidanjali
      Today I had a dr appt. When I checked in, I was asked my surname, which I gave. Apparently there were two patients with appointments at that time with that same surname. The receptionist asked, "Are you (my legal name which is feminine) or Paul?" I got such a kick out of it not being assumed I had the feminine name. 
    • Vidanjali
      That must have felt affirming, albeit perhaps weirdly so. However, I'd construe that more broadly (no pun intended) as sexism rather than misogyny where the latter would imply contempt. Also, incidentally, I've heard chivalry referred to as "benevolent sexism". 
    • MaeBe
      My boss is in a panic. His business is a couple straws away from breaking a camel in half. He's just handling the stress very poorly.   My dad, though. He's handling things pretty well, as long as I continue to don't get massively offended by being called: son, boy, etc. His eldest is leaving the State and looks so different than he's been used to over the years. I haven't told him I'm on HRT, but to be fair the changes haven't been massive. I've always had boobs, more so after COVID weight gain and made more obvious with its loss, but now I'm not hiding them--and obviously wearing a bra. The estrogen has done some work, but nothing major (sadly). I think the biggest HRT changes have been my skin and a mild amount of fat redistribution.   Today I'm wearing my cheater, I almost have cleavage! :D I need to get another t-shirt bra to keep a good rotation. I only have two, one push-up, and the rest are unlined (great for Summer, but not great for my Summer wardrobe ).
  • Upcoming Events

Contact TransPulse

TransPulse can be contacted in the following ways:

Email: Click Here.

To report an error on this page.

Legal

Your use of this site is subject to the following rules and policies, whether you have read them or not.

Terms of Use
Privacy Policy
DMCA Policy
Community Rules

Hosting

Upstream hosting for TransPulse provided by QnEZ.

Sponsorship

Special consideration for TransPulse is kindly provided by The Breast Form Store.
×
×
  • Create New...