pause for a moment

[Guest Krisina]

pause for a moment look around

what will happen if I make a sound

speak out loud tell them who I am

will they still love me as I am

pause for a moment

making progress with the GT

making progress going out as me

making progress with laser and the face I see

making progress but who will I be

pause for a moment

not a normal guy gay or straight

it's not me I cannot relate

pause for a moment

not a normal girl without the gear

not a normal girl I haven't been there

pause for a moment

relationships loved and cherished I love a lot

being in a relationship has taught me a lot

give and take along the way

you can't have everything

there has to be give and take

pause for a moment

transitioning doesn't mean you have to go ft

but starting on hrt what will that mean if I try

changes to the body and to the mind

unforeseen changes that I can't change or hide

pause for a moment

loving partner who loves the guy

loving partner who this is hard on and cries

loving partner who wants me too

the changes and talking hurt her too

pause the button on this journey

look around and see what i see

will I be lonely will I be okay

I know I am different is that good enough for me

pause for a moment

looking in the mirror what do I see

not wearing girls clothes all guy to me

not looking feminine without the hair

who am I kidding he will always be there

pause for a moment

who am I inside

a girl in my dreams and desires

these thoughts are mine

pausing and not going out as myself

it's been a while now I am filling up with doubt

going out I wonder what people will see

looking at me who will they see

a guy as a girl or just me

pause for a moment

ft for me is that what I want

not sure anymore

I need to give it more thought

pause for a moment

what do I see

I am not sure

the journey is different

different for me

Krisina

Krisina Copyright 2012

[Guest Amelia]

Very beautiful poem, Krisina. I can feel some of your pain, but I still get a great feeling reading this poem.

[Guest Merc]

not looking feminine without the hair

who am I kidding he will always be there

.

was my favourite part.

~Emily

[Guest rita63]

Been along time since I read a poem twice and I will read this one more than that. Beautiful.

[Guest Gregg Jameson]

Amazing poetry from a truly amazing person!

Thanks so much for sharing this, Krisina!

Your beauty just glows!

Brad

[Guest miss kindheart]

Love your poem Krisina

Thanks for sharing it

<<< hug >>>

vanna