Fighting the Darkness

[Guest Kallum]

Why do I feel so empty inside

I feel so alone

I have tried and tried and tried to cry

But all there is is a void inside

I can't go forward

I can't go back

I'm stuck in time

My mind is blank

And my body is heavy

I feel overwhelmed

I have depression

It comes and goes

But right now I'm feeling it deep in my soul

I am disconnected from my world

Because they see me as a girl

Sure there are a few that know me as Kallum

But the ones love most see only the girl

I want to yell and scream and tell them I'm here

I'm a boy and I want to not live in fear

Because if my life goes on, with my family not accepting me

I might do the unthinkable

I might leave this world wiithout becomimg myself

I try and I try but I really need help

To stop the anger from brewing and the thoughts coming out

Sure I havve some support and it helps me

But i want the love and acceptance from my family desperatly

So for now I feel numb

And I feel isolated in my own home

One day I hope again to feel loved

But for now life goes on

I will get there one day

Because this is not permanent and time has not stopped

It just feels like I'm stuck in a world that doesn't understand

I am a boy and will grow into a man

[Guest CariadsCarrot]

I hear you Kallum.

Hang in there mate. You can get through this.

Gabe

[Guest miss kindheart]

I scream, you scream

I hope you know, It's not a dream

Just look inside, don't you hide

And enjoy, lifes little ride

As you grow , You will know

Your life, It has a special glow

It is you, so don't be blue

It's your life, it isn't through

For you are, a shinning star

You will go, so very far

Just be that man, yes you can

Fly just like peter pan

So look above, see the dove

And you'll know, what is true love

<<<<< hug >>>>>

With love from

vanna

PS Nice poetry Kallum