When they ask why.

[Guest Christian_the_FTM]

They say they aren’t real

But they haven’t heard them

The voices are as real to me as you are

You cant see nor hear them

Because you’re lucky

They have chosen me as their victim

Im trapped in a world that isn’t mine.

A world which is hell

Its all in my head

But its impossible to get out of

Im stuck and Im trapped

Everywhere I go

They want to help

But then they stop

They just don’t get it

Once their care was what kept me going

Now even there I don’t feel safe

I need constant help

No therapist can give it

I spend weeks in the hospital

It doesn’t help it

No one has the time

Or simply wants to give it

When you need the constant help

Its hard to find someone

Who has the time

To endure it with you

To help you though it

I used to have good times

Now those are falling

Im trapped without hope

Im trapped without much hope

Im so close to the end

I can almost touch it.

[MaryEllen]

That's a pretty depressing poem, Christian. How about signing into the chat and talk about it.

MaryEllen

[Guest Christian_the_FTM]

I refuse to go on chat while this one mod is on.

after what she said to me yesterday and once a few months ago....

I feel I cant go on there to crisis.

[MaryEllen]

I'm sorry you had a bad experience in the chat. Have you checked the chat this evening to see if that mod is online? You can just keep posting here if you'd like.

MaryEllen

[Guest angels wings]

Like Mary said u can keep posting here . Hey don't let one out of over hundred make u feel u can't go back there . Every mod is differnt . You don't feel comfortable with that particular one there is no prob but don't stop reaching out .

[Guest Christian_the_FTM]

Yes she is on.

so I will stick to on here

[Guest angels wings]

No worries were here

[Guest xlxm]

You hit the nail on the head with that poem. Thats exactly how i feel. Except I dont feel close to the end at all.

[Carolyn Marie]

You can PM me if you want, Christian. I'll be around for a while. Or I can meet you in Chat.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Guest miss kindheart]

Dear Christian,

<<< hug >>>

Your poetry has a way hitting people right in the heart

That in itself is a true gift, It is every poets dream

As for the content of your poem, I'm some what at a loss as to what to say

I have always believed that thier is good in everything if only we will look for it

Maybe you can look for the good

what the angels are talking and your the only one that can hear them

Listen for the goodness and always try and be good

I am sorry to hear that some one in chat has hurt you

Please don't let that stop you from seeking help or looking for a friend

We all have our moments where we need to reach out for a helping hand

Never be afraid to ask for help here from any one

Always know that i am here to help you if i can

with love from

vanna

[Guest Christian_the_FTM]

Thanks Vanna, sorry I logged out on you last night.. I just I dunno Im not being good with long chats right now.. I last about five or ten minutes.

[Guest angels wings]

Don't be sorry Vanna has a big heart and I can guarantee u she understands . Even if it is 5 minutes at a time it all helps .

[Guest miss kindheart]

It is ok Christian,

<<< hug >>>

I was just worried about you

I do care swee'heart

Be good

I know you are

vanna