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I relaxed a little, let people in

only to be hurt again

never again will I allow

strangers in this deep

I trusted you with my soul

every little bit of my being

but I sufficated you

I needed you

but it was too much

I dont have much strength

my worlds been crashing around me

and you didnt care

suddenly I was a burden

a vampire if you will

draining the life out of my supporters

Im sorry I let you

Im sorry Im such a burden

I'll never make that mistake again.

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I am sorry Christian but sometimes it isn't that people don't care but that they don't know how to help and/or are dealing with issues of their own,

The people here do care and care deeply. Some of the things they you are facing are beyond their knowledge or ability to help you with and they can only say I care and I will listen.

Even that can come hard sometimes when someone is also facing a crises. Because of the nature of online communication we really don't know what other's are facing and they can't always understand that you feel let down or need more than was given.

You have to keep reaching out-as many times as you need. As many times as it takes. And thanks for helping me remind myself of that truth,

Johnny

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Guest Elizabeth K

Poetry is sometimes what we feel, sometimes what we hope we never feel. Poetry here on Laura's Playground tends to be very dark, just like the thoughts of almost all of us - at 3 AM - the devil's hour.

But the sun does come out.

Some of the deepest thoughts we have are through the muses - Erato and Euterpe can help.

Lizzy

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Guest angels wings

Hey Christian I'm glad ur writting back and sharing . I too felt that no one cared I was alone and scared . But what has helped me is been here on Laura's people here do understand thy know ur pain thy know ur struggles u are not alone . I know it's the Internet but for me it has helped me in so many ways. Be careful what groups u join too. When I first started lookin for support ohhhh my did I find some terrible negative groups out there. Stay with a group u feel understood and accepted . Christian people will let us down we have no control of that but what we do have control of is how we deal,with it . We have control that we don't let ourselves down . Keep ur head up high my friend were all here for u . Keep writting ((((hugs))))

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Guest miss kindheart

Dear Christian,

<<< hug >>>

I love reading your poems

What is best about them is they come straight from your heart

I don't think i personally could ever trust someone with my soul, and would caution anyone to carefully consider that

But opening your heart to another is always a wonderful endeavor

Love is the most powerful and truest of all the forces

Don't be afraid to trust in it

And never be sorry for experiencing it

It can take you higher than you ever dreamed if you will let it

It is about giving to another with out condition

And it is one of the few things we can take with us from this world

love

:wub: vanna

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