Update

[Guest Alecto.Rejoice]

Quite a few things have happened in the year of 2012. On January 27th, I had an appointment with the doctor who oversees every transition in my city. I was given a letter stating that I am transgender, so I was able to register at my new school as male.

He told me that I passed quite well, which was probably the best compliment I could receive.

He also sent out a referral to an endocrinologist. I got to see said endo on April 30th, but unfortunately couldn't start testosterone without my mother's consent. So, I wait until the end of the year to start T.

I had my second appointment at the gender clinic, with the doctor's assistant. I gave her an update and everything and asked her about top surgery. Since waiting lists are quite a while when it comes to this, I wanted to get on one as soon as I could. And luckily there's a surgeon in my city, who accepted me. I get to see him in six months and just wait until my surgery comes.

On a happy note, too, my province, Alberta, has reinstated funding for SRS. So, it's exciting, enthralling, and terrifying all at the same time to be who I am, where I am.

On a less happy note, my dysphoria's increased immensely, and I'm not sure why. It's gotten to the point of needing to be clothed at all times except when I'm showering. Of feeling dysphoric at home even though I've previously never felt it at home. Even being around people who know, or think they know my sex... I just don't know what to do about it... Since it's gotten so bad, only once has it relented, and that was yesterday.

This girl I've been talking to lately introduced me to her friends. She knows I'm trans, and her friends used the proper pronouns without a single fail. I'm sort of astounded that they did, and it made me completely forget my dysphoria. I don't even get that kind of respect within my group of trans friends... I guess I should maybe find new friends if they disrespect me just to urine me off with excuses of "it's to make you manlier."

Anyway... so the girl asked me out last night, and now I feel... an interesting mix of things. It appears that the name Merik will be mine for the time being. She's helping me get accustomed to it (even if she doesn't realize it). I haven't felt like a protective guy for almost a year, having been in relationships with gay men only... But I haven't felt like this for a while, and it's giving me a boost emotionally.

I could go on, but I think that's it in regards to my transition and how I'm feeling lately. How's everyone else?

[Guest shadowghost21]

Oh man other countries with health care and stuff, I am jealous! SRS in the states is out of pocket unless you have one of the very very few policies that pay for it. For the most part everything sounds fun and just hang in there. You have a bunch of really cool stuff to look forward to.

Enjoy

[Guest leo]

Thanks for the update merik

I'm ok personally. My update is:

Been waiting for T do 5 years and finally started on may 18, so that's all exciting

Top surgery should be about a year from now but not quite sure I'll find out more when I go to the ender clinic in 3 weeks

[Guest Talon]

Alberta ROCKS EH!

Glad to hear it's going well for you all in all. Rocks about top surgery and rocks about the girl and her friends he'ing you It's definitely nicer to be respected and treated kindly than being "manned up" all the time.

About dysphoria, I had the same experience when I went full-time at school etc. I think it was probably the added pressure of coming out. Even though it was amazing it's also scary and it's a demanding step mentally and emotionally and you can't really help comparing yourself to bio guys constantly and trying to find your place in the group. For me, the dysphoria settled down after a little while when I started to relax more and find myself as an out, full-time young man. I hope it'll be the same for you.

Merik is a great name!

Things are good on this end, been on T for about 7 weeks and feels awesome.

Let us know how everything goes, I hope you feel better soon!

Thumbs up and all the best,

Talon.