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Hi everyone.

As I recently signed up here for the first time, I thought I'd introduce myself.

My name is Natalie, I'm 19y old and I live in the cheesy part of Europe... No I'm neither French nor English.

I guess what you as fellow interwebsters of the trans* sort would want to know is:

That I am mtf trans*, I outed myself about 2 years ago (or 7y but my parents were busy divorcing)

I started living fulltime last August but stopped after having depressions from dysphoria after 6 months.

Last May my doctor (finally) gave me the ok for HRT and I started mid June. About 8 Weeks since.

Right now, I am probably the happiest person on earth, seeing how my body is changing. And I want to go back living fulltime this month. :)

What am I doing on this Forum?

I guess trying to find people to conversate about trans* themed stuff without annyoing them, or disgust them. And maybe make some new friends, dunno.

In my spare time... (which I got loads of due to me dropping out of high school 2 years ago and not having a job)

... I play guitar and bass since July (omgnirvanaisgodlike), I tumble? on my blog (link) and I go out and take pictures of things I like. (doesn't sound creepy at all)

Also I write alot, and maybe a bit to much for an introduction. But I just felt like it, so nevermind and just read the stuff that isn't italic.

I am happy to have found this place, and I hope to educate myself and have nice conversations.

Thanks for reading.

kthxbye ^_^

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Hello Natalie,

Welcome to Laura's Playground!

I do hope Laura's can help you as much as it helped me. Transition isn't easy, and it sometimes takes a lot of help from friends to get there. And that's what we do here - so, welcome, friend!

If you can please take a moment to read the rules and guidelines, it would be appreciated. They're here to keep the Forum safe and friendly like it is.

Agan, Welcome! I hope to see you around!

Love, Megan

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Guest angels wings

Hello Natalie :) Welcome to Laura's :)

I hope you find the warmth and acceptance I have found here :) read relax and enjoy :) we have differnt forums that may intrest you . When you feel comfortable you are able to add coments of your own to any topic . You can also create a topic of your own . Lookin forward to getting to know you :)

Angel :)

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Guest Wyred93

Hi Angel

Thanks for your nice words, I think this place is exactly what I was looking for.

I'll try to be a useful member and share my knowledge aswell as asking and learning from everyone here.

;)

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Guest miss kindheart

Hi Natalie,

<<< hug >>>

Welcome to Laura's Playground.

Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.

The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.

Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.

One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules. :)

We have MTF meetings-Mon & Sat 9pm est, and you are welcome to attend.

We all look forward to seeing you.

:wub: vanna

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Guest Wyred93

I might look into your chatrooms, but I guess I'll spend some time getting to know the forum and it's members.

Then I might even be talkative in chat^^.

Thanks for the tip. ;)

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i noticed the Nirvana quote to begin with, i was a big fan of theirs back when, still am, i guess but mosty of kurt himself of course.

he had alot of trans-verses in his songs.

i also play gtr and bass, and drums a little, but not much these days for the drums since i live in an apartment.

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Guest Wyred93

one of the reasons I really love Kurt are his texts, you can identify with them and everyone can interpret them differently.

Also, pictures with Kurt in drag are the only ones where he always smiles^^

Nirvana was the reason why I started playing, and I hope I'll get good at it someday :P (atleast nirvana songs aren't too difficult to play)

good to hear someone else still listens to them.

natalie ;)

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Hi Natalie,

I am a fellow musician, trumpet is my main instrument although I did tour Europe playing bass in an orchestra when I was about your age - about a thousand years ago.

I share many of your interests including photography and writing - I wish that I had started my transition at 19 instead of 58 but we all do what we must.

I am so glad that you have found us and have decided to join in - this place is amazing with everyone helping each other.

Here is hoping that you find all of the answers that you are looking for.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Wyred93

We should start a band^^

Too bad we don't live in the same country, though.

That's quite a difference in age, and I once wished to have started earlier.

But I guess I really should start to appreciate it more, maybe in a few months. :P

thx sally, see you on the forums

natalie

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Hi Natalie and welcome to Laura's. I enjoy music and some day will learn to play bass guitar. I also write poetry, short stories, prose, essays, and commentaries.

:)

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