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A calmness decended over me


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My forms arrived today from Janets and it was a strange thing. Usually, I am quite excited to open packages but today was different. I knew what the package was because it had JCI on the label. I opened the box, unwrapped the contents and grabbed my favourite bra. When I put them on, a calmness came over me. It was very strange. I think my heart rate dropped.

I looked in the mirror straight away and I just felt right. It was a powerful feeling, and quite compelling. I haven't taken my bra of since (wearing it as I am typing now). I put on a nice top and now I'm here - talking to you.

Has anyone else experienced this?

It is so different from anything I have felt before when trying on new clothes. I have had a few 'wow' moments recently (see my previous posts) and this was the biggest yet. It kind of made me scared at the same time - like I wasn't the originator of my own thoughts. I think I have unwittingly opened Pandor's Box.

I have got my first appointment with a GT booked for next Monday - I think these are things are significant and I should talk about them with him.

Also, I have recently really wanted to tell my closest friends (a married couple who my ex and I have known for about 15 years) about my dressing and the place I now find myself in. They are kind people and I am sure they won't flip out. Do you think the need to come out to your friends is a positive sign?

Now I'm rambling!

Jenny

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;) don't worry be happy .

Angel :)

Angel,

I am definitely happy. It's up there with the way I felt when I saw my daughter's eyes open about 2 minutes after she was born. Sounds corny, I know! It's a sense of satisfaction with the state of things.

God, I hope my GT doesn't say "you're just a very confused crossdresser, come back and see me in a year..." I'm sure no GT would be as insensitive as that.

In all my 40 years, I haven't felt as 'right' as I do now. I hope it lasts.

Jenny

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Jenny

Your Subconscious mind has a vision of the real you. When you dress to match that vision, everything in your universe becomes in sync and aligned. When everything in your world is in balance their is calm and peace in your body.

You may want to seek out a Gender Therapist and discuss your feelings with him or her. They will help you to explore deep inside of yourself where your true feelings are located on the Gender line. This is definitely an area that brings you great joy and peace. Perhaps it's time to explore that side of yourself more and figure out if it is doable to live there always. Just a thought. Kathryn

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Kathryn,

I agree with what you're saying - it certainly makes sense to me :)

I have my first appointment with a GT next Monday and I want to start exploring...

Jenny

BTW: I felt ready to change my gender selection from CD to MTF today and it felt great!

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Hello Jenny!

That's great news!

The calmness will last as long as you let it.

The feeling of a need to "come out" is a positive sign. Only you can decide when the time is right though.

Huggs,

Joann

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