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Happy holidays!

MTF haven't come out yet except to one girl i had a crush on since high school that recently explained she's a lesbian, though she found happiness with someone else. Have been transitioning off and on for years stopping just before anything irreversible trying to make sure i'm doing the right thing and taking it slow. I'm quite sure i'm female for as long as i can remember. Parents found me having/doing many feminine things/actions; i'm quite sure they know something. I've been trying to forget it and just live life as male but my conscious doesn't permit it; kinda like the feeling of having something that doesn't belong. I don't pass off as gay and i'm attracted to females too. I don't take many pictures of myself. As far as how i feel, i am female except i look male and have male parts. Not so much trapped in wrong body but not matching what i truly am. Maybe i'm just weird. I'm conscientious and shy. I just started a new job in a career advancing position so i don't think i will fair well transitioning on the job.

I feel so alone.

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Guest Donna Jean

Hello, Cristal!

Welcome to the Playground! Wonderful of you to come in. We want you to be comfortable as possible while you're here, so, cookies right there on the table, and hot coco on the stove...

shoes off (we pad around here in our socks) and have a comfy chair...

Wait til you meet some of the wonderful folks here...they'll be along shortly..

Don't be afraid to speak up, although, sometimes it's hard to get a word in edgewise with some of the more "exuberant" members... :P

Aw...we all love each other here...

Have fun...

Donna Jean

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Cristal DON'T feel alone. We all are going through what you feel now. We all have been trn and troubled, but somehow we have come throught o the bright sunshine and yes we are a bit confused, and wonder "how come,why me," at some point we realize Holy Cow how lucky we are to see liife from different views and different angles.

Believe me Cristal you are among friends here and we want you to join in and be part of the dialouge, us old ladies have been there and now we are done with the conflict and into acceptance. So talk some more...................My best Mia.

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Guest cristal
Hello, Cristal!

Welcome to the Playground! Wonderful of you to come in. We want you to be comfortable as possible while you're here, so, cookies right there on the table, and hot coco on the stove...

shoes off (we pad around here in our socks) and have a comfy chair...

Wait til you meet some of the wonderful folks here...they'll be along shortly..

Don't be afraid to speak up, although, sometimes it's hard to get a word in edgewise with some of the more "exuberant" members... :P

Aw...we all love each other here...

Have fun...

Donna Jean

Looks like i don't have permissions to PM anyone or view my profile. I looked around to see if there was something i didn't do. Guess i could send an email but thought best to post reply here.

There's quite a few nice people on here and this seems like an ok site. I hope i'm in the right place!

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Guest Donna Jean

Cristal said:

Looks like i don't have permissions to PM anyone or view my profile. I looked around to see if there was something i didn't do. Guess i could send an email but thought best to post reply here.

There's quite a few nice people on here and this seems like an ok site. I hope i'm in the right place!

Oh my, forgot to tell you ..you need 5 posts, sweetie...Ooppps!

Donna jean

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Guest cristal

Seems like this is pretty safe site! I really need someone to talk to. I kinda feel stuck.

Oh and i wonder if i goofed my name by having it lowercase and my gender selection thingy by choosing 'transgender' instead of 'mtf' when i joined.

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Guest Donna Jean
Seems like this is pretty safe site! I really need someone to talk to. I kinda feel stuck.

Oh and i wonder if i goofed my name by having it lowercase and my gender selection thingy by choosing 'transgender' instead of 'mtf' when i joined.

Don't worry, hon..that all can be changed...just get comfortable...

XXOO

Donna Jean

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Guest cristal

Alright, more about me. I graduated from one of those tough military colleges and made it out alive! ...many stories to tell tho. Got a bachelor's degree in business administration and i'm a systems technician.

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Hi Cristal,

Sorry that I have taken so long to great you, I've been out!

I noticed that Donna Jean has offered you the refreshments and you've met Mia as well! :D

Lucky you to get a post from Raymond - he's really sweet, but he spends most of his time moderating in the FTM forums.

I would just like to help you with the way you feel about yourself, Mia mentioned being lucky to be able to view things from different angles - I;m going to give you the ever so positive sounding way to think of yourself!

You are Gender Gifted - now doesn't that sound nice? :D

You have a gift that others do not - you have lived a man's life and now you want to transition and live a woman's life, the one that you know is the right one for you. Single gendered individuals only have the one life - how boring! :lol:

In case no one has warned you about me, I tend to be very optimistic and deal with the most serious of subjects with humor. :rolleyes:

None of that means that I don't care or take any questions seriously - I do! It's just my way of getting by.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest cristal

Oh yeah, i think i may be in the right place! 'Gender Gifted'...I thought i was doomed to the xy. Optimism that's what i need. I wish I found this site a long time ago.

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Guest Donna Jean
Oh yeah, i think i may be in the right place! 'Gender Gifted'...I thought i was doomed to the xy. Optimism that's what i need. I wish I found this site a long time ago.

LOL.. :lol:

Yes, dear...we all so gender gifted that we can hardly stand ourselves! It IS truly a perfect way to see it (Sally, you're a genius!) and a perfect way to be!!

And here, all this time, I thought GG meant "Genetic Girl" :P

Good 'ole "Gender Gifted" Donna Jean

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See even Donna Jean can learn on this site! (And she has been known to have her blonde moments - they can't be senior moments because we are the same very youthful age! :lol: )

Enjoy your time here, but one warning, while the snacks are all virtual and therefor calorie and fat free - the site itself can be addictive! :D

And there is no rehab center for that! :lol: But who would want one?

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest Elizabeth K

Cristal

Hey - you have replies from some of the best people here on Laura's! We try to catch new members because it can be so terrifying to come to a site like this and not know what to expect. Me, I came here in November and now I am addicted to it - ha - it has helped me so much. ;)

Baby - you might just have come home! :rolleyes:

So welcome-welcome- welcome. We hear your story - sweet - it's our story too. You are indeed among friends. So ask questions, make suggestions, be helped out, help others out - maybe we can make it through life and be happy, everybody on the site.. And don't be sad here - ain't no cause for that - we probably understand you better than anyone else - ha! :lol:

Me? I am 60 plus - but brand new at the same time. All my life I was a girl growing up in a male body, so I thought. My therapist helped me see the true me. So I am also married and have a wife who ain't too pleased, but is supportive. I too an not out to work and as I work as a professional, that is a real issue. I am out at home. :D

I am on HRT (hormone replacement therapy) and started three weeks ago. I am fortunate in not having male facial features, so I may get by without a lot of surgry- in fact, went out today and saw myself in a full length mirror at the restaurant - darn, kind womanly now - heck, very womanly now - must be my attitude - gonna be pretty obvious soon that something is going on. And I live in a small town- yikes. Out to my grown children... all thats positive.

Negative - well... everyone has negatives. I am 6'2" but I am older so I am aiming at a tall mature madame life, eventually (not that type of madame - Cristal, shame on you - ha!) :blink:

But ya know what? I am happier now than I've ever been. That's obvious in my silly posts - just can't help it... joy-joy-joy! :P

Sorry - blame it on the hormones - grin

And we are so optomistic, Oprah calls US for inspiration!

A heartfelt reply from another "gender gifted" individual (Cristal - sorta an inside joke - Sally just came up with that phrase and WE LIKE IT! - wow)

WELCOME-WELCOME-WELCOME :D

Dizzy Lizzy :P

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Guest CharliTo
Happy holidays!

MTF haven't come out yet except to one girl i had a crush on since high school that recently explained she's a lesbian, though she found happiness with someone else. Have been transitioning off and on for years stopping just before anything irreversible trying to make sure i'm doing the right thing and taking it slow. I'm quite sure i'm female for as long as i can remember. Parents found me having/doing many feminine things/actions; i'm quite sure they know something. I've been trying to forget it and just live life as male but my conscious doesn't permit it; kinda like the feeling of having something that doesn't belong. I don't pass off as gay and i'm attracted to females too. I don't take many pictures of myself. As far as how i feel, i am female except i look male and have male parts. Not so much trapped in wrong body but not matching what i truly am. Maybe i'm just weird. I'm conscientious and shy. I just started a new job in a career advancing position so i don't think i will fair well transitioning on the job.

I feel so alone.

funny. my ex is actually a lesbian. explains things doesn't it? :D

I'm more or less on the same boat....except I pass off as gay allllllllllll the time now. lol. :) Welcome :) you're not weird. you're just like me :P muahaha. :D *hug*

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It's been too long since I was there, but isn't the Hawaiian term for crazy - lolo? :huh:

I can't find my book on speaking Hawaiian! :(

Aloha,

Sally

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Guest CharliTo

it depends...pronouncing it really fast like lolo means smart and pronouncing it elongated like loh~ loh~ means idiot. :3

i think the word in Hawaiian for crazy is pupule...

...but I don't speak Hawaiian usually so I'm not the best person to ask for Hawaiian languages. :3 I know more Spanish (and definitely more Japanese) than Hawaiian. Muy loco :3

Back to the introduction....

I'm also just starting my career up as a filmmaker. Not a successful one yet of course, but I'm finally getting some jobs as an editing assitant. I haven't really come out either so...I'm in the same boat in that way. Hope we can both figure some way to be out and have a career though. :D My new boss kiiiiiiinda senses the feminine qualities and already covered the "I don't care if you *bleep* pigs or *bleep* guys so long as you're a good person and you can do the work," speech :P

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Hola Cristal,

Just figured I'd say "hello".

And you get to witness a historical moment cuz I'm gonna do it and not be longwinded :P

Although....

My new boss kiiiiiiinda senses the feminine qualities and already covered the "I don't care if you *bleep* pigs or *bleep* guys so long as you're a good person and you can do the work," speech :P

I AM gonna go and wonder what kind of boss would I be/how would I handle a situation of having maybe a trans employee cuz that is fascinating to me for some reason....

See you around. E.

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Guest cristal
it depends...pronouncing it really fast like lolo means smart and pronouncing it elongated like loh~ loh~ means idiot. :3

i think the word in Hawaiian for crazy is pupule...

...but I don't speak Hawaiian usually so I'm not the best person to ask for Hawaiian languages. :3 I know more Spanish (and definitely more Japanese) than Hawaiian. Muy loco :3

Back to the introduction....

I'm also just starting my career up as a filmmaker. Not a successful one yet of course, but I'm finally getting some jobs as an editing assitant. I haven't really come out either so...I'm in the same boat in that way. Hope we can both figure some way to be out and have a career though. :D My new boss kiiiiiiinda senses the feminine qualities and already covered the "I don't care if you *bleep* pigs or *bleep* guys so long as you're a good person and you can do the work," speech :P

That's interesting, you're so like me! I've been trying to teach myself Nihongo for a long time! I even wrote a program in C# two years ago to help learn the kana. I have a fluid speaking friend at work that thought it was good. I've been immersing in rosetta stone, music, movies, etc. I think i know as much of it now as i did Español. Oh and i dated that girl i had a crush on in high school but we drifted apart and last year she found me in Publix of all places and we started talking again but she recently got another girlfriend. I told her who i was and all that; she says she understands. I thought i was alone.

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That's interesting, you're so like me! I've been trying to teach myself Nihongo for a long time! I even wrote a program in C# two years ago to help learn the kana. I have a fluid speaking friend at work that thought it was good. I've been immersing in rosetta stone, music, movies, etc. I think i know as much of it now as i did Español. Oh and i dated that girl i had a crush on in high school but we drifted apart and last year she found me in Publix of all places and we started talking again but she recently got another girlfriend. I told her who i was and all that; she says she understands. I thought i was alone.

haha, yeah, that's the gist of how mine's went. We came out while talking on the phone and when we had a moment to be silent, we kinda both grunted in this funny "It all makes sense now" way. lol. A laugh later, we were friends again =P

Ooo, and if u need help with 日本語 lemme know :D

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Guest DeniseNM

Welcome Cristal sorry the welcome is late but is has been a hectic holiday for me. You have already gotten to talk to alot of the great and wonderful folks here and even a welcome from Raymond that is special, he is a great and sweetheart of a guy as is the other guys here (although watch out for Evan his humor sneaks up on you :P ).

You are Gender Gifted - now doesn't that sound nice? :D

Still love that term Sally :lol:

In case no one has warned you about me, I tend to be very optimistic and deal with the most serious of subjects with humor. :rolleyes:

And we love you all the more because of it girl so don't change one bit

Again welcome Cristal (love the spelling by the way) relax and be yourself

Denise

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Wow, this one thread made my day! I feel safe here. Thanks everyone!

Cristal this is the place to feel safe because I know out there in the real world there are alot of places I don't feel safe but I am ever so glad I found Laura's and all the wonderful folks here.

Denise

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Just figured I'd say "hello".

And you get to witness a historical moment cuz I'm gonna do it and not be longwinded :P

Wait a minute I need to mark this down a short hello from Evan now this is historic .... lol :huh:

You know we love you guy

Denise

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