Xmas Presents For Myself From Myself

[VickySGV]

It was my day for having my acrylic nails filled, so off to the Santa Anita Mall where my nail salon is. It turned into an Ouch experience since 6 of the nails were ungluing from my natural nails and we needed to put on new tips. $10 more than just my fill would have been, but I do not want fungus infections under my nails. The problem is that getting the old nails off is just a bit on the Ouchy side as they come off. 8 hours later my thumbs still feel like I slammed them into a door, but the new red polish looks great and the fingers will be fine by the morning.

While I was waiting for my nails to dry under a special drying hood the salon has, I was watching out the window at a kiosk where they had hair curling irons of several types and had two hair dressers demonstrating them to both men and women. My hair is so darn straight it isn't funny. So after the nails were dry, I stopped by the kiosk and let the one guy demonstrate a couple of the products to me and on me. I ended up buying a flat iron with two opposing ceramic surfaces that you squeeze together and pull about a two inch wide strip of hair through with a certain wrist twist, and get a spiral curl that actually looked good on me. Cost was $150, but I think I can get the hang of it, what it did does look nice.

Next stop was Sephora cosmetics to get a new blush brush, and then I got talked into a mini eye make over by a make-up girl with violet colored hair (it was cute on her) and ended up with a shimmery eye shadow palette, and an eyeliner/mascara in a shimmer gold color. Much more glam than my usual look, but I realized I have my stick in the mud moments as a girl that I did as the other one. Grump. I know I have the sparkly stuff on, but unless I look in the mirror, I don't feel it on. I thought for years if I could just have it on it would feel special, but now its fun but no longer special. I have a silly grin as I think about it, but thats it.

No nerves about "PASSING" or acceptability, no dirty looks while standing in line to get into the Women's rest room. Neither the hair stylist nor the makeup person seemed to see me as anything other than a woman shopper. Complete acceptance from a teenager in Sephora as she looked at me and asked me if I thought her mom would like a certain perfume scent, and if I thought that her mom would approve of an eyeshadow color the girl wanted to buy. (The answer to both was yes.) Just a bunch of girl to girl stuff today, and while I think of it now, then it just happened without my having to think or fear.

I spent over $250 dollars on myself, and I like the stuff I bought, but really the best present I have for myself is the comfort and freedom from the anxiety I used to have about being out as myself, and doing things that are ordinary for me today that were a source of fear just a short time ago. A gift of the wise guys??

What present are you giving your true self this year??

[Bulldog1948]

Vickey,

Sounds to me like you had a nice time Christmas shopping.

Me, I don't know what I'm going to get myself. Every year, except this year I've wanted something in the electronics field. But, hey wait a minute, I did get something for myself, even though I do shear some of it with my wife, I got a new internet service and can skype. Our daughter and us see each other about 3 times a week via skype, so I guess that was our bir present this year.

Mike

[Guest mistygirl7]

A present for myself..... Very depressing because I can't afford to buy myself anything anymore. The last thing I bought myself I had to return it cause I needed to used the money to fix my car/ pay bills/ get gas. I haven't had anything in awhile to make me feel special. And I'm just like you, I pass, I'm accepted as a woman, there's no look or anything. I haven't felt special. Yet alone I don't get a told that I look pretty or that I'm beautiful, or compliment.

That is awesome that you get to spoil yourself for awhile.

[Guest Maria_B]

Dear Vicky,

Here is an awesome day, an awesome iron, and some awesome make up.

Love, Vicky.

P.S: Happy Holidays!

[Cyndee]

That's great to read this Vicky, you are enjoying yourself no doubt !

Shoes, that's what Cindy likes. After I take care of everyone here, I think I will pick up some low heels.

Hugs

Cindy -

[Guest Valerie]

Vicky;

Hmm, lets see if I can answer that one.

What did I get myself for Christmas?

Authorization for my "Letter" and have scheduled my SRS surgery in July.

/Hugs

Valerie