Help, What Am I?

[Guest Mika N.]

Born with a male body (slim feminine looking body)

Strongly desire having a the body of a woman

I want to have a beutiful face

I fantisize about being intimate with a man as a woman

If I marry, I want to wear the white wedding dress

I fantasize about being pregnant with child.

I cross dress daily

I hate the fat on my tummy and I want it on my tush instead.

I want to speak and sound like a woman

I want to have breasts, preferably B cups.

I hate all my masculine features (bone structure, body, facial hair, masculine voice)

"T demon" is what I call Testosterone (I want as much of it gone from my body)

I can spend hours experimenting with makeup.

I LOVE the smell of women's perfume on me (I often put some on at bed time)

I want my skin to be soft and smooth

I want my ears peirced.

I'm seeking facial feminization surgery and srs(grs)

I hate when I get erections and being controled by "T demon" sex drive

I want to be called miss and not sir

I've felt this way as long as I can remember

Please, what am I?

[Guest Donna Jean]

Hon, You are one of us. You are not alone and we are all in it together. We can talk and cry and laugh together, but, we'll work things out as good as possible.

If nice things make you feel good, use them...use the perfume...you'll smell wonderful..

Yes, we're the "Gender Gifted" and like it or not we get to experience two sides of the world where as others are stuck only on one side...We experience more beauty, more love, more pain, more depth...

Mika, sweetheart...embrace it...

Now...you'll need to find a gender therapist and they can help you find where you are in the big picture....but right now, talk to us and we'll try to help..just remember, there is nothing wrong with you..You are special, a "One of a kind", a true unicorn!

{{{BIG HUGGS}}}

Donna Jean

[Guest Naomi Stardust]

what are you?

you're not alone that's what

i can relate to all of it (T demon, i like that)

i don't mean to be presumptuous

and if i'm totally wrong i apologize

but it sounds like you already know what you are

now you just need to figure out a way of accepting it

remember, we gender gifted need to stick together

you'll find a lot of smart people in similar situations on this site

and all of them care deeply

good luck!

[Sally]

You are a human being, first and foremost and always will be.

You are like me in so many ways and I fought long and hard against myself and my very nature - I believed society when the pronounced me male and I worked so hard to be a man - whatever that really means. Things get a little bit jumbled when you leave Black and White behind and enter into our continuous spectrum!

Seeing a gender therapist is a very good first step, they can help you find where you feel that you belong on the gender spectrum - you seem to really already know, but you can use an experienced guide!

No one buys a pocket guide and starts up Mt. Everest! Drop the guy thinking and ask for directions!

Love ya,

Sally

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Mika N

Everyone is right, you are a person, you are one of us and you are not alone.

Hey - you just wrote about almost anyone here when you wrote about yourself. GREAT

So we don't judge - we gotta lot of hugs - so tell us some more about yourself in real time thoughts - we also make suggestion on how to find yourself, and we always suggest seeing a gender dyphoria specialist - a therapist. It's the first step. If you are too young to have the resources or the support, we can make suggestions. If you are terrified - we get that ways sometime, so tell us - and if you are ever depressd, and we all get that way sometimes too, then ya GOTTA tell us. Gotta tell us dear - we work hard helping when people are depressed. It ain't easy being like we are - wanting to be something else.

We even share when we are happy-happy-happy. Hey it happens all the time at Laura's

Keep posting, even when you don't have much to say - we want you here.

Lizzy

[Guest Martin]

I like Sally's answer. You ARE a person first and foremost.

It sounds to me like you're probably a transsexual. But only you can know that for sure.

[Guest Irielle]

Hi Mika, you have had some great replies to your post. Remember that you are you and although we all like to have names and labels for everything sometimes those aren't what is really important. What is important is that you are good to yourself and take care of yourself.

A good gender therapist is a must - someone who will help you discover who you really are. You seem to have a good handle on that but the road is still a rough one at times. What is wonderful is that everyone here is going through their own version of the same thing and we can all help one another.

Be gentle with yourself

[Guest Donna Jean]

Irielle said:

A good gender therapist is a must - someone who will help you discover who you really are. You seem to have a good handle on that but the road is still a rough one at times. What is wonderful is that everyone here is going through their own version of the same thing and we can all help one another.

Be gentle with yourself

Yes, Irielle is so right ...everyone here will help in their own way, but, you know that support is here for you. Please always reach out because there are so many willing to help and lend an ear and give support. That's what makes Laura's so special.

A good Gender therapist is an absoute must...that will be your guide..your road map...

Huggs, Honey...

Donna Jean

[Guest Evan_J]

Howdy, Welcome.

I have an idea what this time period is like for you, all the "answers" are right there and yet you're afraid to be sure of them. Take a deep breath and relax and listen to he advice given; focus instead on just feeling like yourself. When you feel like you want the label see a gender therapist and they'll help "officialize" it but the real answers will be with you all along.

[Guest AniStacy]

You're a person!

And like all of us you want to know who you are.

One can never truly understand one's self, but we try to know as much of the consious as possible!

You've told us what you feel, so I suggest finding out how real those feelings are, by consulting a professional.

They won't label you or tell you who you are.

They will help you find out who you are yourself, then they'll help you with the steps that follow!

Good luck!

<3 Stacey

[Guest amie]

You are one like many of us here.

This is a great place with great people in it, Mika.

Stick around.