First day!

[Guest Sarah Faith]

Well after buying a purse yesterday I realized today that I should probably actually attempt to present as female. I had just been putting my hair into a pony tail, and going with my old guy T-shirts and my 15 year old leather jacket that I wore through all my weight phases. Soo I put on my Great Britain top that some of my British family sent me as a gift awhile back, a cute jacket, and the boots I bought recently. Put some clips into my hair to give it a bit more of a feminine style, and then went shopping with my grandma today.

I was of course expecting the worst, but absolutely none of those fears were realized today! We looked at the makeup shop in Pennys and usually when I go shopping with a female relative or friend the girls completely ignore my existence, but today I was a bit surprised that the girl directly asked me what I was looking for!

We went to several stores, and the grocery store and honestly no one even looked twice (in a bad way)! And we were referred to as ladies several times. For the first time going out into public presenting as Sarah and for it to go just about perfectly... to stay that I'm on cloud nine tonight would be a massive understatement. I can't even stop smiling right now!

[Guest angels wings]

Yeah welcome aboard Sarah you always had it just had to believe in yourself

Keep flyi g on cloud nine , its fun there

Angel

[Guest Tamar]

. Cngrats Sarah. That's awesome!

[Guest JohnV]

I'm so happy you had a great experience! I hope more of these are to follow.

It's always the best when others can see the real you.

[Guest Sarah Faith]

Thanks all! I don't really know where the sudden courage to just do that today came from, but It just felt like it was time to give it a go. I'm just really happy it went so well!

I'll certainly try to stay on Cloud Nine Angel!

[Guest Sarah Faith]

Well I have to say even 12 hours later, I still cant stop smiling!

I don't think I can bring my self to trying to present as male again lol. Taking the old "mask" off completely and being free to be my self, is something I have never experienced before and to reach this point a place where I had at one time given up on reaching ever... Is such an incredible feeling and I feel like smiling, and crying but crying happy tears.

It wasn't so long ago that I had felt like I lost all this weight for nothing and had nearly gave up on everything.

[Guest Tamar]

The land of the free is beautiful, no?

You made me smile Sarah.

[Guest SusanB]

Very happy for you Sarah, you're moving right along

[Charlize]

I certainly remember that elated feeing at being myself for the first time. I also remember how i didn't want it to end. Going back to a male was painful as time went by. You are taking a big step. Enjoy it. The smile can last a lifetime even though at times it may hide behind tears.

Hugs,

Charlie

[Guest]

Ooops! You just grew and the closet just shrank, now you can never fit in there again. Clank! Oh my, the tire jaggs just popped up on the yellow brick road. Now, you can't back up. Do you see us up ahead, smiling and waving for you to come with us? I wish you many smiles on your bright new journey ahead. Hug. JodyAnn

[Guest JazzySmurf]

Congratulations!!! You are a beautiful woman, so feel free to just be yourself :-)

[Guest Sarah Faith]

Yes very much so Tamar! And I'm happy that I was able to make you smile too! You know what they say about smiles, they can be infectious!

Thanks so much Susan!

Charlie that's basically how it is for me, but fortunately school doesn't start for a few months and my employment is still more or less taking care of my great grandparents and they are supportive of me. So really I don't know that I have any reason to go back to trying to present as male. The last part of your statement is a very lovely way of putting it!

Jody, I knew I shouldn't have bought that small Hersheys bar at the store yesterday!!

But thanks a bunch!

[JenniferB]

Congrats on having the courage to go out in public as yourself. I think that is one of the biggest challenges we have in our path to living as our true gender.

I found that people just ignore you. But that is if you don't become flamboyant and trying too hard to be the opposite gender. Also, over time, the anxiety of what other people think goes away, and it's much easier to just be yourself. I know I over did it at first, and actually am closer am back to being close to how I acted before transition in that my confidence returned. Attitude and confidence is so important.

I'm happy for you.

Jenny

[Guest Billie De]

I am so Happy for you. The feeling is great. I love going out of town where people don't know me. It just builds so much confidence.

[Guest Sarah Faith]

Congrats on having the courage to go out in public as yourself. I think that is one of the biggest challenges we have in our path to living as our true gender.

I found that people just ignore you. But that is if you don't become flamboyant and trying too hard to be the opposite gender. Also, over time, the anxiety of what other people think goes away, and it's much easier to just be yourself. I know I over did it at first, and actually am closer am back to being close to how I acted before transition in that my confidence returned. Attitude and confidence is so important.

I'm happy for you.

Jenny

Thanks so much Jenny

Yeah, me presenting as female, wasn't really that different to how I've been presenting lately (mostly gender neutral then really male) and I was getting called miss from time to time then. So the change of going out gender neutral to presenting as female wasnt a huge leap. The biggest change was I had my hair down and clipped into a more feminine style then usual, a womens top and jacket, and the 3 Inch heeled boots I was wearing. So it wasn't really a huge leap for me, and maybe that really worked in my favor. Oh and of course the new handbag I bought my self!

I don't even wear any make up yet! lol.

I was so nervous at first, but the confidence really built up as I went along and I felt like I was acting more my self then ever. I was definitely trying to avoid overdoing it just wanted to be me mainly.

[Guest Sarah Faith]

Congratulations!!! You are a beautiful woman, so feel free to just be yourself :-)

Wow I'm sorry sam I missed your post earlier somehow!

Thanks a bunch that's so sweet of you!

[Guest Jo-88]

This is so awesome Sarah! How did I miss this thread!? CONGRATS!!!!

[Guest Sarah Faith]

Thanks so much Jodie!

[Guest Sarah Faith]

Another pretty big thing happened to me today. I decided to send a picture to my Dad one of the more recent ones so I texted it to him. Ive vented alot about the situation with my dad here, so as you might imagine I really wasn't expecting much at all. I pretty much assumed he would ignore it. To my shock I received a text back 3 minutes later, and he said I looked nice and it's just taking him time to get used to the change. Not much, but definitely progress!

[Guest]

Chocolate and Estrogen work like magic. Giggle.

I can't stop smiling, that your Dad is coming around. That is the nicest news of all.

Way hug. Jody

[Guest Sarah Faith]

Thanks Jody! It was a surprise, I really wasn't expecting any response at all from him. So the fact he responded so quickly, and completely non-negative really made my day! I doubt he even knows how much it actually meant to me lol!