A time and place for everything,

[mara13]

Now is the time, and this is the place.

​I thought long and hard about whether or not to post this, and just exactly what to post. My story is not dramatic, nor is it rife with problems and conflict. My story is pretty vanilla compared to the others I have read. Nonetheless, it is my story, and for what it is worth, here it is.

I can not say that I have always known that I was different, it never really occured to me to wonder. I always like to do things that were typically reserved for ladies, crochet, sewing, cooking, and other frilly crafty stuff. But at the same time, I liked typically manly things as well, carpentry, hunting, fishing, and so on. All that changed in Aug. when I was 16, (my grandfather had died earlier that year, at Easter) and my sister and her friend were trying to pull my out of my shell. they both knew that I am not one to back down from a challenge, and so her friend bet me 50 dollars that I could not go to the halloween party as a girl and pass it of well. My sister and mom helped me to get ready for the event. I grew my hair and nails out, and learned to act and walk ladylike. they found a dress that fit, and come Oct. they did my makeup, and styled my hair. It was then that I realised that as well as being a man, I also had an inner woman that wanted to be expressed. I never told them about it, but that moment stuck with me forever. Needless to say, I came away from the party 50 bucks richer, and with a new understanding of who I am. I am Man, and I am Woman. perfectly balanced, and in harmony. Although I haven't indulged in my feminine side till recently, I know it has always been there.

As boring as it may be, (as Auron would say) "This is my story"

Love and best wishes,

Mark Smith, AKA Mara13

[Guest Sarah Faith]

Final Fantasy X is awesome, so I love the quote.

Not everyone's story needs to be heart wrenching, or insanely dramatic to be authentic. Your story did make me smile, that sounds like a very sweet memory to look back on. I am happy that you have found that balance within your self and you are comfortable with it.

So thanks for sharing hon!

Hugs,

Sarah

[Guest Xeriis]

haha, you both are too funny. Love the quote!!

Your your earlier mention about Almost breaking your neck ("Shoe size..." post) makes a lot more sense with the actually story to go with it. It makes me happy to know you're able to balance both sides of your life and didn't just bury that other side.

[Guest Melissa~]

Dang it you are making me want my FFXHD, Is it going to be for the PS4 now to promote sales there...Hmmm

[mara13]

Actually, I was quoting Auron from Kingdom Hearts 2, But thanks for the encouragement. I often wonder what would have happened if I had told mom and sis about my feelings back then. I just hope this in some way helps and encourages others, even though it is rather bland.

[Guest Xeriis]

Actually, I was quoting Auron from Kingdom Hearts 2, But thanks for the encouragement. I often wonder what would have happened if I had told mom and sis about my feelings back then. I just hope this in some way helps and encourages others, even though it is rather bland.

Auron from anywhere is still just Auron (I've played both games). Aeris on the other hand...... I loved that Mandy Moore did the voice for her!!

[Guest miss kindheart]

Hi Mara,
<<< hug >>>
Welcome to Laura's Playground.
Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.
The Chat room does require another registration that is separate from from your forums one.
Please read the chat room rules before coming in, and expect a short interview with one of the chat room moderators.
One of the things that they will ask you is if you read the rules.
We all look forward to seeing you.
vanna

[mara13]

Thank you Miss Kindheart, but I think you told me this in my intro thread, "Greetings and Salutations"!

[Guest sophia.gentry58]

Hi Mara,

Your story is interesting and it is unique to you. Believe it or not but you might be surprised to know that many of us here would probably have preferred your story or one similar than our own heart-wrenching bio. You were able to discover more of who you are by that one event which became pivotal for you from that point on. Your story has every bit of significance as anyone else's.

Sophia

[Guest Eve Caillard]

Hi Mara

Lovely to read your story! I feel much the same as you - suspended in some kind of in-between world. Perfectly male in one aspect, perfectly female in another. And I ignored my female side until March last year when I blew into cross-dressing after many years of absence. These days I understand why I was never settled all the 'barren' years when I tried to be 'the man'. Thanks for reassuring me!

Hugs,

Eve

[mara13]

The really funny part is that some of the guys that knew Mark, never realized that I was Mara. I was hit on all night long! I never let on to who I was, I left them wondering. It was such a thrill to have that happen.