Neither Shoe Fits

[Guest Zayden]

I wrote this in 2010 before I knew what androgyny meant. Although feelings have changed a little bit (I am definitely more masculine and interested in being more that way) it is still one of my favourite pieces of writing.

They say that if the shoe fits,
wear it.

But I must ask them this:
what if neither shoe fits?

What if the female one is a little too feminine,
and the male one is a little too masculine?

What if I love my breasts,
And yet I dislike the rest of my female body?

What if I fantasize about having male genitalia?
Not just seeing it, not watching, but having?

And yet I love my female side,
as I always have and always will.

You see the FtMs and the MtFs,
but what am I?

Some sick joke, some freak of nature?
A bisexual confused girl... or boy?

[Guest SonadoraXVX]

I'd say your androgynous, or even gender fluid. I have met and heard people who prefer not to let go of their male parts, yet look female, or not let go of their female parts, yet look male. Some people prefer to keep some male attributes and some female attributes and then some will use their fluidity as they see fit and /or as the situation changes.

Have seen this in the big city of Los Angeles, so its nothing new under the sun, yet, there are pockets of naysayers, even in big liberal towns, just have to find your allies who can accept you for you, "a human being".

Lucia, and sometimes feel like you do, but I slant more towards femininity, but like male priviledge I'd had, in going to some mostly all male institutions, like say the USMC, auto/diesel/small engine mechanics, classes and carpentry classes.

[Guest meganstar]

I like it very much. It echoes some of my same feelings.

I am definitely femal inside but I'm still attached (no pun intended) to my male parts in ways. I truely wish for breasts, very much so, but I look at myself in the mirror and try to imagine myself without the other bits. I love what I see in my imagination but I don't exactly hate my reflection. I know it might sound confusing and it is to me

"You see the FtMs and the MtFs,
but what am I?"

I have asked myself this very question quite a bit lately...

Megan

[Guest Jennifer T]

What if?

It's contemplative; introspective. I like it.

[Guest Zayden]

I'd say your androgynous, or even gender fluid. I have met and heard people who prefer not to let go of their male parts, yet look female, or not let go of their female parts, yet look male. Some people prefer to keep some male attributes and some female attributes and then some will use their fluidity as they see fit and /or as the situation changes.

I identified as gender fluid for a few years and it was at that point that I realized I was more of a man than a woman. I identify as FtM now because I no longer feel like this body fits me. But at the time, gender fluid definitely was what I was.

[Guest miss kindheart]

Nice poetry

Remember that you are you and it is ok to be any way your heart tells you to be

<<< hug >>>

vanna

[Guest Zayden]

Nice poetry

Remember that you are you and it is ok to be any way your heart tells you to be

<<< hug >>>

vanna

Thanks Vanna, you are truly a lovely person.

[Guest]

Thank you for sharing, Zayden.

You are you and no one can take that away from you.

Huggs,

Joann