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4 months of hormones so far and I pretty much went full time when I started. I went into it head on, knowing I was still fearful. Not of HRT but of the looming thought stuck in my head of looking ridiculous as a woman, being unaccepted and failing to "pass", to fit in. I just had to put my focus on the future. Let changes happen to me as they will. 4 months later and I feel I did well in reasoning against my fears and changed them into nagging worries. I felt more confident in myself which helped me to feel at peace and be able to relaxe. Which in turn translates into my actions and my movements such as walking. In turn that takes my nagging worry and over the last 2 weeks it has been nothing more than a passing worry. Some times I could go about my day worry free, then the next day it might be morning, noon or the entire day that I feel that I am shifting out from fitting in or being the sore thumb amungst the girls and sticking out lol.

Then there is today. It was cool out and i grabbed my cardigan and headed out for the day with my purse in tow as per usual. I catch my bus into town and so begins my interaction with the world. I felt good. Had no worries. Met friends, had lunch. Grabbed some me time for a tea and some internet "window" shopping. I saw some amazing things a few women wore and just had to see if i could find it or something similar. I noticed my cardigan was getting ratty and it was a tad warmer than needed so I got something more appropriate from an Eddie Bauer sale rack. As it so often does, shopping therapy made me feel fantastic. Full of energy. So i decided to hike a few trails that lead from town back towards my home. Through tall pine forests and passing by some lakes while surrounded in a fantastic mountain view. JJ had a thread about "those days", the ones that are indescribably perfect and you feel at your best. Today was one of those days!

Anyway, on the way home, there was a section of trail in use for a bike race and as I was walking that part I ran into a bear. He was just a little guy and so cute and so dangerous too. A first timer away from his mom and he was well trained by her. He came walking out of the thickest of woods with breath taking silence. We stood about 10 feet apart. Turns out he was more interested in munching some plants and I could pass by, and as amazing as a bear encounter is. What was next was the highlight of my day.

There was a girl marking the trail to show racers which turn to take. She watched the bear encounter and stopped me just as 2 girls rode up on bikes. We hailed them over and pointed out the bear. 4 girls in one spot giddy over seeing a bear lol. My female voice is not so hot. Here I am in the company of 3 beautiful women. Normally they would more than likely be friends, but right now they are complete strangers. OMG! my day ruined by my voice. Lol, opposite infact. My moment. Worry free, "Passing". Everyone using her or Hailey with me as we chatted on feuled by excitment. This day I could feel myself grow stronger.

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Guest Sarah Faith

That is a great story Meagan, It's good to hear that you have been conquering your fears and anxiety. Though seeing a bear in the forest would be enough to have me flee the forest! I'm not the out doorsey type though. I think ultimately we make some of our flaws into a bigger issue then they really are to other people, and if we're not vigilant fear absolutely can cripple us. Really good to hear that you are doing so well! :)

Hugs,

Sarah

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Guest Kontessa

Great story Meagan! Could feel your inner feminine glow coming out - shining all around you. CONGRATULATION!!! :groupwavereversed: Keep up the good spirit. :score: All the time of time we spend worring about things can be put to better use - like SHOPPING! :thumbsup:

GOOD LUCK and many hugs and best wishes!!!

Kontessa

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Thanks for the positive story of both your progress and the beauty of the world. Sounds like you are bearing up just fine.....Sorry i couldn't help it.

Hugs,

Charlie

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Guest Mia J

Great story and wonderful ending.

Loved the bear story. I have had several encounters with bears on trails including a mom and two cubs but we did all the right things and no harm came while we had a great experience. But at least they were all black bears and not Grizzlies.

One thing about being by a young bear is to be careful of mom being around and taking offense.

Glad you had a great day and may you have many more in the future.

Mia

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