Me And Hrt

[Guest angie]

Hi All,

My name is Angie,and i have been on HRT for four months.

What is it like,and how do i feel?In a word,Wonderful, it is the most satisfying thing i have ever done for myself.The effects and changes and the time it has occured in, have been surprizingly swift.

The feeling of absolute calm and rightness has not diminished one bit.THIS IS RIGHT.

Finally,i get to turn into the woman i always knew i was.My skin has softened,the body hair is diminishing,the fat is redistributing to a more feminine appearance and i am getting hair regrowth.

But,the best and most pleasing change,is my breast development.

I did'nt know what to expect,how much growth would happen,or how long it would take.

When those nodules,which some consider painful,started to grow,develop and slowly expand,

i was thrilled!Tender?,oh yeah.If i carried a book,pressed to my chest,whoa girl did i know it.

My girls may be small,but they are all me.And they are definently noticeable.

My face,neck,torso and legs have become much more female in appearance also.A more rounded thigh,bigger bottom,slimmer waist,much smaller arms,are noticable to people that know me.

But the change that really surprized me,was not physical.

I am still a rock n roller,but sports?I have very little interest in something i was passionate about.

Be it football,which i lived for,baseball or basketball,eh,who cares?

Hello!,am i talking about the same person here?Yep.Angie likes fashion,womens magazines,and how to improve the look i am trying to achieve.I like makeup,perfume and nail polish.

All the things that i ignored as my former self.

Ahh,womanhood,i do like being here.And it is only just begining.

Big Hugs To All,

Miss Angie

[Guest Traci Nicole]

Miss Angie,

Being female is not only just enjoying the things you want, it is also enjoying the person you want to be, and being the female of your your dreams. It's also about being of the life you should have a long time ago when you was a child. Just like me, I've had these thoughts along time ago, the dreams and the visiions of being female, and I wondered was there something different about me. Being on HRT, is great enjoyment and is a wonderful thing and a great new experience.

[Zufrieden]

Hi Miss Angie & Traci Nicole:

HRT has been a great experience for me, too.

Calmness and sense of freedom would be the two biggest pluses for me.

I have much more patience and more energy.

I like my body a lot more.

To get me actually interested in women's fashions would require a brain transplant, though.

Z.

[Guest Rach]

Hi Miss Angie & Traci Nicole:

HRT has been a great experience for me, too.

-As for me, I couldn't agree more with that!

Calmness and sense of freedom would be the two biggest pluses for me.

-When I first started HRT way back in the mid 80's, I went through a complete change in my thought processes. I find myself

a different person altogether, and all for the better. Some of those included a much greater sense of compassion, empathy, caring and understanding of others, among other thing as well. I am so super-sensitive that its crazy at times, but I've always been like that. Do you feel this way as well? What do you experience in the way of emotions, like how have they changed for you since you began your HRT? (or anyone else who would like to share their experiences - by all means, please do)

I have much more patience and more energy.

-I agree with the patience part! But the energy issue, well, we already went into that one :-)

I like my body a lot more.

-Totally agree with you. I, like most women, only wish I could reverse the aging process. It is something you seem to take for granted when you are, say, in your twenties. Then reality begins to hit home as the tears roll on by. That is life, I guess.

To get me actually interested in women's fashions would require a brain transplant, though.

-Why is that, if you don't mind me asking?

Rach

[Zufrieden]

Hi Rach:

I'm a bit of an odd case. I've never felt like a boy and never shared their interests like sports, etc. I was always envious of girls, but never really interested in their trappings.

To me, passing has not been the ultimate goal. I'm too independent. I don't want to change my walk. Strange as it may seem, walking is one of my big joys in life. Freedom of motion, unconcern with everything, the oppourtunity to think. My voice? A (some might say) pleasing baritone. I'm not going to start singing sea chanties in a different key just to fit in. Adopt different mannerism? I can't be bothered, although I always cross my legs because I like it. Hair? I've got decent hair for a man, but way short of the glory of female hair. I would never wear a wig or do hair transplants. Besides, I don't have to look at my own hair. Clothing? Clean and hopefully ironed is about the best I can manage. I've worn khaki shorts most of my life and I do get a bit wistful when I go into a store and see khaki skirts. I wouldn't mind wearing one, but only after the bits underneath fit.

With no disrespect for those who discover a whole new world by being female, I haven't abandoned all the idiocy of being a male to fall into the clutches of female conformity.

I guess some people might say that I'm an androgyne. To me, by myself, with no one to judge my appearance, I'm a female. But most of all, I'm pretty much happy with myself.

Z.

[Zufrieden]

Oops, missed the part about emotions.

Certainly my emotions have changed. Even though I cried pretty easily as a man, I can cry at the drop of a hat now.

Then there was the post about Getting Hysterical.

Z.

[Guest Sophie Jean]

Well said, Z. I made up my mind when I started dropping my artificial male persona several months ago that I would not replace it with an artificial female one either; whatever persona came to the surface would be mine. As a result, I don't try to follow trends or styles. I try to find clothes that look good on me and feel comfortable when going out. With a few simple accessories, I can simply be a female me--unique, but not garish.

BTW: I have only been on low dose antiandrogens for two weeks. It doesn't change the things that interest me, and I doubt whether estrogen will either. The antiandrogen only affects my mood, and my physical appearance, and I suspect the same will happen when I start estrogen treatment, whenever that may be.

- Sophie Jean

[Zufrieden]

Hi all:

If you want some heavy, but pretty interesting reading on HRT effects on emotions, try:

Effects of Cross-Sex Hormone Treatment on Emotionality in Transsexuals

Z.

[Zufrieden]

Short synopsis on the above report:

For MTF's on HRT:

The improvement in well-being greatly exceeded their expectations.

The sensitivity to negative emotions was not increased as much as feared.

For FTM's on HRT:

The increase in sexuality greatly exceeded their expectations.

Z.

[Guest Francine1947]

Miss Angie after hearing what you said about HRT. You helped me make my mind up. Im going to start on Hormones as soon as posible.

[Guest angie]

Hello Ladies,

When i said fashion,i don't mean designer,i mean the styles that"I"like.

I'm more of a GirlyGirl than anything else.I love high heels,frilly blouses and

skirts of varying length,all depending on where i'm going.And i have always had a love affair wth dresses.

As for my mannerisms,I Changed Everything About Myself.Walk,hand gestures,sitting and standing.My voice i am working on,and it's still a work

in progress.My goal is to have a close to a normal womans voice as i can

realistically achieve.

If there is one thing i have learned in all my years out.Is that transwomen come in all shapes,sizes and personal taste.There is no one pattern that fits us all,just like GG's.If you feel good about yourself,go with it.No matter what anybody else may say.You are an individual,you are a woman,be yourself.

Hugs Sweeties,

Angie

[Guest mak]

I have to say that the idea that the personality can be changed through the HRT sounds quite strange to me..... I mean that I am really surprised to listen that hormones can make you more compassionate or peaceful....

I do not doubt that it happens, but it just sounds a little strange to me..............

I wonder whether these phychological changes occur only during HRT or whether they are permanent..

[Zufrieden]

Hormones do affect you very strongly. Your personality does basically stay the same, though.

Certainly patience, calmness, contentment and lack of aggression are the usual effects on MTF's.

For many of us getting rid of that poison testosterone has been our salvation.

But what I find mind-bogling is that FTM's report that taking testosterone for them increases calmness.

In the topic Ask Matthew41 Questions, this is discussed.

I guess it just goes to show that there are major differences between people.

Z.

[Guest Zenda]

Kiaora Mak and others.

What Angie and other mean is their compassion and empathy door which had been locked has finally been opened and for some the hormones act as the key. For me I've always been compassionate and prone to empathy attacks especially when seeing other people or animals suffer, however what happens now is tears flow more easily when I have these attacks. I'm prone to burst out in tears when seeing or hearing of the suffering of others. In the past there was just a controlable trickle now they cascade. I'm definitely more sensitive. Apart from the sensitivity and physical changes to my body, my core identity 'warts and all' remains the same![ I don't really have any warts...just figure of speech]

Z as you know hormones are powerful and very important chemicals and any inbalance can have adverse effects. For some F2M trans-men testosterone balances them out...they feel 'normal' hence the calmness. And visa versa for some trans-women. Before hormone therapy I was never agressive, violent or abusive and after starting HT I'm still not A V or A... I'm just me..always have been and always will be. non agressive, non violent, non abusive me...JUST A LITTLE MORE SENSITIVE.

If hormones have made some trans-people better people than they were before...all I can say is 'GREAT' and keep poping those pills [or injecting or patching]...IF IT'S GOOD FOR YOU ...GO FOR IT. YOU WOULD BE A FOOL NOT TO!

BE WARNED CROSS HORMONES THERAPY CAN ENHANCE NARCISSISM IN SOME...... SIGNS TO LOOK OUT FOR.... MIRRORS... EVERY TIME YOU WANT TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR THEY ARE HOGGING IT.

Metta Jendar

[Guest angie]

Mirrors,ugh not me but for long enough to brush my teeth and put on my makeup.If i look too long i see far too many flaws.UH-UH Mustn't go there,i like myself,I'm happy with my apperance...No Negativity Allowed.

Jendar Sweety,I understated my emotional level.From the day i came out,admited to myself that i am

a girl.My emotional floodgate opened,a simple statement could make my voice crack and my eyes well up.That was definently a relief to finally get to show my inner feeling.I was always compassionate,i'm just more so on HRT,feel like a woman/act like a woman/have a womans emotions/it's only natural.

Hugs,

Miss Angie

[Guest Jenny]

Short synopsis on the above report:

For MTF's on HRT:

The improvement in well-being greatly exceeded their expectations.

The sensitivity to negative emotions was not increased as much as feared.

For FTM's on HRT:

The increase in sexuality greatly exceeded their expectations.

Z.

Glad for the synopsis as I suffer from another problem; a short attention span. Thanks, lol.