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3 Mon HRT and I Want To Cry


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Guest Kontessa

It is no longer a dream....a fantasy of mine....it is really happening....and I am so happy that I want to cry! After all these years about thinking and wishing that I could physically change my appearance to be the individual that I always dreamt to be is finally happening, and I shout to the world...."Ready or not, here I come!"

I started my trasition rather late in life because of personal and family issues - I'm now a young, vibrant 66 year-old with her whole new life to look forward to. With that behind me, I can only looked forward to new things to come.

Today is my THIRD MONTH ANNIVERSARY of being on prescription HRT and I am very content so far. Not only are some of the physical changes are becoming more apparant as time goes by.... I have also noticed other, less obvious ones also. I am more at ease with myself, not as aggressive or as competitve as I am more understanding and aware of my surroundings. Noticing the little things in life that I always took for granted in the past. My senses seem to be hieghtened, more aware of my surrounding and being rather than just going thru the motions of life.

I do not know if any of this makes sense, or not, to anybody but does to me....and that is what I feel counts! I had tried fighting this (GD) all of my life....but IT NEVER GOES AWAY! Being true to myself, and my inner most feelings, has freed me to be the peson I want and need to be. Self-awareness and self-acceptance are the steps towards making me feel whole,,,,being able to live comfortablely with myself.

As long as you are alive - IT IS NEVER TOO LATE! LIFE IS A GREAT ADVENTURE! BE A PART OF IT! GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE AND MAY ALL OF YOUR DREAMS AND WISHES COME TRUE! I KNOW THEY ARE FOR ME!!!

Many hugs and best wishes to all!

Kontessa

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I'm glad that things are going well for you on hrt and also wanted to say thank you for for the words of encouragement that you have giving others like myself that are also starting out in transitioning and also HRT :).

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Guest sophia.gentry58

Kontessa honey I am so happy for you, to finally be able to realize your life's dream is truly awesome. I just started my HRT yesterday and am simply ecstatic. I agree with you, it's never too late. I will be 55 next Wednesday and I couldn't be happier that I am on my way to realizing my dream!

Sophia

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As another medicare recipient recently on HRT i have to agree with so much of what you expressed. I'm happier now than ever. This is something i am so glad i didn't miss in my life. As i live my life as myself it is such a wonderful world with plenty of tears and laughter especially tears of happiness.

Hugs,

Charlie

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Guest warlockmaker

Hi Kontessa, I'm in the same age range and started HRT 4 + months ago. The positive perspective change and finally finding peace, calmness was also my experience. I describe it as lifting of the fog. My ex wife loves the new me with the mental changes and so do I. The physical side is happening much faster than I thought, and hiding the breast growth is becoming difficult. I never thought at my age I would exhibit such growth - I still run a major financial group and I am in stealth for at least another year.

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Guest Jenn348

I used to fear that it was too late for me to start...and I'm 28. If I've learned anything on these boards it's that it truly never is too late to start :)

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Having been on hormones a little longer than some of the rest of you I can say that from day one, and still, it seems like after years of a slow starvation of our souls we are at last getting a full spiritual meal when we start on hormones. I am another one on the high side of 65 and like Konnie, it is a truly new beginning of life even with the so called "age reduced effectiveness" of the Estrogen and "terminal testosterone poisoning" that we have gone through. All of us can have the peace of mind and happiness that Konnie has now, and I'd send her a whole case of Kleenex, but I just used it up myself just thinking about it.

Congratulations and continued happiness there doll!! You and all of us deserve it.

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Hi Konnie,

Thank you for sharing!

Your feelings are shared by many of us, that HRT has miraculous properties, and that life begins anew.

I am so happy for you that you have had the opportunity to experience your rebirth. Happy birthday!!!

Love, Megan

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Kontessa...

You are simply amazing!!! An affirmation of a shared experience that enriches all!!!

Thank you!!!

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Thank you for the update and the reminder for all of us, Kontessa. :friends:

I'm happy to hear that your journey is a pleasant one.

Indeed it is never too late for us as long as we are still above grade.

Huggs, :wub:

Joann

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Guest Carla_Davis

Hi Kontessa,

It is Never Too late to find Happiness with Yourself.

I didn't start HRT until my 50's.

I am including some informative links for you.

The Basics of Transitioning http://www.transsexual.org/basicsoftransition.html

Reasons to Cherish being Transsexual http://www.transsexual.org/cherish.html

I wish you all the Happiness that I have found since Coming-Out, starting HRT, and Transitioning.

We all Support, Care for, and Love You and want to see you Happy, Healthy and Transition Safely. :wub:

Hugs,

Carla

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