By Myself But No Longer Alone

[Sally]

By Myself But No Longer Alone

I have lived the vast majority of my life alone and oh so sadly

I would not wish it on anyone even if they had treated me badly

But I have lived within a dark and cold place of my own creation

Hiding from human closeness to avoid any possibility of sensation

In my mind I knew that in my world there was not a chance of things going right

So I turned away from the light to live in the shadows and the darkness of night

Alone in the darkness with no one to hear as I sobbed each night

So terribly lonely in the blackness but too afraid to enter the light

This went on whether I lived alone or with others for so many years

There is no way of accounting or ever to guess the number of tears

For I alone knew that they were even shed

Tortured by by demons conjured in my head

It seemed that this pattern was doomed to ever repeat

As no one came to throw their undying love at my feet

This never ending cycle would need to be broken

The only way was through words as yet unspoken

I needed help I needed someone to love

I cried out in the night for help from above

But my answer could not come as a voice from without

Not to be heard as a rumble from the heavens as a shout

My answer came to me in the silence of night as I lay still

Tears gave way to reflective thought of which I had my fill

I had heard this little voice of mine so many times

It spoke in my sleep in my work and in my rhymes

I knew then and there just exactly what I must do

To follow that voice if I have the courage would you

Now came the time that I dreaded the most to face my fears

Of rejection and ridicule of abandonment followed by my tears

Did it really matter because lying in bed crying was the same

Whether imposed by myself or with someone else I could blame

I decided to take a chance and I reached out to a friend

The choice to try was the best I could make in the end

The choice of who was the best one I could try

A friend with a heart so full it can never run dry

I reached out of the darkness to find someone so I would not be alone

And I found a companion to occupy my heart even by myself at home

Lonely is a feeling that creates the difference between by myself and alone

Just like you can change the meaning of a phrase by using a different tone

What once was empty and hollow and quite frightening at times

Becomes a place of laughter and music and ringing of chimes

There are days when the darkness returns it is unavoidable I suppose

But when it comes I think of my friend and the emptiness just goes

I see her smile with love in her eyes and feel the warmth of her touch

When it comes to dispelling loneliness it does not take all that much

It just takes one heart reaching out to another

With the only need to be friends with each other

I reached out wanting to receive the friendship that I needed to live

But it turns out that what my heart had needed the most was to give

[Guest Tamar]

Very cool Sally. Love ya.

[Charlize]

That is very beautiful Sally. Thank you for writing from your heart. I'm so glad that that sweet heart has moved out of the shadows of isolation.

Hugs,

Charlie

[Guest DianeATL]

Awesome writing - It hit home for me, well done.

Diane

[Guest miss kindheart]

Nice poem Sally

vanna

[Cyndee]

Very nice Sally !

Hugs

Cyndi -