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Guest SanctuaryKitten

Ok, it's like 6 P.M EST, Feb 20, 2009, and I decided today i'd try quitting cigarettes on February 25th, for that Lent thingy. But that eager part of my mind came up again out of nowhere like it always does and cried 'whyyy wait? Hello. I'm choking on this %^$@ with every puff! Are you stupid or what?' So here i am, with no clue whatsoever, trying to go cold turkey (yet again!)

But oooo, i do kinda have 'some' plan this time! What is that you might ask?

#1 I'm posting my 'quitting' here on the forums for one, which means i'll have to come back and tearfully tell everyone i couldn't do it (again). That would so suck!

#2. I tried this the other night, but it was with only half finished butts. I've actually saved my last cigarette from my last pack, and am going to cover the pack in tape and bury it with topsoil in a small box. Kinda like burying my addiction. Just a little Wiccan magic. lol. Noooo, i won't go to hell for it! Please believe me!!!

3#. I'm going to rant and rave like crazy in this thread until 72 hours have passed, when i can safely say there's no more nicotine left in my body. Not now or ever again!!!

So will this whole thing work? It's been 45 minutes since my last smoke. hmmm, Well I'd better get to work on my nicotine coffin. Oh no, i'm already having a craving. EEEk.

Ok, 6:35 P.M EST, Feb 20, 2009 was my very last smoke!!! Cough cough. Really!!! Can't go back once i submit this thread!!! Yay!!!

I'll post again in 1 hour (starts timer. tick tick...)

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Congrats on stopping. It is a really horrible, stinky, disgusting, unhealthy habit. I can't understand why so many people try it and get hooked. Keep up the good work, and stay away from those cigarettes!

April

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Congrats on stopping. It is a really horrible, stinky, disgusting, unhealthy habit. I can't understand why so many people try it and get hooked. Keep up the good work, and stay away from those cigarettes!

April

TY. Yea, they are like sooo gross! I don't care if my body has a seizure from nicotine withdrawal (if such a thing was possible). Never again. uh uh.
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Guest Kelly Ann

Hi Kitten...I'm sooo with you girlicon12.gifI quit just before Thanksgiving...the second time...cigarettes the first, never smoked them again...argh, started cigars a couple of years later for no good reason...and have been free of thechain since then. We are pulling for you girl...you CAN DO IT!!! B) It's so much cooler and things just SMELL so much nicer too, Kelly Ann (stay away from the snacks though)

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Guest Kelly Ann

until you settle out the snackies are a no no Kitten...ok a smidgen of chocolate...but be aware...that horrible chemical, nicotine, is flushing out of you and the co-dons are more receptive to EVERYTHING...this time was easier...when I stopped cigarettes I went from 150/5 to 210...that is a major change in lifestyle that I have had to battle against. Go with smaller meals more often, no sodas/ect water preferably...stay away from the snacks q}-; no ice cream!!! LOL...it's terrible until you get you system back to reality...it takes a while...keep 'em in packed in tape and buried with topsoil in a small box. YOU CAN DO IT!!!

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Guest Donna Jean

OMG,Kitty........

I am hugging you SO hard!

What can I say? I did it? Well..I did....

It's a terrible thing...You will do it!

You will beat it! The thing is that you and I wanted it so bad, and now you and I can beat it together..Ok, I quit!

How about you:? This is tough stuff.. I understand...

You and me will get past this ,don't you agree??

We will.

Dona Jean

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Oks, its now 11 P.M EST, and i relapsed after 4 1/2 hours. GrRRRRRR. I blame the chocolates! But i don't care. I'm going to bed in 1 hour, and will have 8 hours smokeless by morning to get me started again. I went 24 hours just last week, and 48 hours just before x-mas, so i know i can make that 72. I just know it!!! :o

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Hehe. It was really funny. I was feeling good, on my computer, then suddenly my mind went blank and i started walking like a zombie to the buried cigarette pack!!! So much for all my hard work taping it up and stuff! Well it won't happen AGAIN, cuz tossed both it and my lighter down my apartment's garbage chute this time :P Finished. Done. blah blah blah... and besides, i'm broke now to buy another pack unless i dive into my moving savings. Hmmm.. what's more important, cigarettes or transition? :lol:B)

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Britany,

Stay away from your transitioning money!

It is far more important to you than cigarettes.

You can do it, I know you can and more importantly, you know you can.

Love ya,

Sally

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Britany,

Stay away from your transitioning money!

It is far more important to you than cigarettes.

You can do it, I know you can and more importantly, you know you can.

Love ya,

Sally

Yeps! Well i've been telling myself this one word 'perspective' over and over in my head since last night. My new perspective or perception is that i'll never smoke again, and never did smoke. Not really a lie with that second thought either, because it was always a part of me that wasn't the real me. So.. :P
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Guest julia_d

A couple of hints if I may.. being about 80% of the way to quitting myself.

First thing i you really have to want to pack them in.. I do and so it's not that hard to survive 12 or more hours without nibbling on things or getting to anxious.

I always try to end the day with none in the house. If there are none when I get out of bed it breaks that "first smoke" cycle and I find I can go longer each day before I just have to have one. Today I got to 6pm before somebody gave me a smoke.. I don't have any in the house.. just half the one I was given earlier for "emergencies"

I tried gong cold turkey at new year.. and I made it 4 days becoming increasingly ratty and unpleasant to be around :) Some people can do the cold quit.. but not me.. I have decided to wean myself off gradually and it seems to be working so far. I have been in the shop today and managed to leave with my shopping and no smokes.. I didn't want any so I didn't buy any. I have been thinking about giving the gum a try.. but I am from the generation who don't chew.. it was considered a horrible habit when I was young where smoking was socially more acceptable.. how times have changed.

I don't actually know why I started smoking at 22.. probably a result of the drugs culture I lived in. I quit those.. so apart from feeling like cigarettes are addicted to me (not the other wqy round) I know it is only a habit with a small physical addiction added.. but mostly a habit, like biting nails or something like it. When I catch my hands reaching for a smoke now I get up and do something else.. It seems like a habit you can catch and be aware of.. and so it can be broken...

Good luck.. It's hard, but it is possible. Don't punish yourself if you slip a few times.. a few more won't kill you (or me) after all the years so far and it does get easier.. or it feels like it does XD

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A couple of hints if I may.. being about 80% of the way to quitting myself.

First thing i you really have to want to pack them in.. I do and so it's not that hard to survive 12 or more hours without nibbling on things or getting to anxious.

I always try to end the day with none in the house. If there are none when I get out of bed it breaks that "first smoke" cycle and I find I can go longer each day before I just have to have one. Today I got to 6pm before somebody gave me a smoke.. I don't have any in the house.. just half the one I was given earlier for "emergencies"

I tried gong cold turkey at new year.. and I made it 4 days becoming increasingly ratty and unpleasant to be around :) Some people can do the cold quit.. but not me.. I have decided to wean myself off gradually and it seems to be working so far. I have been in the shop today and managed to leave with my shopping and no smokes.. I didn't want any so I didn't buy any. I have been thinking about giving the gum a try.. but I am from the generation who don't chew.. it was considered a horrible habit when I was young where smoking was socially more acceptable.. how times have changed.

I don't actually know why I started smoking at 22.. probably a result of the drugs culture I lived in. I quit those.. so apart from feeling like cigarettes are addicted to me (not the other wqy round) I know it is only a habit with a small physical addiction added.. but mostly a habit, like biting nails or something like it. When I catch my hands reaching for a smoke now I get up and do something else.. It seems like a habit you can catch and be aware of.. and so it can be broken...

Good luck.. It's hard, but it is possible. Don't punish yourself if you slip a few times.. a few more won't kill you (or me) after all the years so far and it does get easier.. or it feels like it does XD

Good luck to you too Julia!!! Yea, i've slipped so many times over the past year even with intentionally going between 18-48 hours smokeless on quite a few occasions. I'm about 18 hours nic free right now, and praying for that 72 hours! It would be only the second or third time since starting at age 19 for making 3 days or longer. and never more than 1 week. to think i've been an 8 year smoker. yuck!!! :o

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Guest Donna Jean
How are you doing Kitten? Are you staying out of the chocolate and ciggies? I'm still rooting for you :)

Yeah, Kitty.....

I'm hanging over here with Kelly Ann ...we cut a Snicker Doodle in half while we were waiting...

So, how are you doing this morning!

If you have the urge......

Well......cook some bacon....make some gravy and biscuits.

ARGHhhhhh...Just don't light up!!!

We're with you Kitty!!!

HUGGS

Donna Jean

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Hey Britany,

How is it going? You still hanging on?

I got up late and Kelly Ann and Donna Jean didn't make enough bisquits and gravy for me. :(

And believe me, not a trace of bacon - like ther never was any. :huh:

But back to you, hope that you are managing, let us know, we aren't just nosey, we care about you. :D

Love ya,

Sally

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Hey Britany,

How is it going? You still hanging on?

I got up late and Kelly Ann and Donna Jean didn't make enough bisquits and gravy for me. :(

And believe me, not a trace of bacon - like ther never was any. :huh:

But back to you, hope that you are managing, let us know, we aren't just nosey, we care about you. :D

Love ya,

Sally

Yea, i broke and had like (less than) one smoke yesterday sometime before midnight. But that was like for the entire DAY, so i still feel pretty good. Craving is a tad there this morning (err.. nearly afternoon!), but i'm going to try exercising and stuffs :P
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Yea, i broke and had like (less than) one smoke yesterday sometime before midnight. But that was like for the entire DAY, so i still feel pretty good. Craving is a tad there this morning (err.. nearly afternoon!), but i'm going to try exercising and stuffs tongue.gif

Kitty....

Don't look at that as a failure!!

It's a victory...you ONLY had a small bit for the entire DAY!!!!

Now....we're with you.....do some exercises and wear yourself out!!!

Way to go, girlfriend!!!

XXOO

Donna Jean

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Kitty....

Don't look at that as a failure!!

It's a victory...you ONLY had a small bit for the entire DAY!!!!

Now....we're with you.....do some exercises and wear yourself out!!!

Way to go, girlfriend!!!

XXOO

Donna Jean

Thankees! I'm hanging in so far today. But OMG, cravings is sooo bad i swear! lol. And earlier I was screaming at my poor kittie to shut up just for meowing. (of course all this did was make him meow even LOUDER :P)

Ok i'm gonna like stretch and stuff now, and try to find some yoga videos on youtube. yeppps.

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$#@@. Ok, it was nice short run...but i just had a really bad trigger hit me. I did some yoga practice, god it felt great, then decided to go for a walk and breathe the clean air of 2 days with minimal nicotine intake (like less than 2 smokes). I took my electric razor, and felt so gross that i had to shave, so gross that i had hairs growing out of my face and neck that i had to go find a butt. I need to buy a pack now... :( when does Lent start? It's going to be my next attempt. Noo, i'm not giving up on this thread, but i just feel so ugly right now i can't help it.

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