Emma, the Girl Inside.

[Guest EmmaPark94]

I was born male to two devout Christian parents. Growing up in their household isn't the most comfortable place to live in, but it's temporary, and I have an open-minded older brother.

Growing up, I never got to experience being who I wanted to be. I still haven't, not sure if I ever will. I remember, when I was 4 years old, I tried making a dress from a grocery bag. Daddy walked in, with his dark hair, and his bushy brows stitched together. He wasn't impressed at all. Followed by a vicious spanking, because that is how problems are solved, apparently.

I thought maybe my friends wouldn't mind. I was very wrong. I told one friend, and they told many others. Those friends became my enemies, bullying me for years to come. So from a young age, I've learned to conceal this.

Fast-forward to 2013, I'm a teenage girl living in a male body, in a private Christian school. I met a girl who transferred from a public school. The kind of people my parents would warn me about. That girl is the best thing to have happened to me. She accepts me as a transgender, as well as her family. But I told her I don't plan to transition (subject to change?)

And now, I look to see what my future holds, every day.

[Guest Rose1993]

Although my parents are amazing and supportive, i do understand how you feel to a degree. Im adopted, and earlier this year i tried to get to know my birth parents, big mistake. I looked forward to getting to know them my entire life, only to find out that they are overly religious, and homo(trans)phobic. Probably one of the worst experiences of my life. I assume you are under 18, and if i was in that situation, i would do exactly what you plan, wait it out until youre 18, then get out of there. Hopefully you have someone else in your life to support you, maybe give you a place to stay until you can get your own ( i would reccomend an old rv, theyre cheap, usually under 1000 dollars, and once you pay for it, its yours! your own home, rent free! thats actually what i plan to do eventually as well) just stick it out, your results if you decide to start hrt at 18 will still be great, im 20, and im already getting great results, and after only 2 1/2 months too! If you ever need anyone to talk to, feel free to message me ill send you a friend request as well

best of luck to you on your journey to self discovery and happiness!

-Rose M

[Guest Maddie8484]

I know exactly how you feel. My parents are very strict southern baptists. I came out to them a few years ago and they immediatly took me to talk to our paster. He then proceeded to tell me this is just a phase that is brought on by me not having a girlfriend...yea lol...I was then taken to a christian councelor. He was sponsored by "Focus on the Family" and anyone who grew up in a christian home probably knows that company lol. Anyway, he tried to get me to start a "rehab" program to help get my mind "back on God". It was a pretty traumatic time for me. I could go on and on about it, but the good news is, I bought a house and am planning on moving into it as soon as I can get a better job. So, just keep at it and don't let anyone get you down!

-Maddie

[Guest miss kindheart]

Hi Emma,
<<< hug >>>
Welcome to Laura's Playground.
Please feel free to come over and chat sometime.
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We all look forward to seeing you.
vanna

[Arianna]

Hey Emma,

I have a similar story to you. When I was young my father's girlfriend had a daughter and I would try on her clothes for hours. When I wasn't doing that we were playing pretend and make believe, and when we did this I would often pretend I was a girl. However, I knew that I couldn't do anything in front of my parents or else I would be shamed, so I decided to continue my life as a male. When I got to middle school my feminine feelings came back and I started to envision my life as a woman. Fast forward to now I am becoming more comfortable with it and am now seriously considering transitioning. Nonetheless I hope that your family and friends some around and you get to live your life as a girl. If you need anyone to talk to feel free to message me.

-Arianna

[DaHudie Biz]

Remember, it gets better. Never give up hope because it gets better, Baby.