Once I Felt A Girl Inside Me

[Guest Adam_Mazur]

A few days ago I got introduced to this website from a friend. Growing up I guess around 7 or 8 I wanted to pee like my dad. I stood right up next to that toilet and watched as pee rolled down my leg I then told myself I failed. Going thru what everyone wants to refer to it as womanhood I then felt on top of the world I was finally a teenager. That was probably the only time I felt a girl inside me. I started watching explicit films an finding women very very attractive in my mind. By the age of 16 I knew I was a lesbian but I felt in my heart if anyone found out they would be devastated. Once I graduated high school and moved out I knew then maybe it was time cause the only harm that would possibly happen is by words and disgrace. And in all actuality everyone told me "finally you come to ur senses we already knew an knew for years!!!" Wow was I surprised. But as the years slowly drift away I was introduced to FTM by nature. It was a great feeling that made me smile. I wear nothing but male clothes an hell several years ago I even used a pack to make myself stand out more an it made me feel good. I am 26 now. And I broke the news to my girlfriend several weeks ago. I honestly think it scared her more than anything. In which I totally understand that. But for now she is giving me advice on anything. She an I had a long discussion last night before bedtime and I think it brought out a lot of points between she an I that we have been fighting over for days now about. I am receiving packages in the mail this coming week and she promises not to destroy them so I am counting on her to do just that. I just don't want us to break up I know we have a lot of issues but day by day we are trying to work thru them and with my transition to her I will no longer be a girl...

[Guest Zabrak]

I think at some point, MTF or FTM, a lot of people try to "play their roles" because they feel as if they are forced to accept what they are on the outside. It hardly ever works out.

[Guest Adam_Mazur]

You think so as well I played this role too long for my britches have holes in em. I am ready to move on an up in this world it drives me insane to think of all the discrimination that is going on

[Guest Crossroads]

I agree with Zabrak. And I'll take it one step forward to say that at least a small minority of transgenders feel correct in their gender at one point, whether it be a minute or a year.

[Guest leo]

thats pretty muhc the exact same story as me so far

i came out as lesbian around 15/16

but soon realised it wasnt right for me, it just liked girls i didnt wona be one

i dress male when i can, and trying to start my transition, i am currently 18

but you did the right thing by telling your girl though, its important to be honest

and i hope you work through it