Jump to content
  • Welcome to the TransPulse Forums!

    We offer a safe, inclusive community for transgender and gender non-conforming folks, as well as their loved ones, to find support and information.  Join today!

answers


Guest Whitewolf011

Recommended Posts

Guest Whitewolf011

Hi im new here and I need answers or at least help to what I am. I had a small but clear signs I was transgender but ignored them and didn't know what they meant when I was kid and know thoose signs have upgraded to a lvl where I have so many signs pointing me to that of me suppose to being a female and I want to make sure i have answers so I know what I am. One of the big signs are ghost speaking to me and i am psychic just pointing that out there triyng to say what I am this all started when I was 13 it felt like someone was in my head trying to tell me all this after awhile I stoped fighting it. Next day it was calm no wired feeling in my head but it came back idk if it was me or them but I sometimes saw myself as a girl and I would try ignore it and other times it would try to make me think I should be one and make me wander if it was me cause I never had a clear understanding of who I am I was always pretending to be different cause of my dad very strict person and people at school would judge me for being me cause they see mas retarded and all. Up till know all that has changed I had emmit to myself I would look into it see if it was who I was meant to be and I one thing that did strike me I never was me and I felt lost unsure of who I am as a person and I know wander if being a girl is who I was meant to be cause there where so many things trying to tell me that and to be truthful I feel bored with myself I don't see myself as who I am I feel empty and no joy. I will be living with my mom soon my dad didn't do a lot of nice things that me and my mom had enough of so me and her both agree we are not living in a bad life no more. once im out here in Colorado I can be me and independent but I want to know I am and who I am meant to be so I come here for help and I thank you for whoever reads this and does there best to help me thank you all and god bless everyone.

Link to comment
Guest sweetcharlene41

Hi im new here and I need answers or at least help to what I am. I had a small but clear signs I was transgender but ignored them and didn't know what they meant when I was kid and know thoose signs have upgraded to a lvl where I have so many signs pointing me to that of me suppose to being a female and I want to make sure i have answers so I know what I am. One of the big signs are ghost speaking to me and i am psychic just pointing that out there triyng to say what I am this all started when I was 13 it felt like someone was in my head trying to tell me all this after awhile I stoped fighting it. Next day it was calm no wired feeling in my head but it came back idk if it was me or them but I sometimes saw myself as a girl and I would try ignore it and other times it would try to make me think I should be one and make me wander if it was me cause I never had a clear understanding of who I am I was always pretending to be different cause of my dad very strict person and people at school would judge me for being me cause they see mas retarded and all. Up till know all that has changed I had emmit to myself I would look into it see if it was who I was meant to be and I one thing that did strike me I never was me and I felt lost unsure of who I am as a person and I know wander if being a girl is who I was meant to be cause there where so many things trying to tell me that and to be truthful I feel bored with myself I don't see myself as who I am I feel empty and no joy. I will be living with my mom soon my dad didn't do a lot of nice things that me and my mom had enough of so me and her both agree we are not living in a bad life no more. once im out here in Colorado I can be me and independent but I want to know I am and who I am meant to be so I come here for help and I thank you for whoever reads this and does there best to help me thank you all and god bless everyone.

I'm going to respond to your plight, and remember i'm not a doctor, i can only give you my experiences and hope it helps. When I was your age,m i experienced the same urge's as you are, i tried to suppress them to no avail. my mom took me to a psychiatrist, and of course i wouldn't talk, so that didn't help. I learned to live with them. Know i'm 73 and i simply love dressing as a women, i'm what they call a closet cross dresser, but i love it remember, your are still a person, so if you want to dress as a girl, do so, remember you still have to live with your mom, so make sure she understand's what going on. So be all that you can be, but remember be true to yourself, hope this helps, good luck.

Link to comment
Guest Whitewolf011

Im trying to find what I am im just lost on what to do. I thank you very much for the advice im just hoping someone understands what the heck is going on with me or what I am.

Link to comment
  • Root Admin

I'm also sorry if im asking to much

Not at all. Have you considered counseling with a gender therapist. I think that would be a good start for you.

MaryEllen :)

Link to comment
  • Root Admin

Not knowing your mom, I wouldn't care to guess what she'd say. What do you think she would say? Would she let you see a therapist for depression? If you could get to see any therapist, it would be a big help. If this therapist wasn't knowledgeable on transgender issues perhaps he or she could direct you to one who is. A competent therapist can help you with your confusion.

MaryEllen

Link to comment
  • Root Admin

What kind of person is your mom? Is she a narrow minded religious type? Has she ever spoken negatively or positively about the LGBT community? Is there anyone you could talk to? A school counselor or pastor?

MaryEllen

Link to comment
Guest Whitewolf011

My mom is a very nice person me and her have a strong relationship and we always make each other laugh. She been fighting for me so I don't have to put up with my dad anymore since me and her had enough of him and is cruelty. We are overall are a team been me and my mom ever since I was born we both do a lot fun stuff we make each other laugha lot by goofing around. So I can tell she is very nice but stressed out Cause of my dad and how he keeps fighting and not cooperating with the courts on letting me live here.

Link to comment
Guest Whitewolf011

Plus is 14 a good age to start. My puperoty kicked in at a 11 though my skin is still very soft and my eyes look very girly and I mean girly.

Link to comment
Guest Whitewolf011

And if I do decide to transition Is 14 a good age to start? Puperoty hit when I was 11 but I still retain very soft skin and very girly looking eyes. But im jw cause I read 12 and 13 where the best of ages.

Link to comment
  • Root Admin

Ok, so your mom and you have a good relationship. Can you talk to her about anything that bothers you other than these transgender feelings? Does she listen and offer advice or does she brush you off? Does she tell you she loves you? Do you think her love is unconditional. Do you think that she would hate you if you confessed to being transgender. Think about these things for awhile and try to come up with answers.

This is where a therapist would be most helpful. If you were to be diagnosed with GID it's possible that you could be prescribed T-blockers to stop your puberty from progressing any further. However this would have to be done with your mother's full knowledge and permission.

It would be very helpful if your mom could be educated as to what GID actually is. Below is a link to the WPATH SOC. It's a long read but it covers the subject of being transgender very thoroughly. If your mom could be made to understand what you're going through, I think she would be willing to help you.

http://www.wpath.org/uploaded_files/140/files/IJT%20SOC,%20V7.pdf

Link to comment
Guest Whitewolf011

Yes she said i am her my number priority and I been talking to her about problems with my dad and been there to help me. I thank you for this new info you have provided me with and I we'll keep you informed of what happenscause I may speak to her today about the matter.

Link to comment
Guest Whitewolf011

You are I have GID matching everything up and reading more it all makes sense know I thank you so much I had no idea this was a thing till know.

Link to comment
  • Root Admin

You're welcome, hon. Just know that you're not alone in this. There are many young people such as yourself who are in this same position. If your mom is willing, try to get into therapy with a gender therapist. Below is a list of available therapists. Hopefully, there will be one near you.

http://www.lauras-playground.com/gender_therapists/

Link to comment
Guest Whitewolf011

I well if hopefully keep a progress track of what well happen. I think my case of gid was hidden but something I think was trying to tell all this time cause I never noticed it. I ws so confusee I got to thank you and one the ghost that got me searching and her name was Mary. My dad's house was haunted it seems wired stuff happend in that house. one time saw a female ghost standing in front of my bed I wander if that was Mary Cause she was very freindly,loving and kind she liked to speak to me and watch over me I thought she left but it seems she never did.

Link to comment
  • Root Admin

I think it's great that you have a guardian angel watching over you. :)

Link to comment
Guest Whitewolf011

I agree I thank Mary for all the times she was there for me I know when she is around when I use my device to talk to ghost and she would sometimes say I love u

Link to comment
  • Root Admin

Can you get her to read that WPATH SOC link I sent you? Don't give up. Be persistent but by the same token don't get in her face about it. Once she see's you're serious, I think she'll come around. She's got to be made aware that this isn't a phase or something you've chosen to do. See if you can get her to read this.

http://ai.eecs.umich.edu/people/conway/TS/Evelyn/Mom_I_need_to_be_a_girl.pdf

Link to comment
Guest Whitewolf011

This is what happen she assumed dad was messing with my head or I been kn the tablet to much so she took it and didn't give it back till know. I could not sleep last night every time i was so bugged cause she just shut me down she ran to my room and just well said I didn't have it and was blaming my dad for messing up my head I showed her article a on GID but that changed nothing she didn't even read the whole thing. I feel misunderstood by everyone know cause know one understands who I am but I see as I have a blank book I can rewrite by staring to be. But I can only dream im afraid to say anything know and idk what to do.

Link to comment
Guest Whitewolf011

Plus I belive I have gid I mean my eyes, used to say like alot in each sentence, had done stuff before, and just weired feelings. But im so confused if this is me why did I ever notice up till know. I know I been pretending to be a different person but it's like ugh idk this has all been very stressful and been making me think a lot.

Link to comment

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!

Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.

Sign In Now
  • Who's Online   4 Members, 0 Anonymous, 158 Guests (See full list)

    • FelixThePickleMan
    • Betty K
    • VickySGV
    • kristinabee
  • Recently Browsing   0 members

    • No registered users viewing this page.
  • Forum Statistics

    • Total Topics
      80.7k
    • Total Posts
      769.3k
  • Member Statistics

    • Total Members
      12,059
    • Most Online
      8,356

    FelixThePickleMan
    Newest Member
    FelixThePickleMan
    Joined
  • Today's Birthdays

    1. Aelia
      Aelia
      (22 years old)
    2. Just-Jenny-finally
      Just-Jenny-finally
      (65 years old)
    3. KelcieK
      KelcieK
      (50 years old)
    4. Krimson Kya
      Krimson Kya
      (35 years old)
    5. Robin
      Robin
      (56 years old)
  • Posts

    • awkward-yet-sweet
      I didn't use makeup even in my girl form.  And certainly not now in my boy form.  I don't even like sunscreen...it just feels greasy.  I've always disliked putting stuff on myself.  Partly because of the physical feeling, and partly because I don't want to pretend to anybody.    My partners are mostly the same...makeup isn't really a thing for our faith.  But my GF and husband have one particular vanity - covering up gray hair.  IDK if I will feel differently when I start getting some of my own, eventually.
    • Jet McCartney
      I'm ftm but I still wear makeup on occasion to cover up my rosacea. Just primer and sunscreen usually. Sometimes I'll fill in my eyebrows too
    • DonkeySocks
      I think some of "them" are just us. If I log out, I might come in and putter around the forums for a minute before I commit to logging in and reading or participating. That probably shows as a guest visit.
    • DonkeySocks
      I have the Pierre by New York Toy Collective, I think I bought it from a different online store but it is that brand. The size recommendations will say that the four-inch shaft (the small Pierre) is for people 5' tall and under. I am 5'8" and it is fine for me. The larger (regular) Pierre shaft size is way too big to wear regularly, but it is a great packer to have around for gender affirming play at home. So even if you are taller than 5', if you aren't sure and you want something easy to wear, go with the small. It is a silicone packer.
    • awkward-yet-sweet
      Yes, resilient, for sure.  Ours were elementary/middle school age when their father died.  The girl took it really hard, losing her father.  My husband has been there as friend, counselor, and stepfather.  He was a dear friend of their father, and he has put in a lot of effort to raise them.  The eldest son is now his secretary, aide, and driver at work.   Since I'm young-ish and not their primary parent(s), I have the role of being an older friend to them.  They don't seem to have any issues with my gender.  I'm just Jen, and everybody knows that Jen is a little different.
    • awkward-yet-sweet
      If you're looking for a millennial female who might be interested, maybe contact Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez? Y'all might have some things in common, and I think she and her partner are doing the "childless" thing.      Interesting that your wife did concrete work.  My GF spent some time laying concrete for her own projects....while 6 months pregnant.   She's a very stubborn girl.  Probably the exact opposite of the millennial female you're looking for, since she's a mother of 5 (and wished she could have more.)  Interesting how folks can have similar origins, but come to opposite conclusions.  My GF grew up in dire poverty, stealing to eat and take care of her little sister.  As a young adult, she spent several years living in a commune, and was a member of an armed communist political movement.  Now she's probably the most fervent anti-leftist, anti-government person you could ever find.  Experiences really shape who we are.    The lesson I draw from this is that globalism is not the right solution, and even the USA is too large a nation for everybody to agree.  Time to downsize voluntarily, before a civil war does it for us.  Some folks suggest that the USA could become between 4 and 7 different nations.  The way the world is going, I suspect you'll get your "depopulation" wish....but it will come about through war, plagues, and famine. 
    • awkward-yet-sweet
      I made apple pies, since we have apple trees here.  A classic, simple recipe, everything made from scratch.  We can make just about any kind of pie here - pecan, apple, pear, peach, blackberry....    I think the 6-burner stove came from an old diner.  So, technically a restaurant stove, just a small one.  It probably came from an auction, as my partner usually has an eye for deals.    This stove has 8 burners:   https://www.lowes.com/pd/FORNO-48-in-4-32-cu-ft-2-26-cu-ft-Steam-cleaning-Double-Oven-Convection-Gas-Range-Stainless-steel/1003096398?cm_mmc=shp-_-c-_-prd-_-app-_-ggl-_-PLA_APP_186_Cooking-_-1003096398-_-online-_-0-_-0&ds_rl=1286890&gad_source=1&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIj86BiPj3hQMVeTbUAR2m5wexEAQYASABEgI9tvD_BwE&gclsrc=aw.ds   This one is the one I would love to have...it has 10:   https://www.lowes.com/pd/FORNO-Galiano-Gold-Professional-60-inch-Freestanding-Gas-Range/5013821825?cm_mmc=shp-_-c-_-prd-_-app-_-ggl-_-PLA_APP_186_Cooking-_-5013821825-_-online-_-0-_-0&ds_rl=1286890&gad_source=1&gclid=EAIaIQobChMIj86BiPj3hQMVeTbUAR2m5wexEAQYDSABEgIt__D_BwE&gclsrc=aw.ds
    • missyjo
      69 years young dear  winks it's just a number..   transcend it n be fabulous  hugs
    • Lydia_R
    • Lydia_R
      Not to bump this up or anything, but I just want to put one more note on the end of this...   Thank you for allowing me to post this here and thank you for all who have responded.  This step has been a huge help to me on my political journey.  I've made several key decisions in the last few days that allow me to run a better campaign for the next 4 years.  I worked my way off of the streets 20 years ago by writing math and computer programming on paper.  10 years later I was able to buy a house with the software engineering work that I was doing.  Now 20 years after getting off of the streets and having two failed bids for US Representative and likely another failed bid in the next couple weeks, I've come to the point of selling my house to run a very frugal campaign for vice-president (it's a thing even though it is an appointed position) for the next 4 years, all on the money I have earned from that work I did on the streets.   My policy going forward is that I'm not going to ask for money and I'm not going to ask for people's votes.  The vice-presidency is an appointed position.  I'm also not going to run for legislative offices anymore.  I'm simply going to tour the country on my own dime looking for good people and a strong millennial female who sees my logic and would like to be president.   I have reached out to tens of thousands of people on my own dime in the last 7 years.  Famous people, ultra-famous people, business leaders, civil engineers, random people, news people, educators, unions, politicians.  I certainly got less than 5 emails from those efforts.  Actually, I only really remember one person.  He is an educator and we had a good Zoom meeting.   I'm not bitter.  I'm not complaining.  Those of you who have followed me on this site know I like to keep things positive and talk about cooking and living healthy.  I hope that this post doesn't get buried.  I think the title is strong and my message is clear.  I don't want to bog this site down with the details of the whole thing.  I simply want people to know that there is a transwoman working to be vice-president.  Notice that I didn't title this a-transwoman-as-us-respresentative.  My politics are executive level.  I'm a whistleblower, not a complainer.  I aim to educate and inspire.
    • MaryEllen
      Photos posted in the general forums are visible to anyone or anything. Photos in the gallery are visible only to members. non members cannot see them.
    • Betty K
      You’re welcome, Vidanjali. Now I have to actually start writing!
    • Abigail Genevieve
      Society is preserved by passing on proper roles for people, which works for the 90+ percent that it works for.   We were all taught from an early age that breaking out of the classification was a shameful thing, even when, actually, it is not. 
    • Abigail Genevieve
      I'm probably showing my age.  I haven't looked at a guest count in a long time.  Doing FB and staying off forums for a while.  Previous forum use had fewer bots if any and guests were actual people, mostly, unlike today.    Any AIs or bots struggling with GD are welcome.  I would love to read your introduction.
    • kristinabee
      I've seen this on a lot of forums tbh. That's how a lot of content ends up on internet archives. You've got loads of bots scanning the site at all times and archiving it. Forums are actually nice (in comparison to social media) in that the guest count gives you a pretty good idea of how actively the site's content is being archived. Basically just don't post anything you don't want archived.
  • Upcoming Events

Contact TransPulse

TransPulse can be contacted in the following ways:

Email: Click Here.

To report an error on this page.

Legal

Your use of this site is subject to the following rules and policies, whether you have read them or not.

Terms of Use
Privacy Policy
DMCA Policy
Community Rules

Hosting

Upstream hosting for TransPulse provided by QnEZ.

Sponsorship

Special consideration for TransPulse is kindly provided by The Breast Form Store.
×
×
  • Create New...