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The Pink Fog lifted


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Guest Wendae

The "Pink Fog" has lifted and my male persona is in total charge. This happens every so many years and lasts for a month or even longer. This has lasted now since the first week in Feb. I hate it and feel like part of me is missing. If I remember the next step will be short temperdness and depression until the urge returns with overwhelming intensity. :blink:

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I'm sorry to hear you are having an eruption of the guy persona. I know he is still part of me as well and have tried to come to grips with that. 63 years of him simply doesn't go away. He will always be there as part of me. Unfortunately that just may be one of those things about late life transition that will bug me from time to time. However I am happy that when i break down on a cold deserted road i can change a tire.

Hugs,

Charlize

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This too shall pass, Wendae. At least you know, based on past events, that it should be short lived. Hang in there, girl!

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Carolyn Marie

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Guest Wendae

Charlize...Funny you should say that about changing a tire. Back in the 70's while stationed in the desert I took one of my first day time drives femmed up. I drove out the back gate to avoid sentries and to my horror saw I needed gas. I believe there was only one gas station in town. I removed my wig and used full service w/o incident. Driving east out of town I was well away from normal traffic when I got a flat. It was summer and a bit warm. I had on a girdle, pantyhose, cami, skirt and blouse. I was greatful there was no one around but I can tell you I worked up a sweat. Even tho I'll be 74 in July I can still change a tire but prefer to use AAA. :)

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I hate those times too Wendae, but in my case now even "he" has mellowed out. The one disadvantage "he" has in his life with me, is that I no longer have accessible male clothing, although grungy, paint stained female stuff is pretty close. We do get cycles in this.

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Guest Eve Caillard

Wendae I understand and sympathise. When I first posted here a mere three years ago I was alarmed when my CD feelings drained away one month. I was about to post asking if this was normal but a quick search showed that, in fact, it is normal (well, for us!). And so I just let things happen and all turned out well.

Nowadays, I'm used to the fact the Eve comes and goes. There seems to be little rhyme or reason for the changes, but my guess is they are hormonal. Like the ladies, our hormones fluctuate. And I think most likely down to life stresses, diet, the environment and how we feel about ourselves.

The nice thing is, the femininity always seems to return in its own time, and often just when it is needed.

I hope Wendae is back soon!

Hugs

Eve

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