Stressing the stress test

[JJ]

Charlize you have been in my thoughts and prayers. When my new Dr and I were discussing my health and the dangers of T etc I told her I had already had years I never expected to have and rejoice in every one. If I die tomorrow then it will be okay. It makes today sweeter and more important because I know that each one is a gift. I'm nearly 20 years over my life expectancy and just before transition was down to months at most probably weeks. I had been told it was impossible to fight my way back. They were wrong. Possibilities are always so much greater than we can know.

I don't want to die tomorrow but knowing I could doesn't cast a shadow over today. You are such a wonderful remarkable woman with what sounds like a beautiful life now. Just hold on to that and enjoy it every moment you have it. What will happen will happen and the time to pay for it is when it does.

Which I hope will turn out to be much much longer than you think.

Love

Johnny

[Charlize]

I'm not sure i want to post this as it may be snatched away as it has been 3 times before. I am approved for an orchiectomy and have a date of August 12 set with Dr. McGinn. This has been a long(over 2 years) struggle to be healthy enough and to get a cardiologist that will approve me for any surgery. I will still need to be on very aggressive blood thinners throughout the process but Dr. McGinn says she can handle that. SRS is not for me but this will allow some freedom from the old tyrant T without medications that are not good for me over a long period.

I see my new cardiologist in a few hours.....he's getting a bottle of syrup! I just need to stay healthy for a month. Having already prepped for this 3 times in the past i'm not worried about those issues.

Finally! Oops said that before....... ssshhh.

Hugs,

Charlize

[Cyndee]

Fingers crossed for you dear friend.

Hugs

C -

[Guest]

As usual, you are in my thoughts, Charlize.

Hoping third time is a charm for you.

It is wonderful to hear that Dr.McGinn is willing to work with the blood thinners.

Huggs,

Joann

[Guest]

It will happen. Two things going for it. You deserve it and a Higher Power. Hug. JodyAnn

[tracy_j]

Be confident

It's time for the wait to end!

Tracy x

[Guest Raya]

Charlize, you have my prayers that it will go so smoothly everyone will think it was easy! So glad for you that that window is open again.

[Charlize]

My new cardiologist is a sweetheart who takes his time to explain difficulties but also listens. He is in a GLBT friendly practice at the University of Pennsylvania Hospital in Philadelphia. It is a bit of a drive from here but well worth the trip. He actually went through the results of my last cath. and explained the condition my coronary arteries are in. Scary! My heart is a mess but it is working and so far i've had the advantage of feeling new problems as they occur. Several of the vessels that were changed in open heart surgery are blocked. Other natural vessels are blocked or partially blocked often at places where stents have been placed in the past. When i hear the litany of problems it underlines the severity of my disease. I have to accept that. He also is able to at least accept me as a trans* person who has certain needs. E may become a problem for me but that's a bridge i'll cross in the future. At least he is willing to understand my life and help as much as he can.

I'm glad to have you wonderful folks here for support.

Hugs,

Charlize

[Guest KerryUK]

Hi Charlize,

I'm so sorry that the cardiologist seemed to paint such a gloomy picture. Hope the Orchidectomy still goes ahead - third time lucky (as they say). You are in my thoughts.

Kerry

[Guest Hannah Emma]

All I can do is send hugs and we'll wishes your way. I hope everything goes well.

[Guest Carla_Davis]

Hi Charlize,

I am very happy about your new cardiologist

I am sorry that your heart is such a mess

I am also happy that he is accepting you as a Trans* patient with certain needs.

Cross one bridge at a time.

Sending my love and support that you remain healthy

Hugs,

Carla

[JJ]

Hugs Charlize

I's great that you gave found a Dr who accepts you and you can establish a relationship with. I do hate to hear about all the problems and wil send positive thoughts and prayers your way. Your sprirtual heart is so beautiful it just seems wrong that your physical one should be otherwise.

Johnny

[Guest Mickey]

You are in my prayers Charlize. I'm still waiting for the peer to peer between my Dr. and the insurance company that will decide my appeal.

[Charlize]

Fingers crossed! Got my blood test and chest x-ray yesterday as soon as i got the script. I must admit i loved putting the little pasties on my nipples this time through. I almost wore them home because the looked so cute on the girls. I'm scheduled for a physical on the 31st but i've already got the approval letter from my cardiologist. Hopefully the family doctor will give the go ahead as well. What a beautiful life.... i may even make it this time. I'll cross my toes as well. (ouch)

Hugs,

Charlize

[JJ]

Great news! I so hope it all goes beautifully for you.

Those pasties would make an interesting addition to a scrapbook

Hugs

Johnny

[Guest]

That's wonderful news, Charlize.

Keeping you in my thoughts, as always.

Huggs,

Joann

[Charlize]

My blood tests and physical went well this last week so now i think it is only a week + and i'll finally get rid of the little poskers. I don't regret them as i see my son and grandchildren but they've done their job and continue to cause difficulties. Now to get the last hay into the barn, last firewood into the sugar house wood shed, and otherwise prep for a few weeks of having to take it easy( awww shucks). Just have to keep my ticker ticking happily.

Hugs,

Charlize

[Guest]

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