Do I want SRS?

[Guest Raya]

I've been pondering this, and am going to use this post as thinking out loud, and solicit input from others.

I havent had a partner in 15 years, but do desire a life mate at some point- I'm kinda demisexual and currently more attracted to women.

As a minimum, I would like an Orchi, to greatly reduce the T and tidy things up below. Ive seen pictures with just a small stub remaining, and would greatly prefer that to what I have now.

The cosmetic SRS seems great, easier surgery and no dilation. I think I would find this very fulfilling in terms of being female.

To be had, or taken, (words fail me) by a lover I still can't fully imagine. I've read here that it's nice

I'm back to the endo next week, and will probably ask for finasteride to help feminization, scalp hair regrowth and increase shrinkage down below. (im on a lower dose of oral E and Spiro) It will be a while before shrinkage would impact SRS, but I wonder...

[Guest Raya]

Thanks Cynthia, and I'm happy for you having your GCS coming up.

I love your phrase "weary of what's there now", it describes what I am feeling. But it is such a major correction, it's difficult for me to see the outcome instead of the process.

[VickySGV]

I went "all the way" with GCS nearly 3 years ago. I have not yet had a male partner to experience "life" with, and I am probably either demi-sexual or maybe even asexual, but the maintenance and the idea of being open to possibilities even out in my mind, but the cosmetic GCS is an option and does not make a person "less Trans*" or less <True Gender> person. Dilation, shaving the small remainder of whiskers, and morning shower all go together these days and it is just my life. It was not a small part of life at first release from the hospital, nor for the first year, it was a heckuva part, but time has gone by quickly and steadily. I am happy with me, and I am healthier for my age than so many people are because of that happiness.

[Guest AllisonRae]

Hi Tracy, This is one subject that I have really went back and forth on. It has been a about a year since I finally admitted to myself I was a woman. Back in the late 90s when I began researching transition before realizing that I was trans (it sounds odd but its a long story). I seriously thought about GRS. Early after admitting the truth to myself I was not sure if I wanted to take that step. Now after almost 5 months of HRT I am starting to lean in that direction again. I may change my mind again, who knows. I am still attracted to women but have had a couple of times that I have seen a guy and have a 'OMG is he cute' reaction. Its kinda a odd feeling. My sex life with my current partner is currently null and it is a bit heartbreaking but sex does not matter to me like it once did either. I guess for myself I will continue to keep in touch with my feelings and see whete it leads me.

Hugs

Allison

[Guest KerryUK]

Hi Raya, it's such a huge decision and one that only you alone can make. As I'm sure you know, I'm at 5 months post op (cosmetic) and am very happy with the results. When I came round from the surgery I have to admit that I was pleased that I didn't face a life of dilation etc.

Occasionally, I do wonder what it would be like to be penetrated but as I have a hugely reduced libido I'm really not that bothered. I don't really see myself in a relationship with a man anyway as I'm with my long term female partner (we don't have a sexual relationship and haven't for years ) and although I occasionally have an 'ooh he's nice' moment, I wouldn't want to be with that guy.

Kerry

[Guest]

Just a couple of comments please; GCS is not a walk in the park. If you need it, it is so worth it! Caulk it up to a seriously life changing event. So is child birth so maybe it is all quite relative. Welcome to female!?!

As for me? I'm still as aroused as a rabbit! I always have been and I'm glad that hasn't changed. I went for the donut with the hole, desiring the whole package. My sexuality may shift around a bit, so I don't have a final disposition on that one. My new parts have always been a part of me, now they have manifested in my life reality.

I may differentiate from the norm, but needing mammograms and my gynecologist is a heartwarming joy. It makes me feel whole and complete.

Some know that I have had a little difficulty accepting dilation. Sometimes very, very pleasurable, other times gritting my teeth in pain. I'm only four months in surgical recovery so I'm sure it will get better. I was looking at my largest stint thinking Gawd! I stuff that monster inside me! Welcome to womanhood and don't forget a pad. I like the Estrace cream what a nice way to apply estrogen. Who was that man that wasn't me. Who cares! Giggle. I'm ok now.

It may be erroneous to think that hormone shrinkage negatively effects depth, not so. It never goes away just the performance aspects. I was average length and my surgeon provided me with a full six inches of depth. I'm so very glad he didn't harvest my colon and add to my difficulty. He stated he only uses colon sections on patients that have had lifelong micro penises. I feel very fortunate with my results. Surgery technics are constantly changing and improving. Thailand being on the leading edge and much more affordable.

If one has done all their research, self assured in their need for GCS and immersed in living full time female, they are ready to take the last and greatest step into womanhood. I did that, so I have no doubts or regrets. Happy Journeys! Hug. JodyAnn

[Guest Raya]

Thanks for the input, ladies.

Kerry, I was hoping to hear your opinion, and I'm glad to have your insight. Like you said, I wonder, but it may be just a daydream. I believe if I find a lover, we would be able to work with what we have.

Jody, I'm not assured of my need for full GCS yet, I'm considering my options. I'm early on the journey, just started this spring, kind of fading into full time some time next year. I don't see GCS as the last step, becoming me seems like a lifetime project. And my greatest step, call me vain, would be to have a full head of beautiful hair! I mean, the feminine shape is happening already, and I feel confident in some type of bottom surgery working, but to have my own hair back, that seems a beautiful dream.

[Guest KerryUK]

You're very welcome Raya and feel free to ask,

Just a quick update, I had my review consultation with the Surgeon yesterday and will be having a further 'revision' operation. I have a few 'dog ear' tags which need tidying, my clitoris remains exposed and so rubs (it can be quite uncomfortable at times and way too sensitive) and my urethra needs a little 'stretch' as I sometimes feel a little restriction if I've been holding it in.

So, he will be moving the clitoris down more towards the urethral opening and drawing the two sides (labia) closer together as when I stand, they are apart. He will be tidying the 'dog ears'. It should be a roughly 40 minute procedure and will be a day visit so no overnight stay. Then he said I should have no more than a week off.

I know this sounds like a lot but in actual fact, he is pleased with the overall results and especially with the fact that there is no vaginal opening there - he had to remind himself that I didn't have one so it must look pretty good.

Kerry