I am going to drink tonight

[Jennifer T]

I celebrated a belated birthday with my son and his wife tonight. I wanted a drink badly, but refrained. Now I'm wondering why I chose not to.

So, cheers. Sweet dreams, Laura's.

Peace

[MaryEllen]

It's because you know that drink can lead to ruin. You had the resolve to overcome the temptation. I applaud you for doing so.

MaryEllen

[Guest Raya]

Well, 'tis nobler to hop, skip, and jump about the playground than suffer the slings and arrows of self flagellation.

Glad you stopped by!

Hugs to you

[Jani]

Because you want to be able to celebrate birthdays.

Hugs!

Jani

[Guest]

Oh Honey, I've worn those shoes. I can't speak for you, but I can share about me on this very day of my four year medallion.

I didn't drink for my daughter's birthday yesterday. I didn't let her down as of birthdays past.

I didn't have to decide whether to lie and claim I didn't drink, or get up for real and take a hug and another one of those bloody twentyfour hour chips!

I won't have to go to meetings and give my name when they ask for anyone in their first thirty days. Then hear them clap for me for a month, making me feel to myself like "yeah, Jody's stupid again!"

Best of all I'm laying on my bed, not smashed, not passed out, writing this so I can say "Great job girlfriend for being clean and sober!" Special hug. JodyAnn

[Guest cerise]

It's hard sometimes but that what getting step on is about.

[JJ]

Not a drinker but my life has been deeply affected by them and I am very familiar with the behaviors.

I guess in my view the only person who can say if not taking that drink was worth it. And the only person who can decide is you. No one else has the responsibility for your life but you.

There are many here and IRL who will lend you their support and help you stay strong if that is your choice. But they can't make the choice for you. You know why you didn't drink.

And congratz on making that decision for the dinner. It was a gift you gave your son and yourself. I have too many memories when my mother or my ex didn't make that choice .

Johnny

[Jennifer T]

Sorry, it appears I misrepresented myself, unintentionally. I didn't drink while out with my son. However I did while I was writing this last night. Hence the title of the thread.

Anyway, thanks for the input all.

Peace .

[Guest]

Well, you can start a new day any day. If the booze works you don't need a new day.

I've been on both sides of that fence. We love you regardless. Hug. JodyAnn

[Charlize]

Yesterday was the 9th birthday of my first grandchild. We had a great party for him on Sunday. I truly enjoyed him and his brother play non the mountains of snow i had made with the front end loaders. I wasn't even remotely thinking of a drink. When he was born i got to the hospital but my addiction had taken me to the point of shaking and i was so unsure of myself that i couldn't hold him in my arms. I was at the point of hallucinating on occasions and they weren't nice little gnomes. 10 days later i walked into the rooms of AA. It wasn't (and at times still isn't) easy. What i can say is that it has never been as bad as it became at the end of my addiction. This disease is like an elevator. I got off a a low floor but i know many who have gotten off both above and below me. Getting off isn't guaranteed. I know that the first drink would most likely take me to the basement with a terrible ride. Sobriety is something we have to work for but the rewards are worth it, the alternatives are insanity and death.

Hugs,

Charlize

[Jennifer T]

Well, you can start a new day any day. If the booze works you don't need a new day.

I've been on both sides of that fence. We love you regardless. Hug. JodyAnn

Thank you.