Well I Did It

[Guest]

Hello everyone. Well it has happened. I dressed for my SO. Last night (Sunday) at 5 pm. We talked about it first and covered a lot of ground. Right before I went in to change into Amber I asked her if she wanted to help and she said no. This made me very unsure but I wasn't going to turn back. I felt I couldnt. I thought this would show weakness on my part. I looked through my things. Picked out the new dress I had got last week. Stockings heels and light jewelery with my wig. I checked myself over and over in the mirror. I was pleased with the results. I stood in the bedroom for what seemed like an eternity. My heart was racing and I was shaking all over. I must of started down the hall way a half dozen times towards the living room and ended up stopping each time. I got so nervous I ended up getting sick. I knew she was waiting so I mustered all the courage I had after cleaning myself up. I finally stepped out so ahe could see me. There I stood and did I ever feel her eyes on me. I attempted to ask her what she thought and she told me to be quiet. I felt like I was going to be sick again. Finally she said ok she had seen enough. I turned ran back to bath room and got sick again. I cleaned up again got changed and went back into the living room and sat down by her. I was trembling wondering what was going through her mind. She saw me shaking and asked why I was and I just told her I needed to know what she thought. She just said if that was what I wanted she would not stop me. Nothing else was said. Well I had to leave early this morning and head to Saint Louis. No good by or anything. I'm back in the hotel room. I did speak with her on the phone but she said nothing about last night. She did say she loved me which eased my nerves some. Maybe it's too soon. I know it's a lot for her to take in so I'm praying things will be ok when I get back home in a few days. I knew this could go one of two ways but I feel like I'm stuck in between somewhere. But in the back of my mind I feel I done the right thing. There's no more hiding and the truth is out. Knowing these two things will pull me through no matter what. I will keep everybody posted on what's happening. Thanks to all who has given input. Hugs. Amber

[Guest Wanda Michelle]

Good for you, Amber. I hope everything turns out well for you!

Hugs,

Wanda

[Charlize]

I will have you in my thoughts and prayers Amber. Coming out to my wife was the hardest thing i had ever done. I remember the feelings so well.

Hope all will go well for you and you can continue to share the love you have had with your wife and still be honest.

Hugs,

Charlize

[SoSarah]

Thanks Amber for the update. The world does come a end, just more interesting. Making this work for you two is so much my hopes for you. Smiles... Sarah

[Guest AshleighP]

I feel you did the right thing, regardless of the outcome. I wish my spouse would at least give me the chance to show her who I am inside. We don't even hardly talk about it. It has become the proverbial " elephant in the room".

Although, she did go away for the night recently and before she left she said " are you going to dress in women's clothes while I'm gone?" I replied, probably. And that was the end of the conversation.

Of course, I did. Went downtown window shopping, but that's a whole other story.

Best of luck!

[tracy_j]

Hi Amber

I hope things turn out well

My experience was a little different as I started very stealthily but I have a strong suspicion that my partner and son inspected my wardrobe and knew a long time before I said anything. It takes time!

Tracy

[Guest]

I feel for you! I hope all goes well over time.