Newbie saying hello

[Alice]

Hi everyone,

I do believe after google helped me i have Androgyny. Im 26 yrs old soon to be 27. only just getting to grips with things.

Ever since i was able to think and do stuff for myself i have always been interested and wearing (at night) my sisters clothes and i was able to do that on and off till i was in primary school. Got caught my mum and save to say that was that. Just because i am a male i had to dress like one regardless. I did find other things that were happening like being interested in "female" activities such as crafts and glitter etc.. All through my life i was help down had to do what was expected from my family. I do admit to "acting strange"   (as mum put it) when it was just the other mind in me that was doing what to me felt completely normal. I get along other females better than males, even if its with friends or family i will always stay away from the male species and trying to join in the female  conversations. 

It wasn't until i searched up did i find a name to what feels like is hard wire into me. I explained this to my fiancee and thank the lord she loves me know different and she has allowed me to wear her clothes to make feel comfortable. I only wear the underneath stuff as that feels good and relaxes the mind. I can do what i like and even if i move and dance like a female sometimes it just feels so good to not do the male type things.

I would like to add im not stereotypical on what male and females do. Its the easiest way i can explain what i`m going through. Yes i o have some thoughts of body changing but as long as i can just be me thats not a high priority.  I do have a few worries and nerves what my fiancee thinks of this but she keeps telling me there isnt anything to worry about. Has anyone else had the same feelings, thoughts?  

Hope i havent offended anyone, apologize if that has happened or touch some nerve strings. First time for saying abit about myself on a forum. 

 

 

[MaryEllen]

Hello Gentilhug,

Welcome to Laura's Playground. Thank you for sharing with us. Feel free to look around and ask questions. We'll try to provide answers to any questions you may have.

MaryEllen

[Alice]

ok many thanks

 

[Jani]

Welcome!  We'e glad you found us.  Please join in the conversation.  I know you'll feel comfortable here.

Jani

[MarcieMarie12]

Hugs Gentilehug! Welcome to Laura's!

Marcie

 

[Alice]

Thanks for the warm welcome

[Briana]

Hi and welcome to Laura's.  I think you'll find this a very friendly and nonjudgmental forum made up of many different people with different life experiences that are always willing to help however they can.

[tracy_j]

Hi gentilhug

Welcome

You will find many with similar feelings here and people are very friendly and helpful. There is a lot of information and there are several people here from the UK so have experiences of the various aspects here. I am very similar in that I don't regard body change as a priority but do live as predominantly female these days. My partner, although she does dislike it somewhat, has grown to live with it although I don't think she understands; just accepts. Things can work with understanding on both sides. I am a lot older but have had similar thoughs, with some actions, ever since very early years too.

Please don't hesitate to read and post. If you have any questions please ask!

Tracy x

[Alice]

Please call me jon or jonathan. I havent thought about name change. Its probs cause its a new experience to wear the misses clothes. Question.. does the feeling of letting the other half see you in clothes get more natural.. ie: comfortable etc. I feel like hiding a little when changing even though she is very good about it 

[tracy_j]

I would say yes - it does get more natural. I have got to the stage now in which I dress female over 95% of the time. With my partner - She does comment on what I wear from time to time, mainly if I get it wrong, otherwise she says little. I am slightly uncomfortable dressing in front of her, particularly when putting my bra on. With that I am always expecting her to ask why? (I am not on HRT so have small male boobs). I think she would say something if I wore forms but I don't. I managed to locate a bra which fits well (Dainty Lady online in Uk).

When out and about, nowadays I am fairly comfortable. even with people who know me as male. They get used to things. I was surprised last Sunday when I had to call in on my mother. On Sundays I go shopping and am always dressed in a dress or skirt with tights. I have never come out to her (mainly as she is old and forgetful so it is easier not to, just stealthily progress forward). I just walked in as normal, chatted and did what I called to do, then left. No comments, questions or otherwise, and I was relaxed as behaving as normal. Usually I dress down a little with jeans and jumper when I visit so this was a bit of a jump. It was not totally explicit as I was wearing a short coat but the skirt extended below it so not totally obvious but not male for definite. I was surprised how non concerned and confident I was and her non-reaction.

The name change, or having a seperate female name, becomes more relevant when you are out and about fully female. If that is likely it is a good idea to have a name and get used to it. Not many people know me as Tracy, but when I hear the name I naturally respond, and it feels right. Really it is a case of doing what feels right. I had my name at a very early stage as I was effectively out online long before my first ventures into the community (as I suspect many others are). Currently I feel I am androgyne, not transexual, so tend to jump back and forth although in my natural state I just do as I feel so my name is not really an issue to me. It is just society and segregation which often makes it easier to be female although to say 'I am not male' is more correct.

Tracy

[Alice]

Thank you for the comfort tracy it really is good to know that it just takes time and eventually it would be as natural as driving

[gennee]

Hi Gentilhug and welcome to Laura's.

 

[Alice]

Thank you  gennee

 

[DaHudie Biz]

It's good that you know what you want. Body change isn't for everyone. Welcome to the world of the Playground.

[Alice]

Thank you caykay 1972. Sorry for the delayed acknowledgment