still have some questions

[lizzy16]

So after some time soul-searching, research, and some more experimentation with cross dressing, I'm still not too sure what I am lol. I know more at this point that I'd much prefer to have a woman's body, yet I still have trouble seeing myself as completely female at least as far as the mannerisms and such go. I also still go back and forth between wondering if I want to really have a woman's body or if I'm just so attracted to women that it's a weird form of envy and possessiveness. I'd love to spend a day going out as a woman, but my body type is such that I doubt I could pass very easily, plus I have facial hair and short hair that I somewhat like. What are everyone's thoughts?

[Carolyn Marie]

Lizzy, there is almost always confusion, doubt and anxiety when someone embarks on this journey.  Some things that might ease your mind include these facts: many things of which you are concerned can be learned, will take care of themselves with hormones (if you go that route), or are not the severe problems you think they are.

Mannerisms, speech, makeup, dress, hair, etc., can all be learned, grown, or purchased, not necessarily in that order.  Body size and build can be overcome through diet, hormones and the fact that there are many cis-women whose bodies are not the average, either.  Facial hair can be covered and short hair can get a wig.

As to your other concerns, those can only be answered with the help of a gender therapist.

My advice is to take things one step and a time, and try not to worry too much.  You don't need those short hairs falling out prematurely. 

Carolyn Marie