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EVAN_DESU

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EVAN_DESU

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The past couple days I don't know what's been going on...

It first started with feeling really depressed....

Keeping all my gender problems/issues to myself

& having no one to talk to (face to face) about them....

Then I kept on almost outting myself when talking with my mom...

We were talking about babies and she was like "Childbirth is so beautiful, when you go through it, you'll see."

Then she kept on talking about women issues and stuff.

Without really thinking, I almost said "Boys don't have babies."

Then when we were watching a show on tv called transvestite wives, I said "Oh, when I was searching up stuff on..." then I just stopped because I realized what I was going to say... which was "Oh, when I was searching for stuff on tv about trans related things, I came across this."

Then when I had to go to the bathroom, I got up, but she was in my way and I almost said "Make way for the prince."

I kept on having other incidents like this the past few days....

On top of that last night I kept on having nightmares(about 4 or 5)

And all I think about is that I don't have a male body, so I'm basically upset now 24/7.

It's been a week of crappyness.

(>.<) :(

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Sally Gold Member

Sally

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I am so sorry for your bad week, I've had a few years like that!

You just knew that someone would come along to tell you that they had it worse so I thought I'd get that out of the way for you.

Seriously, we all have those times and I am going through the post coming out but my mother is still in denial and trying to convince me that I am not phase.

It is something that you have to decide when to come out and do it - you have reached the point where you really want her to know and that is what's bugging you.

You have to decide when and how but untill then remember that it is the underlying problem and you can better deal with it.

Love ya,

Sally

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Guest DanM

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We all have our own time to come out and be the real us. You will know when the time is right for you. I do hope you have the strength to overcome your nightmares, since they can be worse than reality.

When you do come out to your mom you might want to just sit her down, just the two of you and tell her Mom I really need to discuss something that is going on with me to you. I need your understanding and help here. This way she will know your serious and value her input. Don't get into a yelling match over it will make it worse and harder for her to understand then. If you have been surfing the internet and have been reading up on some of the resources use them when talking to your mom, show her you do know what your talking about, its better than going in empty handed as they say.

Hope this helps.

Peace and Love Dan

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Hey, man. It's hard to keep big stuff like this under wraps. It's stressful because we want to tell someone, but we also kinda don't. It wears on you. I've definitely been where you are before. You'll come through it. Hang in there! We're all here for you if you need to vent.

Keep on researching things and figuring stuff out for yourself. All that work will be of great help when you start talking to your family.

When you feel strong and ready, you'll take the next step forward. Everyone goes at their own pace in this journey.

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My Dearest Misaki,

Child, just go ahead vent, cry, scream out loud to us. That is why we are here. Do not despair my dear, when it is right time to come out to your mother... you will know. I suspect that that day is near.

Feel free to PM me if you need to.

I am here darling

Love

bernii

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Guest Javey

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I can definitely relate. I've had weeks like that too. It sucks. My mom will talk about me having kids, or womens issues, and i just kind of want to run out of the room screaming <_< .

But things always get better. Promise.

The past couple days I don't know what's been going on...

It first started with feeling really depressed....

Keeping all my gender problems/issues to myself

& having no one to talk to (face to face) about them....

Then I kept on almost outting myself when talking with my mom...

We were talking about babies and she was like "Childbirth is so beautiful, when you go through it, you'll see."

Then she kept on talking about women issues and stuff.

Without really thinking, I almost said "Boys don't have babies."

Then when we were watching a show on tv called transvestite wives, I said "Oh, when I was searching up stuff on..." then I just stopped because I realized what I was going to say... which was "Oh, when I was searching for stuff on tv about trans related things, I came across this."

Then when I had to go to the bathroom, I got up, but she was in my way and I almost said "Make way for the prince."

I kept on having other incidents like this the past few days....

On top of that last night I kept on having nightmares(about 4 or 5)

And all I think about is that I don't have a male body, so I'm basically upset now 24/7.

It's been a week of crappyness.

(>.<) :(

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